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hi guys i don’t usually come on here to talk about this, but it needs to be discussed. my friend kenzie, went missing on october seventh. she left a note saying she ran away. she hasn’t been answering anyone’s calls or texts, and claims she ran away to live with her girlfriend who lives two hours away.
she never said who her girlfriend is.
please, keep an eye out for her if you live in: pennsylvania, new york city, new york state, new jersey, maryland, and anywhere close to the areas listed.
this is her. we all really miss her, and want her to come home soon.
here is some information about her.
please, share this and help bring kenzie home.
if anyone lives in any of these states pls keep and eye out!!!
𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: dom!chris x reader
𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: you and chris’ relationship isn’t out to the public just yet. when he’s on stream with matt, you tease him.
𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: SMUT, swearing, teasing, dry humping, cock warming, degradation if you squint, p in v, semi-public (?)
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𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 1,521
𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞: hiii i’m excited for this. let’s see how this goes :)
UNSPOKEN BOND.
pairing: chris sturniolo x fem!reader summary: where chris and reader are best friends and chris is in a toxic relationship. when reader is fed up with hearing about his frustrations with his girl, she confesses her undying feelings for him since their childhood. warnings: ANGSTTT (resolved), cursing, screaming and crying, use of y/n lol a/n: i love this. SO MUCH. you guys voted angst on the poll <3 enjoy, reblog + comment <33 wc: 3.4k+
"are you even listening to me?" chris's finger stabbed at my shoulder, and i sighed deeply as i dramatically picked up the remote and paused wall-e on the tv.
"no, chris, i'm trying to watch the movie we agreed to watch tonight." i mumbled and smiled softly at the puzzled expression on chris's face. i leaned over and fixed the loose strands.
all i knew was that chris kept yapping about his girlfriend of about six months now that i dreaded hearing about. she was emotionally draining, to say the least. and if she was for me, i couldn't even begin to imagine how she was with chris.
i had been best friends with chris since about kindergarten.
"hey!"
my head turned as i desperately tried to wipe the sand from my eyes, my tears having a hard time escaping.
the girl who had pushed me to the ground had stepped away.
"jus' cus you're a girl don't mean i won't kick ya!" the boy shouted, stepping closer which made the girl take a few steps back and run in the other direction.
i slowly opened my eyes to the boy, my eyes red as i sniffled and rubbed my elbow that had been scraped.
"you got sand in your eyes?" the boy asked as he kneeled down and brushed some hair from my eyes and behind my ear.
i nodded softly and looked at him for a moment.
"i'm chris." he gave me a dopey, toothy grin and held out his little hand. "what's yours?"
i took in a breath and held out my hand as well, gently placing it in his to shake. "i- it's y/n." i smiled.
chris shot me a smile that i could read through his bright blue eyes as well, but we both quickly whipped our heads around when a teacher was calling out his name, the little girl from before following behind with her arms crossed. "crap," chris mumbled with a deep sigh as he pulled his hands away and stood to his feet.
"christopher, what do you think you're doing, threatening to kick girls?"
"but!!" chris quickly defended.
i watched as he left and smiled to myself, standing up and brushing off my butt from the dirt.
chris always looked out for me ever since. and his brothers did the same as soon as i met them.
around sixth grade, i admitted to myself that i had feelings for chris. it was something i always kept to myself, something i never really spoke on.
something i did tell his triplet brother, nick one day by accident, but played it off as a joke because i didn't know how he felt about it.
"you know, y/n, you and chris bicker about as much as him and i do. it's hilarious."
i smiled at nick and shrugged as i took a sip of my pepsi. "well, i don't know," i mumbled as i set the soda down, "maybe it's just all the time we've spent together."
"or maybe it's because you have a big fat crush on him," nick joked, smiling as he wriggled his eyebrows and nudged my shoulder with his own.
i chuckled and shrugged softly, leaning back and sighing. "well, maybe i do." i admitted and smiled.
nick's entire expression dropped. "wait, excuse me?"
i quickly sat up and waved my hands. "no no, i was joking." i smiled nervously, causing nick to stare at me.
"that tone of yours was... pretty convincing-"
"pfft, me?" i started as i rubbed the back of my head and stared at nick. "as if i could have a crush on chris, that's.. that's insane."
nick stared at me, dumbfounded. "right. you had me there, i guess."
