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HarbingerHowls

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Barking into an abyss. 18+ only please, most things are M/E. Heed tags, we have damage.

Masterlists by Work

Stand-Alone Multi-Chapter Works

  • With Eyes to See and Ears to Hear (Dumpsterbros - Clint Barton x Matt Murdock, 24 Chapters, Rated E. Complete.)
  • Becoming Spider-Man (Trans!Peter Parker, IronDad & SpiderSon, 16 Chapters. Rated T. Complete.)
  • Hail Hydra (Bucky Barnes Whump, 16 Chapters, Rated E. DD:DE. In Progress - currently on a haitus with the completion of Phase One.)

Nat x Clint (Later polycule)

We Are More Than the Choices We Made (Pre-Multitudes, Pre-Clint/Nat. 2 Chapters, Rating updated to E. In Progress.)

Multitudes (72 Chapters, 22 cross-posted so far. Rated E. DD:DE. Complete on AO3).

In the Dark of the Night (Bucky x Clint, One-Shot, Rated E.)

Chionophobia (Natasha x Steve x Clint x Bucky, One-Shot, Rated M.)

Tony x Stephen (IronSparkles!)

Magic and Madness (46 Chapters, 7 cross-posted so far. Runs alongside Multitudes. Rated E. DD:DE and fluff, somehow? Complete on AO3).

Bucky x Bug (SoldierBug)

When the Wolf Howls (& x &, pluralpoly. Norse Mythology AU. 4 Chapter, Rated M. In Progress.)

SnowSailor (Winter x Greg (Bucky x OMC))

The Real Winter Soldier (3 Parts, Rated E. Complete.)

On The Tide (12/12 Chapters, Rated E. Complete.)

SoldierBug (Bucky x Bug (ONBC)

Paws for Applause (Bucky Barnes& x Bug& (pluralpoly), Pet Shop AU. 4 Chapters, Rated T. In Progress.)

Near Misses and Nearly Missed (Bucky Barnes x Bug, Soulmates AU. 2 Chapters, Rated E. Complete.)

This encompasses all Stucky, WinterIron, SnowSailor, StagBug, and WinterHawk oneshots.

The German and the American

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 -> Winter x Greg (Bucky Barnes x Original Male Character)

𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 -> After Tony learns the truth of his parents' demise, he makes it his mission to destroy the Winter Soldier. Fortunately, the Soldier has someone on his side.

Or: Bucky's time in Russia serves him well.

𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓 -> 4620

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 -> (E) Post-Civil War strife, hunted man, gagged and dragged. Smut.

𝐀/𝐍 -> For my sweet sailor - a German of a different kind, though just as magical. Please read the warnings. Check it out below, or on AO3 here!

Prompts used; - ‘Anonymous Sex’ – @anyfandomdarkbingo; - ‘“Kneel For Me.”’, ‘Paying Debts’ – @avengers-assemble-bingo; - ‘Suddenly Toe Sucking (Unexpected/Undisclosed Kinks)’ – @badsexbingo; - ‘German’ – @secretcrypticevents Bingo;

- ‘Face Fucking’, ‘Oral Sex’, ‘Standing Sex’ – @fandom-free-bingo (Flight Edition); - ‘Rough Sex’ – Fandom-Free Bingo (Flight Edition); - ‘Last of Your Kind’ – Fandom-Free Bingo (Frosty Edition); - ‘Crush or Gender Goals?’ – Fandom-Free Bingo (Gingerbread Edition); - “Were You Spying on Me?!” – Fandom-Free Bingo (Gingerbread Edition); - ‘Saved By a Beautiful Stranger’, “What Did I Tell You? Quiet as a Mouse.” – Fandom-Free Bingo (Tolkien Edition); - ‘Forest Birds’ – Fandom-Free Bingo (Tolkien Edition); - “I’m Sorry, Who Are You?”, ‘Giving Themselves Up or Keep Coming Back’ – @julybreakbingo (6x6); - ‘Dry Orgasm or Wet and Messy’ – July Break Bingo (Summer).

Even in my speed, I made less sound than my pursuers. But they had the advantage - the chopper overhead tracked my body heat, driving the circle of gun-toting militants ever closer.

