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A River Is A Liminal Landscape

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I think we should bring back 1980s style Horrible Little Man animated mascots, but this time extend them to products beyond food.

"Horrible Little Man who's fiendishly addicted to the product and will abase themselves utterly in order to get it", except the product in question is furniture.

"Horrible Little Man who inexplicably hates the product and will go to enormous (and inevitably futile) lengths to prevent others from consuming it" who just can't fucking stand blue jeans.

"Horrible Little Man who wields sinister magic to compel others to consume the product whether they like it or not" shilling for a major airline.

I NEED EVERYONE TO KNOW ABOUT MY BLORBO, MR DELICIOUS.

He is the former mascot for Rax, “You can eat here.” He’s a traumatized Vietnam vet with a vasectomy going through a midlife crisis who picked up drag.

He was such a bad mascot he killed the restaurant chain.

He could have been a tumblr sexyman in 2025. I love him so dearly and am currently writing about him getting pregnant.

Every time I (intersex) find a new intersex blog (awesome) I have to cite the incantation "please don't piss me off" and then they do anyway because tumblr is the transmisogyny website

The thing about "afab transfem" is that. Like. Well. There is a word for when you identify with your agab and you're not going to like it. Intersex identity can be infinitely nuanced and complicated & sexgender assignment can carry a lot of baggage but at the end of the day that's still how this works. And half the time or more they're not even that complicated it'll be a cis woman with pcos who thinks having a moustache makes her a trans woman. You can see why this is insane, right

I'm gripping your shoulders and looking directly into your eyes right now. There will be similarities between the experiences of different kinds of people who are like, gender oppressed. The next step after recognizing this needs to be forming real solidarity and community building and shit, not being a raging misogynist. Ok? Please? Please don't piss me off

I think a lot of the confusion comes from vibes-based "everyone is valid" politics vs actual material structural analysis & how these different camps define transfemininity. Like, okay, you're transitioning to appear more feminine, but if you were assigned female this is Actively Encouraged if not Forced On You by the powers that be in order to *uphold* the sexgender binary, vs trans women (i.e. women who are assigned male) being gatekept and punished for the same actions. THAT'S what the difference is, that's why you're still tme, even if you get looked at in the women's bathroom. Doctors are begging on their hands and knees for you to go on estrogen. They're giving you spironolactone without telling you what it is. Do you get it. I WANT to abolish sexgender assignment but the thing is that it does still happen and affects you in real life, which is why it's a bad thing,

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if the tranny doesnt feel loved she will put up with it because what other fucking choice do i have. i mean she.

Even LGBT people are afraid to create LGBT rep half the time because you fucking goblins critique things with LGBT rep so harshly that the second it does something that you personally don’t like it gets treated even worse than the shows that have absolutely no rep in them.

Demonizing every show that is earnestly trying to provide the rep we’ve been lacking is NOT THE WAY TO GET BETTER REP

Remember when Dream Daddy was called homophobic because a horror-themed (and non-canon, might I add) ending was found in the game’s code? Like y'all go after everything that isn’t the most saccharine, unproblematic, nothing-bad-happens-ever shit and I’m so, so sick of it. This keeps us from getting LGBT+ rep that’s actually interesting and in interesting situations! I want actual stories, but I guess you guys don’t. You just want a perfect little picture to hang on your wall.

Treating all gay people as uwu soft beans is a form of homophobia in itself, and that’s the tea. Make problematic gay characters!! Give lgbt characters flaws!! Give them interesting, non stereotypical personalities!! We’re human, and humans are flawed by nature, so treat us as such and don’t get pissed because of it.

actually, you know what, as a fan of transgressive art, tabletop rpgs as an artistic medium, and transgressive tabletop rpgs, I'm gonna say this up front: DrivethruRPG's willingness to host basically anything legal - no matter how graphic, tasteless or bizarre - is a good thing, and should be celebrated.

Similarly for itch really. Both for RPG's and computer games

Oh yeah, Itch does a similar thing and likewise deserves a lot of credit for the weird shit it's willing to host, even if it's not my go-to platform.

Can I tell you why I respect DrivethruRPG?

Years ago I created a game called Tokyo Brain Pop. It was a psychic schoolgirl rpg. About fighting demons and having best friends and blowing up heads with your mind. A pretty harmless PG rated game. I released it as a PDF on my site as well as Drivethru and a few other sites. I also ran a small pre-order for a print version. I think the pre-order generated about $400. So not a big project at all.

