an excerpt from a conversation via YM wif my best friend.
michael_mcfry: what baout u?
michael_mcfry: how's ur life?
michael_mcfry: somehting u need to tell me
jason_roag : ok...juz worried about wat kinda grad i'd be in the
near future..haha
michael_mcfry: haha
michael_mcfry: me too
michael_mcfry: but then....
michael_mcfry: jsut go through it
jason_roag : haha...ur results way better than mine lar
michael_mcfry: i belive if GOd brought u to MMU...He has a reason for it
michael_mcfry: not much diff la
michael_mcfry: my boat is sinking deep too
michael_mcfry: not oroud of it
jason_roag : i;m gonna mati katak edi
michael_mcfry: dun confess it la
michael_mcfry: even if the grades dun tally, i believe we have a reason why we are wehre we are
michael_mcfry: jsut be faithful and complete it
michael_mcfry: we;ll know in the end
michael_mcfry: cheer up alrite
michael_mcfry: it;s not too dreary
michael_mcfry: and great experiences and moments
michael_mcfry: dun let some crappy pathetic results discolor your uni life
michael_mcfry: results are jsut a part of uni life
michael_mcfry: not the whole thigns
michael_mcfry: i;m trying to enjoy uni life...withtou thinking much abotu teh results
michael_mcfry: too hard la
michael_mcfry: u've got great freinds in MMU to live with
i think wee liem has a point there...
Monday, December 20, 2004
Hectic 2 weeks and about NOC 3
Today is the first day of class...was quite ok..business as usual...
It has been a pretty busy two weeks after the PS conference. NOC 3: A Time to Love is on the 6th of Jan 2005, with a budget of rm 8000. We had some fundraising assignments throughout the week.
We painted Bethel Church in a span of two days and averaging about 13 workers a day from morning till evening...those who sacrificed their time to come back to melaka to help out...george, joel, jonathan, grace, sam yau, deric, edmund, belle...as well as the melakan ppl me, justin, seong, wei and vj. I painted my entire room before, so i kinda knew that it was gonna be really tiring. Bethel gave rewarded us with a good hospitality, lunch, tea break and the funds we needed...at the end of the Wednesday and Thursday project, we were all drained out...
We also went to New Life church to minister and expose the people about NOC, sold our T-shirts and OSTs...we had pretty good feedback frm them.
i think it benefited us that we actually met the churches and the met us...it kinda strengthened whatever rapport we had with them.
The following week was filled with practises for the big day with a majority of the cast and crew back for the one week intensive training. This year, my band PG165 with an additional guest keybordist and pianist are playing live for this year's musical play...so we have been rather busy with this assignment. We practised everyday from the 13 of Dec till now. In fact, there will be rehearsals scheduled till 6th Jan...it has been fun practising although tiring and stressfull at times...it was nice to see rebecca and wee liem down for a few days...
Overall, the anticipation is beginning to build up for NOC 3. I'm personally getting excited about it. I believe that it's gonna be a success and that the message of Christmas will be resonating this year through our third installment of NOC. This years musical play will feature new stuff, more songs, more dances and choreographed stuff that you must see...
Everyone's invited to it. It will be held at MMU Main Hall on the 6th Jan 2005 at 7.30 pm.... Admission is free.
A Night of Celebration: A Musical Presentation: A Time to Love
It has been a pretty busy two weeks after the PS conference. NOC 3: A Time to Love is on the 6th of Jan 2005, with a budget of rm 8000. We had some fundraising assignments throughout the week.
We painted Bethel Church in a span of two days and averaging about 13 workers a day from morning till evening...those who sacrificed their time to come back to melaka to help out...george, joel, jonathan, grace, sam yau, deric, edmund, belle...as well as the melakan ppl me, justin, seong, wei and vj. I painted my entire room before, so i kinda knew that it was gonna be really tiring. Bethel gave rewarded us with a good hospitality, lunch, tea break and the funds we needed...at the end of the Wednesday and Thursday project, we were all drained out...
We also went to New Life church to minister and expose the people about NOC, sold our T-shirts and OSTs...we had pretty good feedback frm them.
i think it benefited us that we actually met the churches and the met us...it kinda strengthened whatever rapport we had with them.
