Hi my loveee <3

Was thinking about bf Matty and girlie when they finally get together, them talking about how they wish they’d lost their virginity to each other instead of other ppl. This gets him thinking and he playfully asks her if she’d let him pretend to take her first time now. She thinks he’s just messing so she’s just like “that’s silly”. But then they can’t stop thinking about it, and they end up doing it. It’s not this like over the top role play thing, but it’s a really gentle, intimate, romantic night and I think it’s cute idk idk

-Belle mwah mwah mwah

the way i spiralled down a bottomless pit screaming into the abyss while reading this. i love you so much, belle xoxoxo

anyway…

it would happen the first time they go back to girlie’s childhood home after they’re official. her mum has been begging her to bring matty over so she can finally hug her “son-in-law” but he’s been away on tour so it takes a bit for that to happen. but when that weekend arrives, girlie is beaming from ear to ear because her boyfriend is coming to spend time with her family.

everything in her old home reminds them of when they were younger: the old record player that has stopped working since, the photos of them hanging on the wall from that one family wedding, the tulips that are always in the middle of the dining table. it’s so warm and comforting that it’s difficult to not just be genuinely happy.

girlie and her mum have zero shame asking matty to make them dinner and he absolutely does, because he’s a darling and an amazing cook that won’t cut any corners when it comes to making a gourmet meal. throughout the dinner, girlie’s parents end up teasing them so much that they finally got their shit together and decided to become a couple. she cannot stop smirking at the way matty gets so flustered at all the questions her parents (mostly her mum) are asking because they also know how easily he gets riled up. obviously at one point it gets turned to girlie as well and it’s her time to get embarrassed in front of the love of her life because her mum reveals how she used to scribble matty’s name in her journal. she found it one day while cleaning and “accidentally” read a page lol. to which matty answers with a teasing oh i know because he has also seen it when he stumbled upon the same notebook while hiding under the bed so he wouldn’t get caught sleeping over.

anyway, even with all the teasing, it was a beautiful and lovely dinner and girlie is so over the moon it happened because she never thought it would.

once is time to call it a night, they obviously end up having to sleep in her old room which looks pretty much like it did back in high school. music posters up. photos of her friends (including matty) on a whiteboard. her cd collection piled up against a wall. etc etc.

matty jokes that this is the first time he’ll sleep there without having to sneak in which makes them both very giddy and nostalgic. he even opens the door of her closet to see if the old pillow and duvet he used to sleep on are still there, which they are. newer ones, but still there. girlie pulls out some old photo albums as they sit on the floor, backs against her bed, and look through so many pictures from when they were younger. mostly of matty instead of her other friends. you were obsessed with me, weren’t you? she just nods and admits that she still is. to which he answers by pulling her close and kissing her temple. same with you, baby.

then he just cannot help but bring up the journal because he needs to know what all she wrote about him. she rolls her eyes but pulls it out from under her bed, and they look through it, both of them laughing and swooning at how dramatic and cute girlie was. and still is to be honest. and how clearly in love she’s been with him since they were teenagers. they about cry when they read the pages from when matty offered to teach her how to kiss which leads them to make out for a while because how can they not?

eventually they get to the section where she writes about having sex for the first time. which is nothing new for him. she told him all about it and he was internally furious at the guy for not making her finish. matty notices how she goes quiet and asks what’s wrong, and it’s then that she admits she wishes it’d been him. this sort of sad smile on her face which matty mirrors because he also wishes she would’ve been his first. they just sit there in silence for a bit, holding hands and resting their heads together, not really knowing what to say because nothing can change how things happened. until matty very quietly says that they can pretend to do it, if she’d let him. she gives him his weird look like don’t be silly. are you really serious? but deep down she’s melting because how does he keep getting more sweet. they stare at each other for a minute before matty laughs nervously and mentions to just forget it. that yeah, it’s silly. but she nods her head which confuses matty because he thinks she’s agreeing that it’s weird until she kisses him very softly on the lips and says that she wants to. he breathes out the biggest exhale of relief and gives her a soft okay before getting up, only to go to the closet and pull out the pillow and duvet and lie down on the floor like he used to, girlie all like we’re not seriously gonna have sex for the first time on the floor, right? which makes them burst out laughing. probably not but it helps set the mood.

she ends up pulling him into her bed, making out for a while as matty undresses the both of them with shaky fingers because he’d had countless dreams of having sex in this room since it’s her private space. he treats her like the most fragile thing in the world, like if he did even something barely wrong she’d shatter. and she can’t believe that the boy she used to think about when pleasing herself in this same bed is now naked above her. they get under the covers and run their hands all over each other, touching every single inch of skin available to them. every now and then matty lets out a moan and she just giggles against his neck, reminding him they have to be quiet. he nods and apologizes and he tries his best but it’s clearly difficult, so she has to keep kissing him in order to muffle his needy sounds. especially when she starts to stroke him, which only makes him whine louder against her lips. when he’s finally inside her, they have to take a couple of minutes because it’s almost too much. and when she looks into his eyes, she can very clearly see the same boy she fell in love with so many years ago and it’s so fucking overwhelming that tears start to prickle at the corners of her lids. he asks if she’s okay as he kisses the palm of her hand and she can only nod because her words are nonexistent at that moment in time. once she’s collected herself, she places her hands on his lower back, guiding him to thrust into her, matty letting her set the pace that she wants. it’s all sweet and gentle, taking their time with one another, him making her cum more than once. and she knows matty’s close when he cannot keep quiet anymore so she has to put a palm over his mouth to keep the noise down as he finishes inside her. after they catch their breaths, neither of them can stop smiling, matty beaming very proudly because unlike the other jerk, he did make her cum.

he also mentions the fact that this is so much better than having to lie on the floor with a hard on that he cannot do anything about. girlie jokes that he’s a pervert and he gets “defensive” saying that it was torture as she’d be sleeping beside him with only a shirt (many times an old drive like i do one) and underwear on and matty had to pretend like everything was okay. to which she asks if he ever did anything about it. he admits that he never did with her around, he just suffered with being turned on and could barely sleep during those nights.and she just says that now she can do something about it, so it ends with him getting a handjob, just as lots of romantic teenage relationships start <3