Goddamn Stark and his money…

I was no stranger to being on the run. I’d evaded armies and governments and mercenaries, and I’d put down more targets than I could count – or even remember – without attracting a scrap of attention.

But I’d never had a furious, vengeful billionaire baying for my blood before now.

The forest birds grew quiet as my armed noose tightened, their attempts at silence making my eyes roll despite the danger.

Until a hand clasped over my mouth, pulling me bodily against a hard chest as I struggled, boots kicking up dry leaves.

“Stop,” a quiet, accented voice growled in my ear. “They will find you.”

No matter how I struggled and strained, I was helpless, eyes widening in panic as a horrified realisation dawned.

Someone must have figured it out.

The only person who had been a match for me a battle of strength since HYDRA had toyed with me was Steve – until now.

If anyone had the resources and intelligence to do it, it would be Howard Stark’s son…

The arm around my waist tightened and I stumbled as they pulled me backwards, supporting my body weight effortlessly when I lost my footing. Branches and brambles tore at my clothes, probing and snagging, and I grunted against the palm over my mouth when thistles scraped against the mangled stump at my shoulder.

I hissed in surprise as I was pulled downwards, dragged into a dank hole in the ground, wet earth scoring along the back of my calves. The spot of sunlight receded as I was forced into the dark, the sounds of my pursuers becoming muffled, my feet shifting in an effort to find purchase and halt my unanticipated descent.

My heel snagged on a root and my captor sprawled as I was jerked free, biting hard on the inside of my cheek to keep from growling as pain flared through my ankle. No sooner had I fought my way to my feet, however – scrambling in the darkness – than fingers closed around the injured site, followed by a body covering mine as I was pulled flat once more, pressing me into the earth and filling my nose with the scent of wet dirt.

“Enough,” they spat, a knee on the base of my spine holding my wriggling form down. “I am trying to help. Stop fighting me.”

“Let me go – face me like a man,” I snarled, struggling to free my arm from where our combined weight had pinned it beneath me.

“I am not interested in fighting you!” they snapped, a hand finding the space between my shoulder blades to halt my squirming. “I am saving your life – if you would only let me!”

Tired from straining against this seemingly immovable mass – and reluctantly acknowledging that the only harm that had been done here was that which I’d caused myself in my struggling – I slowly fell still, panting hard against the dirt. “Fine. Just- Get off me.”

They waited for a moment longer, seeming weighing up any possible risk I posed, before slowly shifting their weight from me, allowing me to drag myself into an uncomfortable sitting position, squinting into the darkness. Despite my enhanced eyesight, the sun was too distant to make out anything more than a vaguely humanoid shape, crouching opposite in the narrow tunnel.

“Who are-”

They turned and continued along the slow decline, almost silent, moving with a speed borne of familiarity. With one last, uncertain glance over my shoulder at the pinprick of daylight, I began to follow, my hand trailing along the wall to steady myself.

A lil Daredevil fic rec for you all!

A bedeviled Matt, in need of a voice of reason, makes a late night visit.

It's short and sweet and I love the idea that this is the one thing that he is scared of - because how can anyone know they want to be with him when he has no idea what tomorrow will bring? The relationship between Matt and Foggy is captured perfectly - comforting Foggy is always one of my favourite things 🥺 Matt's the Devil of Hell's Kitchen, but this shaggy-haired lawyer soothes him so easily 😭♥️

Check it out on AO3 here - written by the ever-talented @mutuallyprime !

We Are More Than the Choices We Made - Chapter Two ... And into the Cage

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 -> Clint Barton & Natasha Romanov

𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 -> A little nighttime bonding makes everything better.

𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓 -> 1513

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 -> (E) Nightmares, implied sexual assault, restraint, risk of injury/death, trauma

𝐀/𝐍 -> Dead Dove: Do Not Eat. Please read the warnings, and proceed with caution. Check it out below, or on AO3 here!

The snazzy Black Widow divider comes from @/firefly-graphics and I love it <3 The Multitudes Universe one is our own!