"anyways, what's with you and that one guy in our class?" i questioned, quickly changing the subject.
ever since then i kept it to myself.
the undying fear of rejection and ruining what him and i have - that was enough for me to try and move on.
but i couldn't.
chris and i had reached our senior year of high school, and he was now dating this girl that i watched rip the smile from his expression.
that adorable, dopey smile that made his eyes squint, taking his vision away temporarily.
it tore me apart, watching chris constantly stress about this girl for six months now.
now, i had my fair share of relationships through junior high and high school to try and get over chris. nothing serious, because i couldn't seem to feel anything for any of these people.
it was hard. having a crush on your best friend.
knowing that everything you did together was strictly platonic, and it would always be that way.
the credits began to roll on wall-e, and i let out a strangled yawn with a big stretch.
"alright, i'm gonna head home for the night." chris mumbled, eyes glued to his phone as he stood to his feet.
i stared at him and sighed, nodding. "good seeing you, chris. let's hang out tomorrow?"
chris didn't respond, and instead slipped on his shoes to head out.
as the door shut, i sighed deeply and pressed my face to my palms.
chris was never allowed to spend the night anymore since his new girlfriend. which, i suppose i would feel the same. but it still stung, having some of your greatest memories with one another being ripped away from you both.
"that fuckin' hurts!!"
chris yelled with a soft giggle, his eyes squinting as he groaned dramatically.
"come on chris, it isn't that bad!"
you smiled as your fingers attempted desperately to peel at the rubbery face mask that had stuck to chris's skin.
"it's pulling my sideburns!"
"man up!"
you smiled as you adjusted the band that held up his curly bangs from his forehead before continuing.
you had finally convinced chris to let you do his skincare. you had always wanted to, and it shocked you when he finally said you could.
"fine, but just this once."
hell, i was in love with chris. i was in love with the way his teeth had a small gap in the front, i was in love with the way his eyes creased each time he smiled, i was in love with the way he would hold me each time i was heart broken and i was in love with the way my name fell from his lips each time we saw each other.
"y/n!"
he wrapped his arms tightly around my shoulders as he tugged me into his chest, his nose burying into my hair.
"chris, i saw you yesterday," i chuckled as i hugged his waist.
"i just missed you so much."
i tensed up as i felt a tear roll down my cheek.
this wasn't uncommon, the feeling of guilt and jealousy that washed over me as i reminisced on what we once had. but now.. now it was all about his girl who he liked.
the girl who "stole his heart" he says.
the one who finally made him think, maybe relationships aren't so bad.
but she was singlehandedly ruining him, and i had to watch it happen. i tried to give him the warning, and he didn't really have a valid response.
"what did you think of her?"
chris asked as he removed his jacket and hung it up on the coatrack by the door.
i shrugged as i slumped against the couch and sighed, playing with my fingers.
"y/n?" chris sat beside me and blinked a few times. "you okay?"
"i don't like her, chris."
chris furrowed his eyebrows as he looked me up and down a few times, his expression now puzzled. "what do you mean?"
i sighed as i sat up and looked at chris. "let me get this straight, chris. she tells me she hates my outfit and good thing she doesn't shop where i do, and that at least her clothes flatter her body. she asks me if i had just gotten out of bed and if i'm a hermit, and how you could know someone like me." i stated firmly. chris swallowed. "and you didn't say a word to defend me."
"she was joking, y/n-"
"chris, if i were dating someone and he said even the slightest disrespectful joke to you, i would turn it down immediately. you realize that?" i stared at him in disbelief.
chris nodded softly as he looked down. "i understand. i'm sorry. i won't let it happen again."
that was about a month into their relationship.
i sighed as i closed my eyes and laid down, my eyes closing after i had finished crying.
my phone ringing woke me up at about 1pm.
with my hair in every direction and my eyes lidded, i groggily reached over to grab my phone and read the caller id.
chris🧸
i sighed and pressed the green answer button, pulling the phone to my ear. "hello?" i mumbled, my voice scratchy and deeper as i had yet to speak this morning.
"y/n? are you just waking up?"
i sighed as i sat up and rubbed my forehead. "yeah, doesn't matter. what's up?"
"yeah, sorry. umm. could you come over? i'm kind of.."
i let out a deep sigh as i stood up and threw on a hoodie and sweatpants. "yeah, i'll be right there. is it your dumbass girlfriend again?"
