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~i'm mentally ill, be warned~ ~16, male, he/ze/it~ ~go away femcel girlbloggers i'll block u~

~~intro post~~

welcome to my cesspool :3

this blog is a melting pot of the contents of my brain from the silly goofy to the depths of despair, you can expect basically an even split between vents, shit posts and anorexic rambling (always tagged tw ed) with sides of political rants and info dumping

i don’t rlly have other socials but moots can dm for my discord and my side blog where i post my art (im kinda neglecting it rn tho tbh) is @bl33d-w0rdz-cry-1nk

this user is…

balls deep in an ed but pro recovery unless it’s forced, an obsessed musician, plural, schizoaffective bipolar, autistic, physically disabled, scenemo punk and goth, always sleepy, a recovering addict, self proclaimed subhuman, retarded supergenius, a proud mistake and the faggot america

moots please tag

sh pics/descriptions (#tw sh), child sexual exploitation/abuse mentions (#tw csa, #tw csam, #tw csem), unreality (ie. “is this guy even real?” or “what if [thing] is actually just in your head”) (#tw unreality)

my girlfriend has been rlly distant lately (with everyone not just me) and i know that’s just what her brain does when she’s stressed and she still loves me and i love her too but honestly it does hurt when she doesn’t talk to me about things or doesn’t give me a kiss when she leaves rehearsal and i have been overthinking about it a lot :/

i’m 99% sure everything is fine but if she breaks up with me i am going to kill myself immediately without a second thought

the wonderland caterpillar is alices wonderplug and they hotbox wonderland with their wonderblunts and the whole story is a wonderdrug wonderhallucination except the caterpillar he is real

i’ve been in this light booth for far too long i am losing it

To people who are desperately asking for fundz/donations on tumblr.

USE THESE REDDIT SUBS INSTEAD PLEASE FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!!!!!!!

Hate Reddit if you want, but using these subs are your best chance. People gather in these subs because they have charity to spare:

I never see anyone actually getting any significant donations on tumblr and to be honest, tumblr is the worst place to ask for assistance. Use it as your last resort, it frustrates me to no end seeing people begging for help, reblogging the same post over and over, the same types of posts over and over, to no avail, when people are waiting to help you on a different part of the web  GO TO WHERE THE HELP IS. IF YOU WANT DIRECT ACTION TO WORK STOP WITH TUMBLR AND USE REDDIT.

PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF SATAN REBLOG THIS SO WE CAN START REDUCING THE AMOUNT OF DONATION POSTS THAT GET STUCK FLOATING AROUND THIS WEBSITE

can we talk about how transmasc and trans man are not the same things? many trans people identify as both, but you can be transmasc regardless of your gender identity. i often get referred to as a transmasc, not a trans man, and it sometimes feels like people are saying “we see the effort toward masculinity, but you aren’t a real dude, are you?”

Yes! Transmasc can even include nonbinary women/demigirls who are transitioning from female to a masculine direction, even if they aren't even going CLOSE to "man". Transmasc near-girls, I love you & I see you. Trans men who get called transmasc as a way to separate you from manhood, I love you. Transmasc people who are intersex & have a complicated relationship with sex, gender, & transitioning, I love you.

Punkorexic shit

- Making crafts out of all the diet soda and monster cans

- Aggressively supporting recovery, mental health, and harm-reduction movements

- NEVER making fun of others, no matter their weight. that's so not punk.

- DIYing clothes instead of eating/to pass the time while fasting

- Being horrible at keeping cal counters organized, same with any kind of Journal, it's just messy

- Getting steps in by walking around the city, scouting the perfect place to grafitti

- Burning a few extra cals by rocking out to your favourite bands

- Having to alter all your clothes and accessories as you lose weight

- Cigs and Vapes to curb cravings

- Your Red Bracelet is probably kandi or woven!

- Encouraging healthy body positivity in the younger gen. we can't let them be like us.

- Frequently carrying around a bag with water, salt, sugar and sweetener, and lowcal snacks for you and your rexie friends

- uhmmmm i couldn't think of anything else 🧍‍♂️ i just really like the term Punkorexic and will forever descibe myself that way

i feel like im the only one who just feels fucking sad about lottie this episode. shes a mentally ill unmedicated girl trapped in the wilderness trying to live up to the insane impossible expectations put on her by a bunch of scared teenagers. she's trapped in the throes of a twelve month long psychotic episode. she's scared, paranoid, and delusional. she's existing in a state of unreality exasperated by the fact that everyone around her is feeding into her delusions and encouraging them, because if they don't, what do they have ? there's no false hope, right ? only hope. and the only people giving her any pushback or trying to ground her are constantly attacked and ostracized for not prioritizing "the good of the group". and she just fucking killed someone. she's 18 and she killed someone.

Also please let’s discuss the Other Tai of it all, because this is important to me. She isn’t evil. It’s incredibly important to understand she isn’t evil. She’s hungry. She’s hungry for all the things that kept Taissa alive in the woods. She IS the thing that kept Taissa alive in the woods, in her own way. She was the very essence of nature. She was dirt and trees and need. What kept Tai alive out there? Food. Meat. Van. What does Other Tai naturally gravitate toward, trying to steer Taissa toward the things she needs? Food. Meat. Van. That political career? Theater. That family polished to a shine? Facade. What really matters, when everything else is shorn away? Food. Meat. Van. Base impulse. First loves and full bellies. She isn’t evil. She’s trying to keep Tai fed and alive, as she always has. It just comes at such a terrible cost.

"why is drug/alcohol/etc. treated like its normal and self harm isnt!" ok but its not addicts experience the exact same social exclusion as us, forced treatment, and psychiatric incarceration (as well as legal) as us. there are socially acceptable forms of alcohol and (sometimes) drug uses yeah but there is for self harm too.

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