- ‘Insomnia’, ‘Trapped in a Dream’ – @anyfandomgoesbingo (Kink); - ‘Obedience Training’, ‘Strangulation’, ‘“I Never Stood a Chance, Did I?” “That’s the Sad Part – You Did Once.”’, ‘Blindfold’ – @fandom-free-bingo (Flight Edition); - ‘Bound together or Pinned By a Heavy Object’ – @julybreakbingo (Kofi Ex); - ‘Hogtied or Forcibly Stripped’ – July Break Bingo (4x4); - ‘Shared Trauma or Chaotic Mess’, ‘Best Friends’, ‘Temporary Amnesia or Temporary Blindness’ - July Break Bingo (5x5); - ‘Hallucinating or Forced to Watch’ – July Break Bingo (6x6); - ‘The Past Coming Back to Haunt Them’, ‘Fear of Heights or Fear of the Dark’, ‘Text or Letter’ – July Break Bingo (7x7).

No.

No, leave her alone.

Leave her-

“-alone!” I screamed, straining desperately against my hands bound tight behind my back, the metal chair beneath me creaking but not acquiescing to my struggling. Blood poured from my nose – broken, again – but I simply spat the contents of my mouth onto the ground, never ceasing in my hollering.

Her green eyes were ringed with red, her tears never slowing nor faltering even as her sobs trailed off into whimpers. Blonde hair was plastered to her scalp and forehead, stained with the dirt and blood of the hands that held her fast.

Her clothes had been cut away, and no matter how she twisted and turned, she couldn’t cover her exposed body, the hands on her wrists and ankles too big – holding her too tight – couldn’t they see they were hurting her?

Bruises bloomed on her thighs and blood pooled beneath her, and I met the eyes of her torturers, snarling with undisguised hate.

“I’ll fucking kill you,” I vowed, trembling with fury and disgust, and the man by her head laughed without mercy or humour.

“Don’t worry, Natalia … You’re next,” he crooned, making my blood run cold.

“She’s only seven… She’s just seven… Please, not her,” I whispered, closing my eyes against the painful memory of when they Broke me, tearing me apart and ruining the remains. “Please. I’ll do anything. Please, just leave her alone…”

A cold, hard hand pulled my head up forcefully, the grip on my cheeks painful enough that my lids snapped open with a gasp.

“We’re going to get her ready for service. And for every second you don’t watch, the longer it will last,” he purred, his lips horrifically delicate as they skimmed against my cheek. “Enjoy the show, Swan.”

WIP checkpoint!

reblog this with the last 3 sentences you wrote from your current WIP

The flow of saliva slowly eased but turned tinged with red from the blood frothing between his teeth, and I grimaced as his long tongue lashed over dry gums, the scent of his breath washing over us once more.

The was a moment of silence, a sharp intake of breath, and then-

That Is Better.

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Writers are scary because we’ll take personal trauma and think, "Hmm… what if this happened to my fictional characters but worse?"

April is the Cruelest Month Whump Event 2025!

Here we are again! The second year of AitCM!

It's a good month to whump our favorite characters!

In AitCM, to complete, you only have to write 15 days, and the other fifteen days you read & rec a fic that fits one the prompts for the day. (Feel free to create and promote art pieces as well!)

This not only makes it easier to fit into a busy schedule, but it helps promote your favorite writers!

You are more than welcome, of course, to write all thirty days or rec all thirty days—or both—but that is not necessary to complete the challenge.

Join us in filling the world with spectacular whump stories!

Tag us in your stories, recs, and art!

Choose one or more of the prompts daily (or use an alt prompt) and get to work!

The minimum requirement is 100 words. It's not terribly strict. If 100 words seems too daunting, try to get as close as you can. There is no maximum word count, though.

Post your stories to our Ao3 collection:

Do your best and get to whumping!

Special thanks to Lynn(justanotherinterneruser) for helping put this together. <3

Ma'am please bestow upon me your amazing smut writing ways! 😩Your smut scenes are always top tier and I'm so jealous! I feel like all of my smut writing ends up turning out sounding the same.

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Awwwh Lau 🥹🥹 Thank you babe, that’s so sweet of you - you’re so kind to me ♥️

And I was going to joke that I have no idea how I do it (and that is true to an extent - lots of it just happens in the moment!) but real talk, writing smut is one of the things I find MOST difficult in writing. It’s so time consuming to get it right, or it is for me anyway!

