They should invent a not being exhausted
we diagnose you with a creeping sense of alienation forever. incurable
Mac Baconai
Being insane but cognitively aware of how insane you are is a special kind of hell because you know that you aren't normal and you can pinpoint the behaviors that label you as other and make people kinda go quiet and twitchy around you but you can't change them or your neurosis so you're stuck in a brutal cycle of trying to emulate normal people and failing horribly cus you know in theory how normal people look and act but in practice you can never change what you are and everyone else knows it too and this goes on forever until you die
some days, being brave just means getting up and going through the motions even when you’d rather just not do anything at all. even if you only do it because you have to, i personally still think it’s brave.