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Saw that "are you ok son?" meme with the kid saying "I didn't deserve what they put me through," and I reflected momentarily on the worst years of my life and came to two conclusions:

Like seriously how much could have been avoided if I got put on hypothyroid medication? That stuff is what keeps me from going full on detached from reality. How much admittedly psychotic behavior could I have avoided if I was on that medication at 11 instead of waiting until I was like 27? 28? Maybe I wouldn't have tried to deal with the bullying by provocation (because then I understood why it was happening) if my brain wasn't set to absolute clown town dysfunctional thyroid land?

Like I am a whole other person than I ever was at any point when I was in school. If you have not been around me since I turned 28, you technically have not seen me when I'm medicated. You have no idea how much better of a person I am right now. Like yeah I still get paranoid from time to time and such but at least I'm not staying up for 24 - 72 hours anymore? I'm not as uncontrollably loud anymore? I have actual impulse control now? I am a whole other person. I could have had this in middle and high school and university but noooooooo because my doctors were all using the old numbers and not the new numbers.

It's a shame though. So much grief for nothing. So much preventable nonsense possibly.

Anyway, welcome to this thought train again

Redid P8 and La8 and feel better about those sections now. Still working on what Lo8 and W8 sections should be. The eighth set of plot points is about figuring stuff out and I do know what they need to figure out but how, who, etc...is eluding me still.

This of course will lead to the ninth set of plot points which relates back to the second set. If I go back to the second set of plot points, I am technically on the right track heading into the ninth set of plot points.

It's frustrating because I want to be done with the outline but there's always something going on making it take forever ;o;

My poor little knee who has been through family predisposition to being shitty, multiple falls as a toddler who walked and ran late, grew too fast, and abuse in gym class because "no pain no gain" teachers is rebelling today and being a little pain in the ass and I am so over it.

Yammering about the crossover fic again

Welcome to this round of questioning the crossover fic. This time I'm debating if I really do need six narrators for this story. Maybe I can tell the same thing with only Eddie, Venom, and 616 Peter and let Laura, Logan, and Wade be secondary characters.

Do the DP3 group add to the narration? In some ways yes, in other ways not as much? I mean the main pairing is pretty much Eddie/Venom and then 616 Peter does have a friendship with Laura, but do we need both their perspectives?

Or maybe I'm just letting the fact I still don't quite know what I'm doing with everyone except Eddie and Venom in the eighth section make me feel less confident about the fic plan in general. or I just need to sleep on it and then I'll know what to do. That happens a lot.

Don't really want to redo the outline again though. Kind of want to see how the current version could finish playing out and resolve. But I still wonder if maybe this fic is bigger than it should be. Although it's a crossover so....