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i'll never get over dean walking around wearing this too-big leather jacket cuz he's insane about his daddy and he needs to be as close to him as he can. it really is too big for him! how did anybody take him seriously?

the samulet around his neck and john's leather jacket on his back, that's who dean was.

blocked because your interpretation of that character doesn’t match the way they act in my bedtime narrative i imagine when i’m falling asleep every night

the waist™ 👀 i'm sick of him 🙄😤

FATass

"hey man, you remind me of my dead wife"

sometimes i wonder if gihun ever blames sangwoo, even if just a small ammount, even subconsciously?

in gihun's mind, it was so easy for them both to have survived. sangwoo just had to take his hand and they would go home. they would talk to their moms. they would be friends again, together against anything. they would be poor again, but they would have each other.

now, gihun is all alone, left with an enormous pill of blood money that he can't spend and a need to avenge the deaths of those he lost and to prevent anyone else from dying as well.

i wonder if when he is lying awake at night, unable to sleep due to nightmares, he blames sangwoo for leaving him, for abandoning him when they could have had a future together.

maybe, for a few seconds, gihun can't forgive sangwoo for what he did. and when he realizes what he is feeling he is ashamed, because sangwoo killed himself so that gihun wouldn't have to do it, so that he wouldn't have to face his mother again out of fear of disappoiting her, so that gihun could leave the games with the money.

sangwoo died for him and gihun is blaming him because he can't bear to be alone, drowning in his own guilt, unable to move on.

in a way, he blames sangwoo, i think.

but he blames himself more.