sinked.

ohh,sangat down.

tolong? :(

no one can help me now.
i know only me can help myself in situation like diz.

feeling so low.
idk how low can my heart sink anymore.

i cant cry.
in d same tyme idk what i want.

i cant do anything.
i tried to study but nothing gets through my mind.
i just stared at d book hoping something will makes sense.
but,nothing happened.

i slept.
yes,i slept for 3 whole days.
hoping it will help my mood to recover.
no it didnt.

i dont feel like eating.
i dont feel like doing anything.
i dont feel like i am me anymore.

too tired?
got enough rest already i guess.

conflict of emotions?
idk.
i tried to push all those people away.
to avoid distractions.
but they seem reluctant to go away.

gawsh!
am feeling so choked up.
plz,stay away?
i need time for myself.
yes,i know i've been saying dat for how many times but dats d fact.
i need space.

plz God,i beg you.
make those feelings go away.
i cant let anyone near me & take my heart away.
i just cant trust anyone with my heart anymore.
just plz,plz,plz help me dz time.
i dont feel like i can love anyone with all my heart.
i wanted to but i refused to.

buck up belle.
just one more month.
yes,that's it.
just buck up.

mode: smiling with tears.

p/s: i dont care if u got a new gf.but just dont repeat d same mistake again.i swore to God i'll kill u.yes,i will.

depressed.

exhausted.

totally worn out.

meeting at KPDNKK Putrajaya for module making.

super crazy brainstorming session.

gawsh!

can you imagine all those directors,PTDs,executive managers and all sorts of people sit down with me and two other friends to discuss module for school and university students in order to improve Kelab Pengguna.

crazy aint it?

that's what i went through for two days.

super crazy.

i wish i'm a robot. :(

became worst when lecturers keep on changing dates of presentations and exam.

just bcz they mistakenly wrote d dates in their planner.

ohh,i'm going crazy.

thank God i have such hyper friends.

we are the think-tanks.

we discussed all sorts of things when we're together after class.

my study babes.

super exhausted.

super tired.

super moody.

mode: bucking up.

p/s: why dont u love me,the way i love you?

tooth fairy.

 this time i've been tagged by amy :)

nama contest adalah "senyum tak nampak gigi" ;D

contest berasal dari blog http://muazatuladawiyyah.blogspot.com/

xtau la nak kira senyum ke tak cz kat lappy xbyk pic.

mostly dh selamat burned dlm dvd.

and some of it tak dapat diselamatkan masa lappy format itself on its own.

nk tag :
suhana 
asmalina
jenna
azzah
lala

comel.

tagged by my schoolmate for 5 years and roommate at UiTM SA-Suhana.
baru ada masa untuk wat benda2 ni ea.. :)
btw,thanx for tagging.
hehe

nama contest ni 'Comelnya Berbaju Kurung'..
created by Siti Khadijah..

Kenapa perempuan pakai baju kurung tu comel?

as for me,baju kurung is the most simplest yet nice & modest way to look gorgeous.

comel in baju kurung for me is bcz girls will look extra-ladylike.

you can be sexy too wearing baju kurung if the material's like laces or something.

baju kurung is one way of showing ur a lady :)

eid 2009

at brother's wedding (feb2010)

convocation day (aug2010)

i have a lot of baju kurung.

now,some of it has been donated.

yeah,why waste?

we should give em to those who're in need. :)

Pendapat ada tentang baju kurung?

1.can be use as one way to dress appropriately when it comes to a formal event.

2. so many colors and different kinds of materials.

3. you will look super gorgeous.(even my guy friends admit it)

4. tak nampak gemok. :)

saya nak tag:

-faizadatul akma

-wafiyyah

-husna

-amyllia

-ain raus

-mardhiah

-lala

thank you.

‎"pack your stuff n kindly walk out of my life.thank you"

x.

karma suddenly makes sense.

totally.

now lets sit back and enjoy the show.


mode: disgusted.

p/s: am happy.and i dont need you.

kasih.

Malam ini kasih teringat aku pada mu

Seakan kau hadir di sisi menemani ku

Ku yakin kan diri agar tiada sepi

Ku lewat kau hadir di dalam mimipi ku

Seandainya mungkin ku mampu terbang ke awan

Detik ini juga ku akan melayang ke sana

Kan ku bawa pulang

Dirimu yang selalu ku sayang

Bersama berdua kita bahagia

Kasih dengarlah hatiku berkata

Aku cinta kepada dirimu sayang

Kasih percayalah kepada diriku

Hidup matiku hanya untuk mu.

off.

too many things to handle and need to be done.
i'll be here back when something happen in my precious happy single life.

Schedule:
12 Feb- Asian Crisis presentation
17 Feb- Asia Pacific Security: UNCLOS & Malacca Straits Issue presentation
23 Feb- Globalization & Security Issues exam
1 Mac- Urban poverty: A Malaysia's Security Issue presentation
9 Mac- Globalization & Security Issues: Central Asia presentation
12-13 Mac- PTD PAC,INTAN

mode: fever.again.

p/s: playing hard to get is not easy.

crossed.

mode: wishing.

p/s: work on it baybee.. :)

loved.

my fav watches besides that purple roxy's & white adidas's.

who can buy dz for me?

btw,it's around 500RM.

my super comfy bed n pillows n fat teddy always keep me accompanied when i'm studying.

love u much2! xoxo

i love dz photo cz i look thin. ;D

super talkative bestie-ainie.

dat drink was named IMY by Noodle Station.

it's passionfruit+lemon+soda drink.

and d foods there doesnt suits me well.

i throw up all of it when i went back home. :(

idk why i love to sit on elevators.

ohh,dz super delicious grilled steak gave me headache for two days.

yes i know i have such a fat ass.

d day my hair turns blonde.

i have been super lazy last weekend.

yes,i did went to Midvalley alone.

spent about 300RM and i'm super happy.

nowadays is univ's midsem break.

but am still in bangi.

gone crazy with all dz books n articles.

super hate my puffy eyes ryte now :(

idk why am super sensitive lately.

gawsh!

to you-know-who-you-are,am really sorry.

sorry to make you deal with my crankyness.

sorry to make you worry bout me in d middle of d nyte.

sorry to scream at you n off my hp just to get rid of u when in fact am d one who's having conflict of emotions.

sorry.

truly am.

am fat ryte now.

i cant accept d fact dat my ass is getting bigger.

blame d rain!

i didnt go for jogging for nearly 3days.

sigh~

what else to say?

i really really wanted to say dz.

i heart you.

seriously i do.

til then,toodles~

mode: loved. :)

p/s: hey,thanx for taking care of me.sorry for being such a mess.