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call me evie! | they/he/xe | twenty-one | not white. | aroace | i have problems and i deal with most of them by being Not Normal. welcome to my blog.

I love when household beasts are like whoa. You were gonna piss all on your own? No backup or companionship or anything? Babe. I got you. I'm right here. You don't have to be alone during this difficult time (pissing), and you won't be. Ever. This is not a discussion.

nothing scarier than being a fan of a fic and then becoming mutuals with the author. like hi shakespeare. big fan of your fake dating au

Apologies in advance but I have to get serious here for a minute about the subject of "being intimidated by fanfic authors." This is more con-oriented than Tumblr-oriented but the sentiments are applicable to both.

It makes me so upset whenever I think of all the times I went to a con and couldn't seem to find anyone to talk to. After being on a few panels where I made jokes about the joys of writing about dicks and butts, I would walk around, and it just seemed like folks were all doing their own thing, not inviting me to join them. I would always think, Oh, story checks out, everyone is put off because I'm a weird freak, it's just like in high school. Then I'd go back to my hotel room and wonder what I spent all this money for, coming here to be lonely.

Then, in the days after the con, I would see posts from other con-goers, or receive messages: "omg berlynn i was too shy to say hello at the con but i just want you to know that your fics mean everything to me and you're so amazing."

I really do appreciate those kind words, but...it would have been cool to actually hang out with you, you know?

One time I had the opportunity to chat with with a trio of folks who were the guests of honor at this con because they were screening their gorgeous and charming fan film, and they confessed to me that the day before, they had walked into a room, seen that I was there, and walked out because they were too intimidated at the very idea of being in the room with me. (So I sat alone and silent in that room for 20 more minutes.)

The thing is, even if I was the most popular fanfic writer in the history of the world, connecting with other fans and forming friendships is the only compensation I get. I don't eat better because you liked my fic. I don't get a swag bag worth $5,000 when I check into my hotel room at a con because I wrote that one omegaverse fic that everyone read. I do what I do and I write what I write because I want to be part of a community of fans.

But I should note that all is not loneliness and misery for Berlynn. I have had some of the greatest moments of my life making connections with people who actually did speak to me at cons. Sometimes it was just a hug and a few happy tears, sometimes it was deep philosophical discussions about writing dicks and butts while sitting on the floor of a party suite at two in the morning...but several of my IRL friends are people who were not afraid to just reach out to me after a panel, or say hello at the bar.

Here's how it might go when you connect with your favorite fanfic author: One of my closest friends is someone who was a big fan of my work, introduced to me by a mutual friend. Sitting across from me at a restaurant not too long after our introduction, this person had to point out to me that, whilst gesticulating exuberantly over my meal, I had gotten some macaroni and cheese on my sleeve. After that, they were not so starstruck anymore, and now we live in the same building, which makes it easy for us to hang out and giggle over old TV shows together a couple times a week.

Probably there are fanfic writers who don't want to be bothered, who don't want to be messaged, who aren't in it for the social connection...but they are not the ones following you on social media. They're not the ones with their inboxes open, anonymous messages on. And they're not the ones strolling through the common areas at cons looking for an empty seat at a table.

Sometimes you are a fan of a fic and say hello to the author and then a while later you are full naming them because they're being a goose when they should be sleeping.

aquarium advertisments say stuiff like discover the longtooth grouper this friday

I see that, and raise you my local aquarium's advertising.

Vancouver Aquarium has similar ads!

They also have some SERIOUSLY inventive ones:

(High and Low Tide ^)

the only type of advertising that should exist: "ooooohhhh you want to come look at the animal"

Cory Booker has been talking in the senate for over 20 hours now

He’s not filibustering. He’s protesting the current administration.

For those of you from outside the US or those of you who didn’t pay attention in government class, in the US senate there’s really no limit to the amount of time a senator can speak. So sometimes if they don’t want a bill to pass they just. Don’t stop talking. To hopefully get past the deadline to vote on a bill. This is called filibustering.