Just after the pre-order ended I received a cease and desist letter from a lawfirm representing a company. I can't name them for legal reasons. Their claim was the name of our game violated their clients copyright. Their client was a robot themed educational website with a vaguely similar name. They thought people would confuse our game for their site. So they demanded that we stop publishing, remove our product and website from the internet and pay them damages of $10k.

Obviously this was bullshit. I sent them a letter explaining that I was a small hobbyist, that I didn't think there was any issue and that I'd be happy to include a disclaimer on my site stating that my game wasn't associated with their thing at all.

They wouldn't have it. I got a flurry of letters and legal documents, including a threat to sue for damages. I wasn't sure what to do. Luckily a friend pointed me to an attorney that did free work for artists. The attorney looked over the documents and came to a few conclusions.

1. The whole thing was bullshit. The lawfirm was almost certainly just scouring the internet looking for people to harass in order to bill hours to their client.

2. The lawfirm didn't understand that i made a ttrpg. They thought I was making a video game. The attorney assumed that was why they thought they could get so much money from me.

3. The company did not in fact have a copyright on their name. Even if they did, the attorney felt the names were so wildly different that we would probably win any lawsuit.

4. But... defending a lawsuit like this is expensive and time consuming. It would be very difficult for us.

The attorney offered to send a strongly wordde letter covering the above points. With the hopes of scaring them off.

It... didn't work.

The lawfirm didn't sue me. Thank God. But they ruined me. They sent cease and desist letters to everyone i dealt with. My site host. My distributors. My social media. My printers. The stores that sokd my games. At the time I was making a modest living off my games. I had 5 games in print, and selling them was how I paid my bills. That all went away. I lost my website. Online stores took my pdfs down and canceled my accounts. My Facebook and Twitter accounts were locked. My printer canceled my orders. 2 of my 3 distributors canceled contracts and sent back all copies of my games.

I tried to make new accounts. Find new printers. Find new stores. The lawfirm was thorough. For months every time I sat up a new account or signed up with a new distributor, they'd immediately receive a cease and desist letter and I'd be shut down.

When I tried to contact these businesses and explain what happened, they told me that they couldn't do business with me anymore. They wouldn't listen. They didn't care.

Except DrivethruRPG. Drivethru got the letter and told them to fuck off. Told them that they recognized it was an empty threat, and wouldn't comply even if it wasn't. They did this without ever hearing from me. It was their automatic response. They then contacted me to let me know what waas happening and made sure I knew that they'd continue carrying my games.

The lawfirm drove me out of business. I couldn't pay my bills. I couldnt even sell the books I had in stock. I eventually had to give up and stop making games. It was years before I came back to game dedign. It was awful and demoralizing. I lost the one thing I had built myself.

But DrivethruRPG stuck with me (Indie Press Revolution too). I didn't even have a website or social media presence, and none of my games were in pri t or available in stores, but you could buy the PDFs from Drivethru. Even after multiple cease and desist letters and threats.

Eventually the lawfirm gave up. My game Tokyo Brainpop is still on sale at DrivethruRPG.

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when I was a kid and teen, I pretty much trusted everyone by default and continued to operate in good faith almost despite any level of evidence to the contrary. I’d defend people who had said cruel things to me. I defended people who sexually assaulted me. I defended people who made me fear for my physical safety.

I was so completely committed to seeing the best in everyone that I truly discounted every other part of them.

after being very traumatized by living my life this way and experiencing abuse and harassment and allowing people to treat me like shit all the time without protest, to the point where my abuser admitted he stopped seeing me as human,

I flipped in the other direction for a couple years. I didn’t trust anyone, especially men. They needed to earn my trust, and that took like a full year. And then I still found myself betrayed repeatedly, which only made it harder to break the protective shield of distrust. One guy friend I discovered was playing ttrpgs on the weekends with a man he knew was a serial abuser. Another guy friend I discovered raped someone. It was genuinely very difficult to trust men in general when even after knowing someone for over a year I could never know if he was doing something awful until I happened to talk to the right woman in his life.

Getting involved in local mutual aid five years ago helped me to gradually reorient my approach to trust.

I am largely back to trusting everyone by default, to extending good faith as my opening with others. But the difference is now I am willing to revoke trust and good faith as soon as I am treated with disrespect. (And now I make sure to have a conversation with at least one woman in a man’s life, without him present, if I am intending to build an actual friendship with him.)

