One of the moments from tr!Aimsey and tr!Pangi talk that was crafted to hurt me personally was tr!Aimsey saying "[...] I am going to come back and haunt you both" and tr!Pangi responding, a bit light-heartedly "I can't have a second ghost haunting me" then tr!Aimsey going "[...] Yeah well listen I will be worse" and tr!Pangi going "You are going to be worse???" with honestly tangible fear.
Yeah, yeah that's fucked.
Anyway tr!Mocha haunts tr!Pangi's pov so much in both ways that are incredibly easy to see and so many subtle ways that you really need to find under the microscope. How tr!Mocha's death still is tangible, how you can trace everything back to the night he died so easily, how much his and tr!Pangi's lives were intertwined to the point where he just can't let go of him because they were parts of each other. They make me sick.
Tr!Mocha's death changed the Realm in so many ways, and truth be told, how can you let go of your best friend, when he still is around just different, and changed. And it's not him. You learnt it's not him, the hard way. But how can you heal if the fact that one of your teammate is, in fact, your teammate partially because you killed him that faithfull night and it gave him another narrative to push. How can you possibly try to get better when he somewhat comes back, still changed but recognisable, you know it's him, and he's in the hunt.
How can you let go when you didn't get to know who he truly was, even if he wanted to tell you.
Pili Dtowncat when I catch you for creating a character, who even after dying months ago still is incredibly present in the narrative and haunts it so beautifully.
