I'm coining a new ship dynamic.
Toxic shared redemption arc.
"You tried to drag me to hell with you, to make me lose myself and all of my virtue that made me into who I am. You wanted to laugh at my tears. You wanted me to suffer like you do. All of that, and like a fool, I loved you still. You nearly got what you dreamed of, but I resisted. I fought. I gnawed through the strings attached to my heart. I clawed my way back up and seized happiness in my teeth, drank it up like a man lost in a desert, and I'll never let you take it from me. I'll never look back. I'm happy now. Yet like a fool, I miss the familiar anger, the sorrow, the hate. Like a fool, I miss you. Like a fool, I love you still."
"You were the one who got away, and yet I'm happy you're gone. You were so easy to manipulate I almost felt guilty (I didn't feel guilty. I don't feel guilty. I never will. You can't make me). You were so fun to play with and laugh at your tears that I found myself crying with something other than mirth. But you were the one who got away, and now you're back, wreathed in gold and light and halos, descended to hell in all your glory, and you want to take me home with you. You tell me I'm more than what I am (I know I'm nothing. Stop making me think otherwise). You tell me I'm worth something more than dust underfoot (I know I'm less than worthless. Stop making me hope otherwise). You tell me you forgive me (I don't feel guilty. Don't make me feel guilty). I hate you. I always hated you. Stop making me realize I never hated you and only ever despised what I saw in the mirror."