But here’s how I try and approach it… apologies I’m chatty and this got a bit long but I hope it’s useful to you and others!

Alex’s Guide To Writing Smut

Oh wow - over 1000 of you thought this was useful enough to interact with 😳 Thanks so much for the reblogs and I really hope it’s helped. Good luck with your writing loves 🥰 xx

I love this.

And honestly, I reckon personal preferences definitely play a role. I think dialogue is a big one here - from passing conversations, I've noticed that people who are talkative themselves when in the moment tend to write the same, and vice versa. Personally, writing silent smut feels really foreign and awkward to me (unless there's a *reason* - avoiding getting found, etc), and I avoid it whenever feasible, and I certainly know folks who find sexy talk really unnatural themselves and struggle to encorporate it into their writing!

There's this awkwardness that a lot of people encounter around writing smut - that if they do it "wrong", it's somehow embarrassing. But it isn't! Like real life, written sex can go all sorts of ways. It can be good, bad, messy, funny, gross, awkward... But all of it is right if you, as the writer, enjoyed writing it. People may cater a little more to personal tastes in their consumption, and your super niche kink may not get a high level of traction. But maybe one person will read it and feel represented by what you created, and I think that's wonderful.

Go forth and write smut, courtesy of this wonderful advice from @cillmequick. And for those in the back - don't be afraid to make it a little silly or awkward! Have that condom come off, or a knee somewhere it shouldn't be, or going in for a kiss that becomes a mouthful of hair, or having to stop at an inopportune moment because of cramp. The world is your sexy oyster, and human bodies are beautiful and ridiculous, in all shapes and sizes. Have fun with it!

You were born with the unique power to see the most interesting "stat" of a person floating over their head. For most, it's stuff like "TIMES WON GAMES OF POKER: 43," or "PROMISES BROKEN: 105." Today, you glance up at someone sitting nearby to see "EXTRATERRESTRIALS KILLED: 27."

Chionophobia

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 -> Lia ('Natasha Romanoff' headmate) x Steve Rogers x Bucky Barnes x Clint Barton

𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 ->The second Christmas after the birth of their second child, the farm is hit with a snowstorm. The kids are thrilled, but not everyone shares their joy. (A Multitudes universe one-shot, set after the main story.)

𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓 -> 5656

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 -> (M) Hallucinations, panic attacks, DID, references to past abuse, references to previous mental health struggles, attempted suicide, desperation.

𝐀/𝐍 -> Check it out below, or on AO3 here! Dividers by us! Cards at the end <3 Contains just all the prompts, so they're at the bottom for readability.

The mornings were getting darker – a sleepy fumble through the blackness towards a deafening, heart-wrenching wail, bundling my son to my chest with a soft croon and a kiss to his forehead.

Not that it made much difference usually, but you can’t blame a girl for trying.

Artemis had been an easy baby, by all accounts. She’d settled well, drunk readily, and hit all her milestones with scarcely a wobble. At almost four, she was thriving, blue eyes sparkling under an unruly bushel of red hair as she took in the world around her – usually trying to decide where she could cause mayhem next.

But Apollo had struggled since the beginning. Despite the easier pregnancy – no post-partum crazies for us, not this time – he’d been persistently sickly, hit with every virus and bug around, fighting with colic and croup. As he’d grown, his tiny, fragile body had accepted the world a little more; sometimes, though, we were still woken in the early hours of the morning by his insistent cries, our beloved son unable to be soothed until whatever merciless forces that toyed with him released their grasp. There was nothing wrong with him physically – he’d been checked and rechecked more than once, bloods and scans and observations all forming a file almost as thick as my own. And it was receding, it seemed, at last. There was mercy in that.

As I held him close to my chest, however, bare feet padding silently against the heated hardwood on a December morning, I wondered, as I often had, if it was my fault. We hadn’t been around for some of Artemis’ formative weeks – had that put her on a better path in life? Had her mothers’ absences been a blessing, not a blight?

