starting tomorrow i will be a real person in this world

oh! i forgot to do this. okay starting tomorrow i will be a real person in this world and i actually seriously genuinely properly truly mean it this time

um. well

MELANIE LYNSKEY as SHAUNA SHIPMAN YELLOWJACKETS 3.08 “A Normal, Boring Life”

in an isolationship

it’ll be fine I just have to be a shaking terrified animal about it

yellowjackets / we have always lived in the castle

Nothing better than an uptight repressed woman

porcelain doll (self diagnosed) 

"im going dollmode" i say before collapsing limply into the chair and staring blankly into the distance with my mouth slightly agape, completely unresponsive

i love it when a story presents me with a woman who is a freakweirdo

#sure jan

my favorite tweets about the DISASTROUS “wuthering heights” adaptation

clockin in for another day of being the architect of my own misery

One of the most tragic things about the book that both the show and movie go against, is that after Eleanor’s death, all the other characters continue on with their lives with no mention of her. It feels like a callback to the scene where Eleanor believes Theo and Luke are following and talking about her only to find out they’re not. Dr Montague publishes his book and it fails. Theo returns to her partner and they reconcile. Her sister cares more about the car than she does about Eleanor. Eleanor desperately wanted to be loved and to belong and to have an impact on other lives but when she is unable to have it in life, she seeks for it in death. Yet the novel ends as it begins; whatever walks there walks alone. There is no beauty or satisfaction in her death; it does not allow her belonging or companionship and she does not impact Hill House or its former inhabitants in any meaningful way.

Has anyone else noticed how there is nothing

mind if I come over and behave somewhat like a scared animal before I adjust

I’m going to unlearn shame *bursts into tears and beats my head against a brick wall*