Winter Fails

Weak.

so much to the point of being immobile.

I've rested in the same position for far too long

and honestly,

a sudden case of paralysis would be no cause for panic.

I could further complicate these thoughts, but time is wasting.

December

I found warmth in you.

Unusual. I know.

There was nothing I could do to wish you away.

I tired. I failed. I fell.

Weak.

December

lastly

and unlike all else

my first moment with you

epic

deathly

from your lips I sucked life

words

sweet as honey

my conscience full, space depleted

my mind is not mine

drunken

Weak.

December

I remember your fingertips

down my spine

along my thighs

Caressing the left side of my chest

...I digress.

Cause if I dont,

that makes me

Weak.

December

alone with you again

I could never be

the days you have to share

not meant for me

and I want most desperately to laugh in your arms,

gaze into your eyes as your palms hold my head steady

above your knees

come up

kiss you

fall asleep.

wake up

miss you

Weak.

December

I'd ask to visit you again

I'd pretend I didn't already fall

winter

most harsh season

you've come and gone

although I long for you

I'd rather be

Weak.

So Mf Anxious

I let you borrow my smile

I don’t share it too often

but you latched on tight

And your grasp was uncomfortable

I wish you had played it cool

but you couldn’t help yourself

now I’ll end up hurting you

and never forgiving myself

Feelings Made of Bxllshxt

Feelings

They thrive

They fade

They guide

They change

Feelings turn us into believers

Yet feelings are often times deceiving

Let them come

Let them grow

Let them go

Let them go

Y.A.S.E.

Impatient

Lacking patience

Plain Jane

Kinda basic

Passive aggressive

Unimpressive

Not white

Not right

Complicated

Tolerated

True selfist

Real selfish

Headstrong

Dead wrong

Criticized

Demonized

“Hey Big Head” face xss.

I find it difficult to understand why those who let you go, won’t let you go. If that goes over your head, read it again or until it makes sense.

CM

I’m a problem when you get that

A problem when you hit that

The problem

You can fix that

Rolled it up and let her lit that

You’re a problem in the game

A problem she can’t explain

The problem

You chase the fame

Spark one up and take the blame

We’re a problem when we meet

A problem in the sheets

The problem

We don’t speak

Light one more, in too deep

-Critical Mass - Bridget J

WW

Every day we meet again

And it’s never like the first time

Some days you calm the crazy

Call me crazy

Cause it changes

Every time we meet

On this day we meet again

In a galaxy beyond the clouds

Drifting near Orion’s belt

Joyfully floating among the stars

A cosmic feel

Every time we meet

It’s a new day and we meet again

But nothing will feel the same

My lips against you, I turn to stone

Eternally stuck here without shame

I escape reality

Every time we meet

Every day we meet again

And it’s never like the time before

I break you down, still you lift me up

Inhaling green to release my blues

I love you more

Every time we meet

-WhiteWidow-Bridget J

Note to Self

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and say to my younger self:

“Self, get used to being alone. Get comfortable as fxck with who you are and be proud of it”

…that’s what I’d tell my younger self. With age, I’ve come to realize that we’re not really taught to delve into our own minds and truly get to know ourselves. We’re not taught to first love who we are, without validation from others. Instead we’re taught to love xssholes, who were raised by douchebag parents who never loved themselves. Being okay with who we are, means being ok when we’re left alone…if we rely on ourselves to gain fulfillment in life, we master one of it’s greatest lessons. I’m not saying go through life alone, but I am saying do not fear the possibility of going it alone.

Self-negligence is self-destruction. Take care of you & don’t apologize for the shxt.

Cranes in the Sky - Solange

She's my favorite female artist & he was one of the best to ever do it. Happy Birthday 2pac ❤️

Paulo Coelho - The Alchemist

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J. Cole

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