Because of me, this sweet, harmless little bundle had been exposed to things no child should know exists. Stephen had assured me time and again that his health issues were in no way related; the time we’d spent in Jotunheim had been so early in his development that he was barely a bundle of cells by the time we returned. But I still wondered if some deeper kind of evil had crept into my blood, if something intangible and demonic had cursed my child long before he took his first breath.

Five Nights at Freddy's Bingo Masterlist

  • "What a Gift to Relish, a Victim That Can't Perish!" Hail Hydra - Chapter Four. (E) Bucky is warmed up... A little too much. CW: Restraint, branding, threats of violence, temperature torture.
  • 'Redemption' When the Wolf Howls - Chapter One. Bucky Barnes x Original Nonbinary Character. (M) After a thousand discussions about Asgard, Bucky decides to take his partner to see the realm, and they come across something that they can’t leave well enough alone. CW: Mythologically-typical animal cruelty, mentions of sex (non-explicit). Multitudes references (kidnapping, torture).
  • 'Friends With the Devil' Hail Hydra - Chapter Fifteen. (E) As Bucky's second year of captivity comes to a close, he undergoes a life-changing alteration. CW: Non-con body modification, torture in the guise of medical procedure, mentions of sexual assault and rape, mentions of violence.
  • 'Still Stuck in the Past ' On The Tide - Chapter Seven. Bucky Barnes x Original Male Character. (E) The ship prepares to dock for repairs, and the crew reduces by one. CW: homophobia, transphobia, mentions of institutional homophobia and the death penalty.
  • 'Look Death in the Eyes' As the Wolf Howls - Chapter Two. Bucky x Bug (Bucky Barnes x Original Nonbinary Character). (M) Buck goes hunting, and Bug is hunted. CW: Threat, uncertain fate.
  • 'Eternal Agony' Hail Hydra - Chapter Fourteen. (E) Bucky finds out what it is to be a part of Zola’s experiment, and is marked as Hydra’s property. CW: Death of an unknown character, corpses, non-con body modification, sexual assault.
  • 'Sun & Moon' Paws for Applause - Chapter Four. Bucky Barnes(&) x Original Nonbinary Character(&). (T) The boys begin to open up, and a storm is coming. CW: Mentions of abuse and trauma, nightmares.
  • 'Missing' On The Tide - Chapter Nine. Bucky Barnes x Original Male Character. (E) Winter’s captors reveal their true intentions. CW; Kidnapping, torture, physical abuse, slave sale, non-con virginity auction.
  • 'The Past Does Not Forget, Blood Does Not Forgive' Hail Hydra - Chapter Ten. (E) Bucky is sought out, and he receives a gift from his new captors. CW: Nightmares, blood, death of a whumper.

Paws for Applause - Chapter Four Drever

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 -> James "Bucky" Barnes(&) x Original Nonbinary Character(&) (Soldierbug&, pluralpoly)

𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 -> The boys begin to open up, and a storm is coming.

𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓 -> 6358

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 -> (T) Mentions of abuse and trauma, nightmares.

𝐀/𝐍 -> Check it out below, or on AO3 here! Dividers by us! Cards at the end <3

Prompts at end because there's a lot siesefesfjsef

I woke slowly, blinking my way into consciousness with a flickering of eyelashes and a prolonged stretch. The cotton beneath my cheek was sleep-warmed and softened with age, and I let out a quiet sigh, burrowing deeper into the material, reluctant to face the sunlight.

“Good morning, Темнота.” Gentle fingers caressed my hair, and I blushed, hiding a smile in their shirt.

“Hi,” I whispered, embarrassed at having been caught so vulnerable, but happy with the situation in which I’d found myself. I glanced up at them through my lashes, finding them grinning affectionately down at me, one arm still tight around me, their cell in their other hand. “Did you sleep at all? I hope you didn’t stay up all night ‘cause of me…”

The chuckled softly, offering me a gentle squeeze. “I slept, don’t worry. You cuddle in pretty well; I don’t think I could’ve stayed awake if I’d wanted to!” They lapsed into silence once more, fingers teasing my hair, and I purred, watching them closely.

“… Whatcha doing?” I asked as I tracked their eyes skimming over their screen, blushing at my nosiness. “Not that you… I mean, you don’t gotta tell me. Obviously.”

