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Light and his mangy ahh cat
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Light's starting his magical girl/fairly odd parents arc lmao
Anonymous asked:
do you have any tips for learning how to draw? your art looks so free and expressive even in rough sketch form, and the colors are absolutely gorgeous, but i don't even know how to color normally and don't have the means to do it digitally, so i'll leave that for later haha. anyway just wondering if you did anything in particular to practice or to learn your skills. your art is just so good. sorry if you've been asked before. thank you for sharing your art with the dn fandom!!
thank you for your message!!! ♥︎ you're very kind. I hope what I write here is helpful, but this is sort of a complicated one for me to answer!
in all honesty, I struggle deeply with seeing my art as good enough. my relationship with my creative process is something I’d consider unhealthy more often than not– though I’d like to think it’s getting better as of late. :')
I wasn’t formally taught how to draw, but I was obsessed with hand-drawn media from a young age, whether it was comics, 2D animation, illustrations, etc., and growing up, I would try to emulate the artists I loved as practice. I was just using a cheap yellow pencil and notebook paper, but it was all I needed at the time. and I think that's a really good place to start! don't worry about buying a bunch of art supplies all at once; you'll naturally accumulate tools as you go.
I’d say look at art, a lot of different types of art, and study it to discover what you like, and equally importantly, what you don’t. drill into why. if an artist you love shows their works in progress or sketches, really take a look at those. it’s so much easier to understand a rough image and how it was drawn/what marks the artist used rather than dissecting a polished piece.
if you have friends who like to draw, spend time drawing with them! make up stories and characters together. I drew all the time growing up. all the time. I was a super quiet, well behaved kid in school because I was terrified of getting in trouble, and yet I was constantly reprimanded for drawing during class. it was the one thing I was willing to get yelled at for. my point isn’t to get in trouble (lol), but more so– draw whenever you can, wherever you can. even when it’s mindless. keep paper nearby. doodle. draw what you see around you.
these days, it’s my perfectionism that really kills my love for drawing. it stops me from drawing at all sometimes, because I’m worried (before I even start!) whatever I make won’t be “good enough”, whatever that means. it got much easier when I stopped trying to keep a neat sketchbook and allowed myself to let go. draw quick, draw messy, draw “bad”. you have to make art you aren't satisfied with to get better. and it sucks! you might try something new and feel like, damn this looks so incredibly amateur, but it's an unavoidable part of the process. if you can look at what you made, accept it for what it is, and then keep going, you’ve already jumped the biggest hurdle.
when I’m stuck in a mental feedback loop of oh my god, I don’t know how to draw, why is my art so bad, I compare something I made this year to the year before. even if the differences aren’t immediately apparent, chances are you learned something between then and now– whether it be a better understanding of your personal taste/drawing style or composition or, like, how to draw ears. it gives you concrete proof that you’ve improved.
⬇ this is a Light I drew in 2022 compared to one from early 2024. even now, I look at the more recent image on the right and think, yeah I would probably draw that differently. but I'm also proud of the me back then who did her best.
really, truly, I’m still learning how to draw all the time. part of the reason I made this account and started posting Death Note fanart was because it was a low pressure way to be creative and let go and have fun. and maybe that’s my biggest piece of advice, simple as it is. enjoy it! draw self-indulgently. strive to improve, but also be lenient with yourself. if you find the love in drawing, it'll pull you through the times when it’s frustrating.
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the end! this is the final chapter of pas de trois. :')
what started as a teeny tiny vague nugget of an idea (I wanna write a story involving a string of conflict between Ide, Light, and Matsuda during the days leading up to Yellow Box ??? with alternating POVs and angst ? a lot of angst?? with dancing/acting/play motifs??? 🤷♀️🤷♀️🤷♀️), snowballed into this. it was a fun story to craft, albeit long and challenging, but I loved writing it. and it's sad to say goodbye. :')
I hope you've enjoyed it!! ♥ it was a genuine pleasure to share this fic and see each chapter with fresh eyes through other people's reactions. it's just my silly little self-indulgent thing, but I really mean it when I say it was special to me –the experience writing it and posting it, discussing it with readers– all of it! ♥ So, thank you very much for reading!!! I'm gonna go cry now
#death note#death note fanfiction#matsuda touta#ide hideki#death note fanart#my art#it's finally done...#thank you for your patience#it was never meant to take this long lmao :'D#but it's the holidays so I guess it's my present to you#my heart aches a little but I'm glad it's done and out there :')#I'll miss this story#thank you again (so much you don't even know) to those who have followed along and left such incredibly kind comments#they make me nearly shed a tear every time lol
Anonymous asked:
pas de trois anon is Back. i thought you were kidding when you said it'd get worse. i kept thinking "oh, well of course everyone's going to be denied medical attention until they finally leave" and uh and then. well, i was proven wrong! i had to stop reading momentarily out of shock because i thought ide just decided to be done with the love triangle manipulation bullshit once and for all and sleep for the rest of. ever. loved the new chapter and here are my thoughts:
"besides, a world without ide isn't a utopia." lives were restored. my crops are flourishing. my stress-induced rash has receded. maybe everything will be okay after all!