The following week was filled with practises for the big day with a majority of the cast and crew back for the one week intensive training. This year, my band PG165 with an additional guest keybordist and pianist are playing live for this year's musical play...so we have been rather busy with this assignment. We practised everyday from the 13 of Dec till now. In fact, there will be rehearsals scheduled till 6th Jan...it has been fun practising although tiring and stressfull at times...it was nice to see rebecca and wee liem down for a few days...
Overall, the anticipation is beginning to build up for NOC 3. I'm personally getting excited about it. I believe that it's gonna be a success and that the message of Christmas will be resonating this year through our third installment of NOC. This years musical play will feature new stuff, more songs, more dances and choreographed stuff that you must see...
Everyone's invited to it. It will be held at MMU Main Hall on the 6th Jan 2005 at 7.30 pm.... Admission is free.
A Night of Celebration: A Musical Presentation: A Time to Love
Monday, December 06, 2004
It’s been a long time since I blogged, so I’m finding it rather difficult to pen down my thoughts and my feelings that are simmering through me now.
I just got back from the recent Planet Shakers conference that was held at the Sunway Piramid Convention Centre from the 1st – 3rd Dec. It was a different experience for me because I was there as a volunteer along with Vijay, Raj, Seong, Mark, Deric, Win Nee, Samuel Ng, Grace Goh and Raymond as Security Personnel. Raj was security chief. I was assigned under VJ along with Seong to secure the backstage throughout the conference. That meant we had the opportunity to witness the band from up close…closer than many others. Our job was to restrict people from accessing the stage and from getting too close to the VIPs. Now isn’t that cool…
A Security Personnel
The day before, I drove deric, mark and seong up to Puchong where we lodged at Grace’s house. On the first day of the conference, we had to be there at 10 to attend a briefing for volunteers, get our Tags and CREW T-shirts. The registration only begun at 3pm so we kinda had ample time to ease around. Half of the security personnel were from Sabah, so we were working with them closely. I wasted no time to get around the stage and watch the Audio/Visual people set up their equipment. I have never seen such complicated wiring. The PA was huge…they hung gigantic speakers from the ceiling and 8 woofers for bass frequencies(4 on each side).
Mike Webber
Vj and I were juz observing when the drummer Mike Webber came in to set up his Yamaha drums which they borrowed frm Planet Shakers City Church in KL. For me and Vj, it was an experience I will remember…there he was, the drummer that every youth drummer in Malaysia wanted to emulate…setting up his gear. Much to Vj’s delight, he was using the same Iron Cobra peddle as he was…hahaa.. Now I know that Mike is sponsored by Yamaha drums and Sabian cymbals…he threw away his old snare skin and vj picked it up and kept it for himself…and had it autographed later…we were all waiting for him to play something…some sort of anticipation for us musicians…we striked up some conversation with him…evidently the equiptment they were using is world class. Mike was the earliest. Of course we all were waiting to catch a glimpse of Henry Seeley.
A couple of hours later, the rest of the band showed up. Of course seeing them in person was a larger than life experience. Henry plays Fender guitars. They were rehearsing for the concert later that night. By then it was around 5-6 something and the crowd was growing outside.
Face to face with Henry Seeley
Then it happened around 7.30…something that I will remember. The band left the stage via a back entrance. I was hanging around there and watched them leave…juz sitting there chilling. Suddenly a pastor came up to me and asked. ‘Security ?’..and I said, ‘yeah’….and he said, ‘can you please escort Henry Seeley to the VIP lounge’ and there I was face to face with Henry…Creative Director for Planet Shakers and song writer whose vocals crooning in every CD that has been produced by PShakers since 2000…I was liked…’hi henry…’ and he said…’hey. Hi…what’s your name?’
I was thrilled but I only one problem….where the heck was the VIP lounge…man…I was so embarrassed…so I led Henry as far as the registration counter and I had to seek directions…The crowd was everywhere but I don’t think they saw Henry. After getting Henry to the VIP room, I was kinda down coz I didn’t know the directions…but it was a learning experience…
Speakers.