With a snort, they rested their cheek on my hair. “Reading. It’s about fairy tales, folklore… It’s interesting!”

I smiled and nestled closer, yawning widely. “Will you read to me?”

Their cheeks pinkened minutely, but they nodded, clearing their throat uncertainly.

“Come away, O, human child! To the woods and waters wild, With a fairy hand in hand, For the world’s more full of weeping than you can understand…”

My eyes closed of their own volition as I burrowed in, fingers curling in their shirt to hold myself nearer, and they paused. “… Wanna go and settle in on the bed? You might be more comfortable…”

My nod was subtle but sure; this strange person who had appeared quite without warning in our lives and shook up everything we thought we knew was an unexplainable tranquiliser, soothing my soul and calming my mind.

I trusted them without hesitation.

Despite the anxiety warring in my head, Winter and Bucky murmuring their concerns, I allowed Mars to manoeuvre me gently into position between the sheets. My hand shot out instinctively as they went to back away, eyes low. “Will you stay with me?” I whispered, and they paused infinitesimally before nodding, sliding in beside me and wrapping an arm around me as my head found their chest.

I let out a quiet, contented sigh, curling into their side, their cheek resting lightly on my hair.

“Where the wandering water gushes,” they continued, their melodic, friendly tone a balm to the ragged edges of my psyche, “From the hills above Glen-Car, In pools among the rushes, That scarce could bathe a star…”

When the Wolf Howls - Chapter Four

"I Have Always Found That Plans Are Useless, But Planning is Indespensible."

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 -> James "Bucky" Barnes/Original Nonbinary Character(s). Secondary Pairings; James "Bucky" Barnes/Clint Barton, James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes/Natasha Romanov, James "Bucky" Barnes/Clint Barton/Steve Rogers/Natasha Romanov

𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 -> The small gang gets closer to their goal, but an unexpected interaction pauses their progress.

𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓 -> 2279

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 -> (M) Snowstorm, risk, unknown (general adventure type stuff), unknown assailant.

𝐀/𝐍 -> Check it out below, or on AO3 here!

Dividers by us! <3

- ‘Free Space’ – @buckybarnesbingo (B049); - ‘If You Believe’ – @fandom-free-bingo (Frosty Edition); - ‘Annoying Sibling’ – Fandom-Free Bingo (Gingerbread Edition); - ‘“Don’t Look at Me, This Wasn’t My Idea”’ – @fourormore Bingo (2024); - ‘Fighting Back or Fighting Back… Unsuccessfully’ – @julybreakbingo (Flash); - ‘Caught in an Explosion or Caught in a Storm’ – July Break Bingo (6x6).

We proceeded without too much difficulty, though I watched Sleipnir intently. While my own senses were sharp, the horse had a mystical sense for danger and an understanding one wouldn’t have expected, and I found myself growing quite fond of the creature. Intermittently, however, I would be reminded of his lineage, and had to swallow the urge to pull my partner from his back. The steed would eye me, as if sensing my doubt, and the anthropomorphising part of my brain couldn’t help but think he looked almost apologetic, informing me that he was no happier about his lineage than I.

I wondered if he had any sense of who his father – mother? – was. I wondered if he was aware that he was dead. I wondered if he’d care either way, if he did understand the concept.

I wondered if he felt the same darkness in his heart, and fought every day to be better than those that came before. Or maybe he tried, but secretly thought he could never outrun that darkness.

I blinked, shifting my eyes away from his.

I think I’m overthinking this a little too much.

My mind turned instead to the other child of Loki that dwelled in my thoughts. If Sleipnir was the good that had come from the trickster god, then Fenris was surely considered to be the evil – just as dark and torturous as his father, but with far more capacity for ending the world than the son of Odin had ever shown. Loki himself had proven largely content with extracting a more personal apocalyptic pain – good for the world, admittedly, though not so much so for my own bubble of it.

I turned my eyes to my partner, chewing worriedly on my lip. I’d thought Loki was the last of his kind we would ever have to face – and yet here I was. He and his bloodline seemed determined to haunt me to my last.

