tried to go in the hotel pool for some mild PT and i cannot. Do cold water on my scars yet. Literally shocked me n i made a silly noise like βawawawawawaaaaaaaaaβ but hot or lukewarm water is heaven
anyone else get up to get a glass of water and then 8 hours later you finally get to leave an entire family debate about if cry/pto should be taxed/current regulations or lack thereof and the postal system along w/ what feels like every single fucking hot button issue connected to those topics. or do i just live in a unique hell
#dis.txt#well. it is hellish. but also it makes so much fucking sense why my brain is Like This and enjoys that kind of thing to some extent#like yesssssssss let me talk about all of the postal shit i learned back when i could have legally gotten that job and wanted 2#(<- didn't do anything bad just happened to be tr/ansgender + IS lmao)#I LOVE LEARNING ABOUT INTRICATE SYSTEMS!!!!!! I FUCKING LOVE THE MAIL (<- ripping 1st shirt off 2 reveal ''i <3 USP/S'' shirt)#but yeah no once again when ppl are like ''just unplug!'' ........ brother i just live with this. i walk into it. it's on the TV. i live it
forever and ever so happy and thankful to myself that i didn't allow shitty people to shame me out of my music taste and enjoyment or taint my catalogue because i love music so muchhhhhhh
#dis.txt#''shitty husband cringes at your music taste. lies to you'' to ''happily divorced and listening to happy hardcore at midnight'' pipeline#if you guys ever want to know how i can get so much fucking paperwork done or do literally anything. the answer is Drugs And Music#(maybe dont do that first one thats mostly a medical thing)#also to just ignore genre and like whatever the fuck you like in the moment. everything is both deeply serious and unserious. have fun#it really is like..... we do still have music. despite all of it. we still have music. thank you music
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going to say something deeply stereotypical and unshocking
NEED the Oraxia bugrobot H/RT so bad i could throw up and start whiteboy punching the doorframe with tears coming out of my eyes. look at this fucking design man
#dis.txt#sliding these photos across to my dr and rapidly tapping the paper with increasing haste and panic#YES COOL BARBED HEELS BUT SHE ALSO HAS ACCURATE LITTLE PEETS AT THE END....... wahhhh my cute evil bug <3 <3#no spiderboobs LMAO thank u but i love that i can scuttle around in warframe now#bugminions ability as well and you Know the caliban main is gonna get all happy about minions. GO MY HUNGRY SCUTTLERS!!!!!#i used to only have the one rhino beetle skin.... prayed 4 more Bug Content.... i hope that shows how busy i've been not rambling abt her#she dropped on JUNE 25TH!!!!! I BARELY COMPLETED OPERATION EIGHT CLAW which is sad but w/e i got my trinkets#i cant even remember if i talked about that or if i was 2 out of it. fucking forgor hashtag MYpaperworkbrain#centiframe when. milliframe........
health + another one where if u are squeamish you should Probably avoid it. sorryyyy i'm just at the tail end of this, i literally have the post op visit next week
#dis.txt#like i sneezed without them on for the first time and i froze up from the ''oh fuck did that hurt me" so that's where my brain is at#literally a pure instinct thing which is Annoying..... logically i Know but that fucking ancient lizard is TERRIFIED#picturing it as one of those fat (affectionate) te/gus that have to be babied like a cute dog or something#calming my mental lizard with snacks and pets while letting it know we're gonna be okay
eeverything sucks so bad i wish i could just have some fucking yaoi moments as the bloggers say
#dis.txt#do i mean a platonic yaoi moment? sexual? romantic? secret other thing? i mean literally anything. I Mean Literally Anything#if you would like a dismal yaoi moment you are welcome to one. i think i have to force myself to take a sabbatical this august#b/c i have my post-op check up next week so once again legally i am not allowed to be getting this stressed#drs orders to Have A Good Time and Chill Out. trying. but it's fucking hard. but i'm trying#rotating Ly/on Allard in my head CONSTANTLY until he comes out so i can stay sane(ish)
mentions of death/harm (animal + people) and guilt-tripping shit but nothing explicit. i am talking about an internet phenomenon based on Lying Online For Money but watch out if u gotta
#dis.txt#i'm not kidding i closed it here because i was becoming scared of the notification dinging-#because i might literally just see like. a dead body or something. which usually doesn't do much but this is a Bad Year#(and so was last year but yk. the PT/SD is unfortunately a Real Issue i have so sometimes i have to curate shit harshly so i can exist)#also i love my moral O/CD mutuals and i will always keep this space safe for them b/c we effectively have the same awful fallout from those#so i don't wanna hear any weird abl/eist shit about this in the form of Even More Guilt-Tripping. i do shit w/ my money offline lmao#you can just. leave honestly. i hate this c*tholic-lite culture of ''if we can't blast you with g*re images and make you feel eternal guilt#while you flagellate yourself in public for us than you're Going To Hell'' i got enough of that in my childhood/adolescence okay#it didn't do shit. it helps Nothing. it got me taken advantage of. financially and also in even worse ways i don't gotta elaborate on#(at least for the dismal lore knowers.... everyone else can probably extrapolate it's the fucking c*tholic ch*rch lmaooooo)#which. is why it's a Sca/mmer Tactic. like 1 of the classic methods b/c it works by exerting social pressure + creates distress/urgency#and 2 be clear i am not saying you're stupid or bad or evil or Anything if you've fallen for those! my parents have! i have!#i'm never ever mad at the marks or the people in real distress who are used as props/a cover story. literally what does that solve....#sorry i smoked a talkative strain and i'm eating a whole thing of tacos whilst yelling @ v/isa and m/astercard on the phone#im so sick of how everything is....... sorry chat
not awful but i feel as if this one needs a cut for certain members of the audience
#dis.txt#this is not intended 2 be depressing but funny because tonight i have won the gamble and am enjoying my meal#hashtag Raised By (Cultural) Alcoholics moment. specification there b/c this does apply 2 extended family. especially @ funerals#anyways happy i don't have to hit my bedroom pantry 2night yaaaay (<- has full mini-kitchen set in room ft. pots n pans n cans)
hold onnnnn i just realized because i don't live in an apartment anymore i could literally just. build a DDR pad. like i could do that. this is a house that isn't connected to apartments that would file noise complaints. *Wistful expression* i could build that....
#dis.txt#downside: working on electronics in hot damp sweaty fuck off weather#upside: DDR pad............ i literally still have the files and everything downloaded on one of my drives and the threads bookmarked#i'd probably have fun researching it again. and i did want to make a pr/otogen head at some point b4 i die anyways#fuck ittttt i should do my tech nerd shit for however long i got left lmao