Everyone gets an opening benefit of the doubt, the opportunity to be interpreted in the best faith, to be seen as their best self. But my trust is an exhaustible resource unless you replenish it with basic respect for me as a person.

Being a ranger I spend a lot of time alone in the wilderness for hours in the company of one of four co workers.

One such worker for the purpose of this post we shall refer to as Dave.

Dave is a very quiet man. He confesses that if conversation happens too quickly and for too long he gets tired so we often work in silence. He's very polite and good natured but it's obvious that he would happily live and work alone for the rest of his life given the option.

He's very much in the previous generation of ranger, a practical man in his fourties or fifties happy to be kept physically busy for a day and then be sent home with some pay. I had to show him how to use a work issued smart phone.

Meanwhile the rest of the team is made up of the current generation of rangers; openly nurodivergent queer women in their twenties or thirties who work this job because it's the only setting where we can vaguely look sane.

So Dave sticks out a bit. It's really nice when he opens up though because he's an impulsive individual when left to his own devices and has plenty of stories to tell if the mood takes him. I really like working with Dave.

Anyway, one day we've got a job that takes a three hour hike to get to and early on the topic of deer comes up.

I hadn't realised this was the first time we had discussed deer, but blatantly it was. Dave's entire demeanour changes, there's a bit of passion in his voice, but it's also hushed as if he's talking about something sacred.

"Deer are my favourite animal." He says.

I'm also eager to hear Dave talk about himself, so I encourage him to say more.

"I'd love to be a deer myself."

And more

"If a genie offered me the opportunity to become a deer I'd take it. I wouldn't even stop to ask what the price was."

And more

"Sometimes I feel like I'm a deer having a dream about being a human.*

And there I am, a long time commuter to the therian/otherkin community keeping up the encouraging face of someone being politely interested, knowing that this man is straight up a therian with no frame of reference.

And I decided that I wouldn't push the subject outside of the bounds of what Dave is comfortable with, I wouldn't try to teach him the terms "Therian" or "Otherkin" but absolutely I would talk with this man as if he's a deer.

And it's a bit magical really. He's an impulsive individual so I have to talk him out of some risky choices every so often and "this is why deer like you keep getting stuck in fences" has become this magical phrase that allows him to step down from a mistake with a bit of a smile on his face.

its so insane to me ppl consider stuff like "dead games" after just a few months?? and that its too old and irrelevant to play now?? i play shit from like several years ago all the time a lot of my favorite games that I play over and over are over 10 years old at least. i just can never understand that like constantly needing things to be new or still receiving updates especially for stuff that doesn't require online play. like i can understand say like splatoon 1 being a dead game bc the servers for it are no longer up so you cant really play it now besides the story mode but like . nothing is stopping you from playing a game that came out like a year ago.

yes this is because i saw someone say lethal company is a dead game it made me very mad

it's fucking me up how tv shows, movies, and even video games can't be "niche" content anymore

like nothing can be underrated anymore. it HAS to be a success. cartoons have to either be spongebob level successes with immediate marketing or they're shelved a season or two in.

Movies have such inflated budgets that they NEED to break a billion in the box office just to make back what they cost. Anything less than a blockbuster smash is turned into a tax write-off.

a single triple A video game can destroy an entire studio if it doesn't meet expectations, which are already lofty enough as it is.

and everything has to appeal to the widest demographic possible, which can mean sterilizing anything creative about the work so it becomes as palatable as possible.

idk im just sad about this

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Yeah this is unironically one of my favorite perfumes. I wear it on nights when I’m going to top or domme or when I want the only people standing near me to be a very particular kind of lesbian. The smell of a gun range and antiseptic hangs heavily and probably due to a reaction with my skin chemistry there tends to be a scent of fermenting apples. Dogs love it (both girls and my husky) and the clear discomfort it creates in others who aren’t prepared to smell an operating theater after a difficult day inspires a cruel confidence in me on my nights out. Perfume for antisocial sadists who have opted to go to the club anyway, one of my favorite scenes but I also like the smells of and to smell like industrial mechanisms and gasoline fumes so what do I know.

Oh, a real review? We'll with the way you put it, this is actually pretty interesting.

It’s certainly an eccentric scent and I get why the funny reviews are that way but yeah it’s unbelievably interesting

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