We passed into the mountains without issue, the peaks less intimidating than those surrounding Asgard. Nevertheless, the shadows cast over us made me shiver, fingers clenching around the reins. Bug glanced back at me with concern, and I forced a tight-lipped smile, my nod letting them know I was okay.

But I couldn’t help the way my eyes skimmed every crag and recess, half-expecting to see the mangled body of the Spiders that had haunted my dreams after my frantic search.

We could see the border in the distance when Thor stiffened, raising his hand to still us once more. His head was cocked, looking off to his left, but I was focused on the land before us.

The divide between Nornheim and Varinheim was clear – from long views of soft meadows and rough rock to the all-encompassing, blinding white of snow and ice, glimpsed in short bursts between mist so thick it looked as though one could choke. Instinctively, I coughed, clearing more clinging debris from ash-coated oesophagus, and Thor shot me a look of fury, eyes narrowed. With a jolt, I recalled the warnings he’d given as he explained the map to us.

‘The Domain of the Dark Man. Not somewhere you want to go.’

He’d seem nervous at the thought, eager to avoid whatever creature haunted this corner of a distant realm – except now neither realm nor creature were quite so distant, and his nerves were returning. With an apologetic wince, I ducked my head, fighting the immediate need to cough that arose as he slowly guided us forward once more.

I was almost relieved when the sound of horseshoes on rock became the softer thump of metal on snow, though each crack and growl and roar and howl of the ice had my heart stuttering.

And then the almighty cold wreathed itself around me and I gasped at the pain of it, air coming like knives in my lungs. Before me, Mars curled in on themselves, trembling violently. Even the great god leading our party ducked his head and hissed audibly, the wind whipping his hair around his face.

“Thor!” I called, voice hoarse from the dry, frigid air. He looked back – with some difficulty, owing to the cape flapping into his vision – and I gestured. “We can’t see a thing. We need to wait out this storm!”

He nodded once, glancing around himself, and then beckoned Sleipnir closer, leaning down to mutter indecipherably into the horse’s ear. Slip leant out a soft nicker, the sound carrying on the wind, and broke into a brisk trot, leading our eclectic party along a path only he could perceive between towering blocks of ice and wind-whipped chasms.

It wasn’t long, however, until we were led into the shelter of a colossal slab of rock, the ground around us protected from the ever-falling snow. A cavern yawned ahead of us, a dark hole in the ragged surface, and I hesitated as the horse didn’t slow.

“We’re… Going in there?” I clarified quietly, the shelter allowing for a lower tone, the rock echoing my own voice back at me.

“I would trust Sleipnir with my life – and, more importantly, that of the pair of you,” Thor added, glancing back at us. With a stiff nod, I loosened my grip on the reins, giving Glaðr her head and letting her follow Sleipnir into the darkness.

Thoughts of an insect

Warning: themes of insect death

I.

To be a bug without the exoskeleton,

Is to spend your time convincing others you don't deserve to be killed.

Near-begging them to see that you are just like the others,

But smaller, with claws that gently prick skin.

I didn't ask to be feared.

II.

Please. Please help me.

My brothers and sisters, stop.

I frantically pick them up and replace them, but they flood to the Light-Sun blindly and I can't grab them fast enough. They fall on their backs and with gentle fingertips I pick and place and pick and place and please.

I need help.

I can't save them all.

By the morning they'll all be dead.

III.

The sooner you accept insects are animals

The more animals you will encounter

And the more animal death you will have to tolerate

It must be much easier to ignore them

IV.

Image ID:

[ID Start] A traditional pencil sketch of three images, each with the caption "Hold them."

The left image depicts a shrine we built to a passed scarab beetle, it lies in the centre of a circle of rocks of various sizes.

The middle image depicts the headmate June, a humanoid figure with curly afro hair, pointed cat's ears, and wings tucked close to their body. They gently hold a millipede who appears the size of a dog due to their small size. Their paws hold the insect's face, and their tail wags with joy.

The right image depicts a human hand, palm up and thumb curled inwards, holding four black scarab beetles. Two are overturned on their backs, a third is beside them right way up. One has climbed all the way up the middle finger to the edge.

[ID End]

Snail divider created by @kodaswrld

Art and poetry created by June of Wanderstars.

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