Senator Cory Booker isn’t doing that. He’s disrupting “the normal business of the United States Senate for as long as I am physically able”. Just in protest. This doesn’t usually happen.

He’s less than 20 minutes away from breaking the record of the longest speech given on the senate floor

Cory Booker has officially broken Strom Thurmond’s record for longest speech on the senate floor and he’s still going

For those of you wondering what he’s been talking about this whole time, his staff wrote down a bunch of stuff for him to read like stories from people across the political spectrum opposed to what the administration is doing. He’s also been telling personal anecdotes about meeting important civil rights leaders and other democratic senators have been pausing him for “questions” but the questions have been as long as a small speech and have both served the purpose of giving him a second to sit down and updating him on the news that he’s been missing while he’s been talking.

He has yielded the floor at 25 hrs and 4 mins. His eyes are so wide they look like they’re going to bug out of his skull so I don’t blame him for stopping. He said to go out and get in some good trouble.

Addition for those unaware: Cory Booker is black. Strom Thurmond set the previous record about 70 years ago in protest of civil rights. Booker spent much of the time I was watching talking about the importance of working together for the people and the idea that it's not "left versus right but right versus wrong."

The new record speech is on the right side of history.

Listen, I'm having fun playing with the ultra patriotic voice, but after a couple years in blue-collar landscaping jobs, you really do need to phrase things like that.

"I'm pretty sure that fella ain't here legally."

"Well, that ain't your business Chip, it's his."

They hate being preached to. If you pull out words like 'gender wage gap' they'll tell you you're brainwashed by the far left media.

"He's one of them transgenders."

"He got freedoms too, Jimmy."

You say, "bodily autonomy" and it's all, "oooh look who's got a college vocabulary."

Instead say, "The government shouldn't be able to tell you what to do with your body. You want some bureaucrat getting between you and your doctor? Making it take twice as long to get treatment? If someone wants breast implants, hormones, or to not get pregnant, that's between them and their doctor. You know they got surgeries where they can break your leg bones and stretch them to make you taller? I watched a thing about a woman who did that; it was her dream to be a fight attendant, but she was too short (you gotta be able to reach the overhead compartments), so she got the surgery to be tall enough. Living her dream. I think people should be able to do what they want with their bodies. If you don't want to change genders or get taller or take hormones, that's your choice, but that's no reason to tell other people what they can't do. Mind your business."

"All I want the government to do is make sure companies can't rip us off by selling us do-nothing pills, poison us, or overcharge for stuff we need to live. Greedy corporate bastards. Police the greedy CEOs and insurance companies who are scamming us, who would shoot your granny if it increased profits, and leave the end users alone."

"People worry too much about other people's genitals. Bunch of weirdos, wanting to check kids genitals before they can use the bathroom or play a sport. Sick freaks if you ask me. Leave the kids alone. When I was a kid, I was the only girl on my t-ball team, and I was just fine. Let kids play sports, doesn't matter what gender they are, what matters is what skill level they are in the sport."

"I think the government should stay out of the bedroom. You want to have sex with a man? Two men? Three? You want to get paid for sex? None of my business, none of the government's business, none of my neighbor's business. As long as no one's getting hurt, let people do what they want. We got a huge child marriage problem in this country; you want to fight perverts? Tell the government to fight that. That's much a bigger problem than gay marriage or trans people or kinksters or sex workers. If two adults want to dress as cats and do sex games with each other, let them! But I draw the line at marrying kids; that's fucked up, you agree?"

This is what I mean when I say you have to meet people where they're at if you want to change minds. Because there are people that you can throw essay level argumentation at all day and nothing will change, but you say "mind your own business Ted" and they get it.

When my mom and I lived with her bf, I ran into this a lot. Not so much from the bf himself (though he did make fun of they/them a few times), but from the people he hung out with. He ran a landscaping company in an area that's most purply than most of western washington. So his employees occasionally asked pointed questions about his two weird kids.

