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kay. he/they. queer. QUEER. queer. thirties. unapologetically pro ao3 and anti-puritan. lotsa cats. for your filter: #iwtv #ofmd #hacf #arcane #spn #vikings #lotr #hannibal #tua #mcu

i have tons of criticisms about the cosmetics industry, but one thing that’s really been bugging me as someone who has no interest in wearing “natural” makeup is that different mascaras and eyeliners will come in all kinds of different candy colored packaging and then you look closer and it’s all dark brown and black. if the package is bright orange the shade should be bright orange! i wish to look like a tropical bird

"immoral" "self-destructive" opinion or whatever but making art for no one fucking sucks shit

say whatever you want about striving for likes and comments and retweets or whatever but i dont think its unhealthy to yearn for genuine engagement with your work, something that just doesnt fuckin exist online anymore (and where else are we to go to get it)

i always get recommended to "make art for myself" whenever i talk about feeling disillusioned with art in general and bitch... i hate this. i hate making a drawing no one will see. i hate making things no one understands. it was never about the very act of drawing. it was never about craft for crafts sake. its always been about connection to other human beings.

likes/clicks/internet engagement =/= human connection btw. its a fraction of it, maybe, a recognizable trace of something heavily mutated. and often its the best a lot of us can get, which is part of why we get sucked into obssessing over the numbers. but im not trying to argue that its awesome to get a lot of likes and reblogs and thats why people make art and its perfectly healthy to be obsessed with those numbers, or whatever.

those forms of connection are inadequate. even IF you get a ton of internet engagement often times it eventually stops making you happy anyway. i have a decent sized following but it doesnt make me feel fulfilled. it doesnt make me feel connected to people. it makes me feel like an object of value to a company that wants my art to make its users stay on tumblr for 0.1 second longer.

im saying that the answer to that dilemma and that pain shouldnt be "well you should make art for yourself then". it should be "yeah its kinda fucked that society doesnt foster and in fact actively supressess genuine connection through art, instead funnelling it through micro-clicks and reducing it to fleeting dopamine hits."

i dont blame anybody for yearning for numerical engagement because its origin is the desire for that real connection. i think implying that that desire is the problem is stupid. instead we should be questioning why our only options are more and more these inherently inadequate means of communicating with eachother. why our words are funnelled into smaller and smaller vessels (likes, shares). and we should be pissed about that. we should change that.

At the risk of sounding anti-intellectual, I think that college should be free and also not a requirement for employment outside of highly specialized career fields

At the risk of sounding like an effete intellectual, I do actually think you should be allowed to just take college courses indefinitely

you don't understand the found family concept in halt and catch fire is on another fucking level they literally built relationships so deep that even when the core real family was broken they were still together bos was there for all of them joe couldn't comprehend how much the girls had grown and how he had been there to see it and become a part of it cameron literally lived with them so when the dinner table dinner happens that family makes so much sense and that family is grieving

getting surgery to give me a second head so i can tell twice as many lies as usual

and suck twice as much dick i fucking guess. that's what you all want to hear isn't it.

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