"y/n, i told you not to call her that."
"yeah yeah," i sighed as i headed straight for my door, getting in my car.
matt, chris's other triplet brother was the one to open the door for me. i smiled softly at him, and matt gave me a sad smile as he opened the door wider for me to enter. "good to see you, y/n. i feel like you never come over anymore." matt mumbled.
i gave him a soft nod and a quick side hug after he shut the front door and locked it.
matt returned upstairs to nick's room, i assumed he was helping nick pick out outfits for his next instagram post.
i looked to see chris sitting in the kitchen, his hands in his hair as he kept his elbows against the wooden kitchen table.
i sighed as i walked towards him and set a gentle hand on his shoulder. his breathing was shaky, uneven. "what's wrong, chris?"
"i- i just don't get it.. she's always accusing me of being dishonest, y/n. she thinks i'm hiding stuff from her just because i hang out with you.." chris mumbled as he looked up at me, his eyes puffy and his cheeks stained.
i sighed as i stared at him in disbelief. normally, i would soften up and tell him it isn't his fault. "so did you forget to tell her we were hanging out, or did she just think it was a huge deal?"
"well i- i forgot to tell her but i didn't think it was a big deal!"
"god, chris!" i slammed my hand to my forehead. "isn't her biggest issue with your relationship hanging out with me?" i sighed as i looked at him and quickly shook my head. "she's just overreacting, chris. like she always is."
chris stared at me for a few moments before running a hand through his hair and sighing deeply. "maybe she has a point, i'm just sick of having these fights with her."
i was fed up. it was the same thing every fucking time with these two. and i've had enough of watching my best friend get hurt.
"maybe the problem isn't just her, chris." i stated as i took a deep breath, my expression now one of anger. "maybe the problem is that you aren't seeing what's right in front of you."
chris cocked an eyebrow as he looked up at me. "what..?"
i took a deep breath as i stared at chris and took a step back. "i'm talking about me, chris. about us. ever since you helped me out of that stupid sandbox, we have been attached by the hip." i clenched my fists as i stared at him. "we were inseparable, you were my top priority, and i was yours. but now.. now you have this bitch of a girlfriend who is just ruining you! ruining us!"
chris flinched at my language, but quickly stood up. "don't call her that," he quickly stated, but i cut him off.
"no, chris. she had never liked me. i have never liked her. i'm sick of her!" i felt my face grow hot, my eyes begin to water. "chris, you silence me every time, but you don't see what i see! she's fucking ruining you. every day, i watch your smile die and your emotions crumble!"
i saw chris's eyes avert to the stairs, where i assumed nick and matt stood as they had definitely heard the shouting from nick's room.
"chris, i've been here since day one. our chemistry is unbreakable. or it was. until she came along." i stared at chris, who was now taking steps towards me.
"y/n, please don't cry-" he reached forward to pull me into an embrace, but i quickly stepped back.
"no, chris. i will cry. because i've been hopelessly in love with you for years and years now. and you have yet to see it, or do anything to defend it. and that's okay." i smiled sadly at chris, who stood in shock. "i always thought that i feared rejection or losing you. but with her in your life.. you've already left." i smiled sadly at chris.
chris stood still, his eyes glued to me. he had nothing to say. and that was fine.
i sighed and looked down, rubbing my eyes. "forget it." i mumbled as i turned on my heel, meeting eyes with nick and matt.
they both shared the same sad expression as they watched me.
i shot them a soft, sad smile before heading to the door and leaving, shutting it behind me.
four days. it had been four days since the incident.
i hadn't heard from chris at all, and i didn't expect to. i did hear from nick and matt a bit, both of them reaching out to ask how i'm doing. nick asked a few more times than matt did, offering to bring me food. i politely declined, but thanked him nonetheless.
i was bedridden the last few days. my eyes glued to the ceiling, prominent dark circles beneath them. my hands continued to pick at the skin on the edges of my nails, something chris would always stop me from doing.
"hey, why are you doing that?"
i turned to chris, who had an arm around my shoulders and a faint smile on his face. his hand reached to pull my hands apart.
