Ascend To The Stars

Goddamn look how much he loves her. He’s so gone. I love it.

"The bureaucracy in the FBI has become increasingly complex and inefficient. It might take days for your incident report and order to close the investigation to make it through the proper channels. Welcome back, you two."

i always saw Scully as such a strong character but omg her in s8 truly takes the cake. Her determination to go on with x files cases despite mulder's disappearance — the amount of grit it would've taken for her to keep showing up every day; and this is pre Mulder's discovery so idk what to expect in the post of that. (maybe I am also projecting a bit, but honestly moving through the world after unexpected grief is an effort unlike anything else)

also i really did appreciate all the little tells of Scully's grief in missing Mulder/not knowing where he is throughout the first half of the season. From calling out to him in the desert, and falling asleep on his bed with his shirt and feeding his fish.

But esp in ep 10!! When she starts crying at the end, talking about how Mulder would've been non-judgemental and would've seen through things. The sheer will it must've taken her to trust in a another kid; trust in an unknown hypothesis and just shoot; I was literally holding my breath the whole time. And then just immediate tears at her monologue. Trying to show up in a way that honours the inclinations of someone you've lost (esp when you could always depend on them to do it for you) is truly one of the most profound and devastating acts of love. And god, you can so see Scully try to do this, by trying to emulate Mulder's openess to the impossible in the ways she could. You can also see this in ep 6 when the accused lawyer wanted to talk to Scully as someone who would at least be open to listening to him when he had something unbelievable to share. There's something so precious and vulnerable about this version of Scully, who is just trying her damn best despite the shittiest cards that have been thrown at her. (and this is not even addressing all the emotions that are heighten from an unexpected pregnancy??)

anyway, conclusion, somehow i've come to love Scully even more. She really is one of my all-time favourite characters!!

how to say "I love you" in x-files [113/?] ⤷ 1.13 — “Beyond the Sea”

i love when people reblog from me because then it says my name on their blogs so basically i'm spreading my spores

"Things must be difficult for you now. I've had feelings for people I've worked with. Interoffice relationships can be complicated."

how does one watch a show passively

how does the obsession not consume you