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Doïnia

@traaaans-writes / traaaans-writes.tumblr.com

She/Her | Queer transfem interested in literature, writing, D&D, sociology, economy, all the fun stuff ! I love cool people, please never stop being awesome. Boop !

Some questions about the fanfic to self identify (and maybe heal?) your traumas: I'm over here wondering, how do you start? Where do you start in the writing to get to the healing part? What the heck do you write about where you accidentally end up writing about things?

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Write something that is just for you. Make it indulgent, make no considerations for an imagined audience. Pay attention to what subjects or prompts make you self-conscious. If the subject or plot makes you uncomfortable in a vulnerable way, as if putting these words in that sequence might tell on you, you’re headed in the right direction.

I’m out here on Main airing my dirty laundry because I now find that doing so is helpful, but when I first started putting these particular words into a document to do this process for myself, I had no intention of showing anyone but My Wife.

The first step is to write the thing you’re uncomfortable writing. If you find that being furtive and secretive about it helps the process, I recommend that. That’s where I started.

Best of luck!

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Lovely response. Thanks for the direction!

Me, hearing about “Past Lives” as a boy: oh well obviously I was a Girl in most of my Past Lives. I’m just trying out Being A Boy for this life.

Me, looking for adventure novels featuring female protagonists as a teenager: I just find Girls easier to relate to is all

Me, losing my virginity to a girl who acts like, dresses like, and looks like a boy: why are you so fucking hot?

Me, playing RPGs as an adult: [creates yet another female avatar] I find it easier to get into the headspace of the character this way.

My Alters arguing amongst themselves, during my Disordered Identity days: holy fuck why are there so many Girls in here

Me, finding out what a Trans Egg is in my 30s:

Wait more memories are emerging

Me, at 10, reading Ranma 1/2: this sounds like a fucking ideal situation I don’t know what Ranma’s fucking problem is.

Me, at 12, realizing that if I Became a Girl I would lose a lot of Rights and Power: welp. This is fucked up. Guess I’m Feminist now.

Me, at 13, feeling a profound sense of sadness that I’ll never get to be a Mom: this is a thought that normal boys have

Me, at 15, now in my Adult Body: AHHHHH

Me, at 17, at Theater Camp, in a leopard-print kimono, putting on a performance of Dr Frank-N-Furter: I’M JUST A SWEET TRANSVESTITE

I have some great Mutuals

Internet Friends are interesting things, huh?

Thanks for having my back.

Have you ever looked closely at a car windshield?

The edge of the glass is painted where it is glued to the car but it has these small dots between the clear and painted glass.

These are there for a reason. When the sun hits the glass the painted areas and the clear areas will absorb heat at different rates. This causes the glass to expand and contract differently putting stress on the glass.

These dots help the glass to warm up more evenly over a larger area so the glass does not suffer stress that could cause it to spontaneously explode.

Fun fact: the Tesla cybertruck doesn’t have these.

Yes, the glass will spontaneously crack or explode in the sun.

*doom music starts to play* I actually kindof like scheduling these kinds of appointments now...

but seriously Fellas, don't forget to schedule a pap smear every couple of years just in case. If you still have a cervix you can still get cervical cancer. ilu

this has been a psa

i've had this as an idea since 2017 btw

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