"you're tampering with your pretty fingers, y/n. pick at mine instead."
he would offer, but i would tell him no after a soft laugh.
i turned to my window and frowned at the soft pitter patter that clashed with the glass, my chest rising a bit more in a deep breath before i sat up.
i went to my bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror.
i'm a fucking wreck.
i think i'd rather crawl into a hidey hole and never leave than have the public eye see me like this.
i ran the water in the sink and let my hand run beneath it before allowing my fingers to glide through my hair, gently brushing through it with my fingers.
i then went to my kitchen to find something to eat, but narrowed my eyes when seeing nothing but yogurts and an apple sitting inside.
with a deep sigh, i took a yogurt and peeled it opened, digging through the drawer to grab a spoon.
i laid against the couch and sighed as i stared at the ceiling, mindlessly eating yogurt.
strawberry flavored yogurt.
"why is this one green?"
i giggled as i held up the green strawberry to chris's face, biting my lip to suppress a laugh. "it's almost as big as your nose."
"hey!" chris clasped his hands over his nose, his face growing red. "don't even say that," he giggled as he flicked my forehead.
"ow! what'd you flick me for!"
chris simply let out a cheeky giggle and began running in the opposite direction, shamelessly apologizing to the few people he had bumped into.
i smiled at him from afar, admiring the way his silky hair bounced with each stride he took away from me before continuing to pick at the strawberries.
ding dong.
my body jolted at the loud sound as i lifted my head and sighed loudly. "coming!!" i yelled, wrapping a blanket around my pajamas and fixing my hair as i went to the door and turned the handle, opening it quickly. "hello?"
my eyes widened and my face fell.
christopher sturniolo, standing at my doorstep with soaking wet hair and shaky breaths, his hands grasping his belongings that were slightly dampened from the rain.
"chris? what are you doing here?" i asked, my voice just above a whisper.
"please, can we please talk?" chris asked, his voice sounding just as broken as mine.
i pulled the door opened further and let him in, mentally thanking him for stomping his shoes on the mat outside before trailing his feet indoors.
"take a seat, do you want a towel?" i asked him, carefully stepping inside and looking at him.
chris shot me a soft smile and nodded. "that'd be awesome, actually.. thanks.." he mumbled, standing awkwardly beside the couch. he didn't want to get it wet.
i ran to the hallway closet and grabbed a towel, smiling softly as i handed it back to him.
he thanked me and pulled it onto his head, drying his hair and face with a soft sigh.
we stood awkwardly for a few moments before we each spoke up.
"chris-"
"y/n-"
we both chuckled.
chris stared at me with a look i hadn't really seen before. well, not in a while.
"i broke up with her." chris stated.
i blinked a few times as i looked at him, slightly confused. "what? how come?"
chris stared at me, dumbfounded. "you were absolutely right. and i don't know why i let her stick around for so long." chris whispered.
i nodded as i stared as him, gently taking a seat beside him on the couch.
"what you said to me the other day, i-"
"it's okay if you don't feel the same chris." i gently set a hand on his shoulder.
"i just- i got frustrated, i accidentally opened up to something i shouldn't have, and i just don't want to ruin our friendship or what we have, or upset you, but if you don't feel the same, it's okay, i just-"
i rambled. and i was cut off.
by the feeling of chris's lips against mine.
the most gentle kiss known to man, his hand against my jaw as he closed his eyes. his bangs tickled the bridge of my nose as he tilted his head and pulled away.
"and i thought i talked too much," chris whispered, his face a bright shade of red as he smiled at me.
i stared at him in shock. "chris-"
"i'm sorry i was too stupid to realize that you've been the one for me since that day in kindergarten when that bitch shoved you in the sand."
i chuckled and gently pulled him into a tight hug, my eyes closing.
"thank you so much, chris.." i whispered.
chris hugged me back, his arms wrapping around my waist. "what're you thankin' me for?" he questioned, his hand gently rubbing my back.
i sighed and took in his scent, nuzzling into him and letting out a deep sigh.
"just... for bein' here. and the best."
chris chuckled softly against my shoulder and rubbed my back.
"thank you, y/n." chris whispered as he pulled away.
i looked at him and gently stroked his cheek. "what for?"
"for helping me realize that i've been missing out." chris whispered, pressing his forehead to mine and closing his eyes.
i smiled and sighed softly.
for years and years, chris and i had an unspoken bond. but it was spoken of as soon as it began to fade away. and now i think that bond will remain stronger than it ever was.
taglist;; @sturnioloshacker @nickgetsmewetter (will add more once my poll finishes T_T)