"because it was easy." lives were ruined. my crops were razed. my stress-induced rash has returned. i am withering and so is everyone else in this story, so at least there's that!
oh no, anon, I'm so sorry– I do not kid. every character goes through it in that chapter. particularly Ide. I didn't set out to make him the punching bag of this story, and yet it's played out that way. once again, apologies Ide. extended apologies, the entire Task Force. 🙏 I like a hefty dose of hurt in my hurt/comfort. I mean you get it, you get it, we all wither together :) it'll make the catharsis at the end all the better.
I'm using this post as a general update! everything related to this account and my fic are on the back back back burner because I am currently in 🔥 deadline hell 🔥 and have been this entire month. I unfortunately can't afford to spend any time on things unrelated to my job. if I respond to you late or miss a message, please know that is the reason. nothing's been abandoned, I simply can't even begin to think about it right now lol. I never wanted my fic updates to be this spread apart– but it is what it is. I so badly want to conclude pas de trois but I am six cups of coffee deep and wearing exclusively sweat pants and eating instant mac and cheese out of the pot.
for anyone following the story, thank you for your patience with me! ♥ the ideal timeframe is getting my shit done (please dear god) by the end of the month and finishing up pas de trois in december.
Anonymous asked:
Is it weird that I'm waiting for pas de trois to end so I can binge read it all? I have it bookmarked and in my "To-Read" list. I just haven't read it. I don't know. I have a feeling that once I actually do read a chapter, I'm not going to be able to think of anything else, and I'll just be stuck obsessively waiting for the next one. And so I wait, stalking your profile to see if you've made the next installment. I'm obsessing over something I haven't read. Well, I read like, half of chapter one, out it down and was hit with the realization that, "Oh fuck, if I read another word, I'm gonna basically be throwin myself into a hole." It's for my own benefit.
BY THE WAY, HOLY CRAPIZOIDS, THE COVERS FOR EACH CHAPTER ARE FUCKIN GORGEOUS. LIKE, WHAT THE FUCK???? LEMME JUST GET IN THERE AND EAT IT ALL UP. OMG, MATSUDA IS SO CUTE. OMG, LIGHT IS SO SLY. IDE, THAT CRINKLE IN YOUR BROW???? IM GOING FERAL. I WILL EAT YOUR HANDS. YOU EAT WITH THOSE HANDS? YOU WASH THE DISHES WITH THOSE HANDS? THE COLORS BLEND AND MAKE WACHOTHER STAND OUT, THE FACES ARE SO EXPRESSIVE. THE SLIGHTEST HUNCH OF A SHOULDER SHOWS MORE THAN ANY WORDS I CAN WRITE ONTO THIS COMMENT COULD SAY.
Ahem, all in all, I'll probably be sending another one of these when pas de trois is done, and I've actually read it.
Muah muah, from what little I read, I can tell that it's going to be amazing.
weird ??? it's not weird at all!! that's so flattering ;_;
I understand completely– I'm the exact same way lol. I actively limit what I consume otherwise I will go down the rabbit hole.
this last week was hell for obvious reasons, so this is such a lovely thing to see pop up in my messages. ♥︎ ♥︎ ♥︎ thank you so much!!! how incredibly sweet. :') I loved drawing those chapter covers and I go between wheezing with laughter at your comments to welling up with tears because of how freaking touched I am lmaoo.
pas de trois is just my self-indulgent little side project I've chipped away at over the past couple years, but it's brought me a lot of joy. if it's managed to keep those reading it immersed/hooked and provided a small escape, then I'm happy. I hope you enjoy it once it's complete!! ♥︎
chapter five ! 🖐️ this chapter took a good minute to get right, but I'm glad I waited. the finale of yellow box is important and deserves special care. 😤
nearing the end of the story now. :') it's a little sad since I don't want to say goodbye, but planning, writing, and editing it has been a really fulfilling process! I'm proud to have stuck through it till the end. ♥
Anonymous asked:
i did a reread of chap 4 of pas de trois and i feel So Bad for ide in this chap. he: watches people die, nearly dies himself and is only saved due to matsu's quick thinking, gets shot At Least twice and is in horrific pain, has to walk down a flight of stairs while in that agony, gets manhandled and hit, he has to watch the guy he's in love with be seduced by the guy that's trying to kill them all, watch matsu gradually succumb to light's manipulations all the while trying to break through to him as he's Still Bleeding Out. he has it so rough and i feel bad for laughing, but he's really doing so poorly.
for another thought, are the task force members intended to be seen as a sort of "greek chorus" figure in the latter part of the chap? i didn't know if it was intentional, but it def stuck out after a reread. can't wait for the next chap have a nice day/night!
oh god, I know, I really put him through the wringer. pffttt, having it all spelled out like that... yeah, lmao he's doing horrendously.
and it only gets worse for him in the next chapter, whoops... :'D I'm so sorry, Ide. 🙏
^ Ide at me. probably.
the task force acting as a greek chorus is not intentional in that specific way! though it makes a lot of sense because the through-line of plays and performance is very much a part of pas de trois. it would be very at home there.
even if I didn't intend it, I can totally see it and it's a really cool observation!! the more I think about it, the more it fits. there's certainly a moral issue at hand that Matsuda must navigate, and the rest of the task force *certainly* have feelings about it.
I love hearing other people's analysis of what I wrote– I'm always super honored someone took the time to sit with the story and decipher it through their own lens. :') thank you, anon!! you have a lovely day/night as well! ♥
also! just posted the next chapter after picking it apart for a while, and I think I'm finally satisfied with it. I hope you enjoy! ♥