We had Russel Evans, his wife Sam Evans, Matt Fielder, Neil Smith, Mike Guglielmucci all of them pastors as speakers for the sessions. I think for me, it was has been a long time since I sat and listened to people so passionate about Youth Ministry and about God. At the moment my church back home is undergoing a transition period and the youth department is in the ‘waiting’ period…and I haven’t been there for some months. So to sit and see pastors so passionate about winning the souls of the youth was very….i needed to hear that and listen and ponder about how passionate I am about my generation…and what can I do to be in there…during one of the sessions, we had an altar call and we had to body catch hundreds of people…and it was something I never experienced before. youth in Malaysia are the next generation and we must invest in them. (we had 860 daytime delegates)
Workshop
I attended the worship workshop by Henry. Through out the entire conference, I could feel God’s presence throughout the concerts and sessions. So I have to say that the band has earned my respect in this area, that their focus is not on them, but in worshiping God and they said many times that it wasn’t about the band or the music. I was kinda ticked when some ppl commented that they saw better musicians than them…coz they missed the point. During the Q/A session, someone asked Henry’s opinion about rock music and some leaders said UNITED LIVE were bad and were gloiyfing themselves. It kinda ticked Henry off coz he knew the Hillsongs ppl personally and testified seeing God’s presence in their meetings. Mike Webber prayed for them and the leaders of their church (the guys who asked the question). I liked the way Henry always emphasized on the importance of relationship among band members…how they got involved in each others lives. How it was more important to strike up a conversation than plugging in a microphone. I agree with him that it’s important to seal that relationship among band mates so there’s no sense of offending anyone during sessions coz they were so close to each other…I liked how Mike webber said,’ I don’t play drums…I worship God…it’s my part to play in the band to usher in His presence’ ...and this is coming frm someone who has the skill and experience and the technicality that most of us haven't attained yet.(check out his bio at the website)
Concerts and the BAND
Obviously the highlight of the conference were the nightly concerts that were open to the public. On the first night we had about close to 1800 people. And on the 2nd night about 2300. On the last night the hall hall was jam packed with about 3300 people. The band played some old songs like Reflector, Open Up The Gates and I See Heaven. They did play solos and did the classic ‘Enemy’s Camp’…most of their songs were from their latest album, ‘All That I Want’ which I think will be hitting the stores soon…I bought it and had it autographed.
>(THIS IS MIKE WEBBER) I really like the album, and I think it’s an improvement to the previous ‘My King’. The album is the live recording of this year’s Planet Shakers in 2004. To listen to them via album is one thing. To hear them live is a different experience…all the energy and the passion let loose in abandon in worshiping God…with people swarming to the stage and jumping. What you hear is what you get…with almost the full band there…Like I said I could feel God’s presence and anointing throughout the concerts and sessions. As I was guarding the stage, I could see the huge crowd with their hands lifted high in reverence and worship. I knew that God was moving and speaking to his people. There may be many Christian bands out there, but not many who can really minister in worship excellently. The band were passionate about worship and it showed and flowed out into the crowd. for more of the band...visit: www.planetshakers.com.my
The Band:
Henry Seeley (Worship leader and guitars)
Sam Evans (Worship leader)
Mike Webber (drums)
Mike Guglielmucci (bass)
Matt (guitar and vocals)
Mike ‘Rudy’ Nickkerud (keyboards, vocals and bass)
Alex Seeley (henry’s wife) (vocals)
Home
Personally, I did not manage to get into all the sessions because I was preoccupied as a security volunteer and it consumed a lot of energy. But I know one thing, that God’s presence was there. And I am challenged to make a difference with my life. To be radical in my following of Jesus. As I sit here and struggle with issues in my life…I know that God requires us to live and believe in His plans for us. Me and Tze Seong agree on one thing…’the real deal isn’t in the conference, nor is it the PS band… it’s when we’re back home in Melaka and when the rubber meets the road…how do we live our lives’. Right now I’m thinking…how can I serve God through PG165? If one person can impact a generation, how can I be that person.
