i know everything was a bit sudden, but i feel like i should at least explain myself to you guys—all 13 of you. writing brought me so much joy, but at some point, it also started giving me so much anxiety?? like, i don’t even know where it came from, but it would just hit me out of nowhere. i’d be at school, completely distracted, thinking about whether someone absolutely hated what i wrote. i’d be sitting there begging to go home just so i could check my phone.
not only that, but even the smallest tumblr notification would send me spiraling. at some point, i realized this was really toxic behavior and that i needed to stop. so i deactivated my account. it wasn’t an easy decision, but i know it was the right one for me.
i just wanted to say this wasn’t about you guys or your support—it was about me needing to take care of myself. i really appreciate all of you, and i hope you understand. love u all xoxo💗