A quick "it's not your business" worked for most of them. But the guy who rented his shop and ran a vehicle repair business out of it was a little more inquisitive. For a while he didn't want anything to do with me and my sibling, but eventually he came around after a talk with my mom, and I had a beer with him in the shop. An alright guy, who had been convinved of some messed up things.

I think a lot about the folks at my old hardware store. It was the cheapest place nearby for me to get a lotta what i needed for my projects, and it was an independent place run by a third generation woman. It was literally built by hand by her grandfather. It was also a place mostly shopped at by low-income conservative folks, just due to the demographics of it's location.

When I went in the first time, a very visibly trans woman, things were a little cold. Not rude, not unsafe, but I was very clearly An Outlier in that place, and both the owner and some other folks there were kinda side-eyeing me the whole time. The second time i went it was much the same. The third a little less so. The fourth even less. I liked the place, and i came from a more rural spot, so it felt more familiar to me then like, a big hardware store, or even something like an Ace, so I just kept going.

folks slowly warmed up to me, and one time I went there the thing i needed was hard to get to, so i ended up hanging out and shooting the shit with the owner for like, 20 minutes while she dealt with some other stuff first. We both came from farm backgrounds. Both had some similar experiences. Both loved some of the same features of the area we lived in. The more we talked the more she warmed up, and the more I think she started to see me as just another farm girl like her, just of a younger generation.

I've been going there for years, and that place is warm and friendly now. I'm greeted like an old friend when I come in, and the other regulars give me smiles and nods, and when i go there with other trans folks, they treat them just the same way.

The thing is, a lotta people just. lack the exposure. It's not ignorance out of malice, it's not actual hatred or distaste, it's just the unease that comes from being fed this vision of minorities by other conservatives all the time. When you start to become a part of their life, they learn to stop seeing you as some mysertious other, and you become just another person at the hardware store. You become someone they can listen to, someone who speaks their language and respects them, someone they can teach something to, and someone who can also be taught.

I see pride flags there sometimes now. progress flags, even. in the windows of peoples cars. in pins on peoples jackets. On peoples trucker caps. I talk to folks there and, well, they're still a little awkward, but a lotta them have that spirit, and the more we talk the more they have.

I know i'm a bit off the topic of this post, a post about language, not just some vague concept of familiarity, but like. I know that there's a hardware store worth of people who are still conservative, who still probably watch fox news and complain about taxes, but when someone comes on their tv talking about trannies indoctrinating kids and screaming at people in stores and making everyone uncomfortable and unsafe, I bet a lot of them think of me, their hardware store tranny. I bet a lot of them furrow their brow a bit, and tilt their head a little, and think "well, i don't know about that, i wouldn't go that far..." and honestly. That's worth a lot more then you might realize. That can be the starting point of questioning those beliefs, of questioning what they're being fed.

It's the little things that spark that change. Sometimes it's as simple as coming back each week and speaking the language. Sometimes that's enough to get people started.

“Rayban charity glasses event” is a scam don’t click any link in a post that says that.

Old tumblr users remember this scam back when it first went out.

Also no, this isn’t a joke. This phishing scam is 100% running its course again so watch out for your mutuals long abandoned accounts suddenly posting it. Please make everyone aware of it since most users here are newbies who have not seen it before!

i have an ancient box camera from the late 40s. takes 120 film. Absolutely unfair good images out of this thing.

This is the 1940s equivalent of a disposable Kodak, it’s terrible but because modern film stock is so fucking good it just rips absolute ass. No I don’t have any pictures they’re scanning shut up.

the shutter speed is "yes" and the aperture is "sure, why not"

it turns out when you have a negative that's 60x70 mm that you don't really need the world's best glass

this just isn't fair. this is like a toddler walking into a chess tournament and beating a high schooler

Fun fact: This is all on expired lomography metropolis. if it were in-date film it'd look even better. I dont have any in-date metropolis in 120 but i have a roll of it in 35mm that i'm gonna load up once i've finished my current roll of Kodak ColorPlus 200 (cheap color film that looks better than it should)

Here's Catlabs X Film 100 in 35 though, which is kinda similar in terms of range

these are simply stunning, thank you for sharing these

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