p/s hope i can upload some photos when i get it. for more info on Planet Shakers in Malaysia and the band that came...visit : www.planetshakers.com.my
I just got back from the recent Planet Shakers conference that was held at the Sunway Piramid Convention Centre from the 1st – 3rd Dec. It was a different experience for me because I was there as a volunteer along with Vijay, Raj, Seong, Mark, Deric, Win Nee, Samuel Ng, Grace Goh and Raymond as Security Personnel. Raj was security chief. I was assigned under VJ along with Seong to secure the backstage throughout the conference. That meant we had the opportunity to witness the band from up close…closer than many others. Our job was to restrict people from accessing the stage and from getting too close to the VIPs. Now isn’t that cool…
A Security Personnel
The day before, I drove deric, mark and seong up to Puchong where we lodged at Grace’s house. On the first day of the conference, we had to be there at 10 to attend a briefing for volunteers, get our Tags and CREW T-shirts. The registration only begun at 3pm so we kinda had ample time to ease around. Half of the security personnel were from Sabah, so we were working with them closely. I wasted no time to get around the stage and watch the Audio/Visual people set up their equipment. I have never seen such complicated wiring. The PA was huge…they hung gigantic speakers from the ceiling and 8 woofers for bass frequencies(4 on each side).
Mike Webber
Vj and I were juz observing when the drummer Mike Webber came in to set up his Yamaha drums which they borrowed frm Planet Shakers City Church in KL. For me and Vj, it was an experience I will remember…there he was, the drummer that every youth drummer in Malaysia wanted to emulate…setting up his gear. Much to Vj’s delight, he was using the same Iron Cobra peddle as he was…hahaa.. Now I know that Mike is sponsored by Yamaha drums and Sabian cymbals…he threw away his old snare skin and vj picked it up and kept it for himself…and had it autographed later…we were all waiting for him to play something…some sort of anticipation for us musicians…we striked up some conversation with him…evidently the equiptment they were using is world class. Mike was the earliest. Of course we all were waiting to catch a glimpse of Henry Seeley.
A couple of hours later, the rest of the band showed up. Of course seeing them in person was a larger than life experience. Henry plays Fender guitars. They were rehearsing for the concert later that night. By then it was around 5-6 something and the crowd was growing outside.
Face to face with Henry Seeley
Then it happened around 7.30…something that I will remember. The band left the stage via a back entrance. I was hanging around there and watched them leave…juz sitting there chilling. Suddenly a pastor came up to me and asked. ‘Security ?’..and I said, ‘yeah’….and he said, ‘can you please escort Henry Seeley to the VIP lounge’ and there I was face to face with Henry…Creative Director for Planet Shakers and song writer whose vocals crooning in every CD that has been produced by PShakers since 2000…I was liked…’hi henry…’ and he said…’hey. Hi…what’s your name?’
I was thrilled but I only one problem….where the heck was the VIP lounge…man…I was so embarrassed…so I led Henry as far as the registration counter and I had to seek directions…The crowd was everywhere but I don’t think they saw Henry. After getting Henry to the VIP room, I was kinda down coz I didn’t know the directions…but it was a learning experience…
Speakers.
We had Russel Evans, his wife Sam Evans, Matt Fielder, Neil Smith, Mike Guglielmucci all of them pastors as speakers for the sessions. I think for me, it was has been a long time since I sat and listened to people so passionate about Youth Ministry and about God. At the moment my church back home is undergoing a transition period and the youth department is in the ‘waiting’ period…and I haven’t been there for some months. So to sit and see pastors so passionate about winning the souls of the youth was very….i needed to hear that and listen and ponder about how passionate I am about my generation…and what can I do to be in there…during one of the sessions, we had an altar call and we had to body catch hundreds of people…and it was something I never experienced before. youth in Malaysia are the next generation and we must invest in them. (we had 860 daytime delegates)
Workshop
I attended the worship workshop by Henry. Through out the entire conference, I could feel God’s presence throughout the concerts and sessions. So I have to say that the band has earned my respect in this area, that their focus is not on them, but in worshiping God and they said many times that it wasn’t about the band or the music. I was kinda ticked when some ppl commented that they saw better musicians than them…coz they missed the point. During the Q/A session, someone asked Henry’s opinion about rock music and some leaders said UNITED LIVE were bad and were gloiyfing themselves. It kinda ticked Henry off coz he knew the Hillsongs ppl personally and testified seeing God’s presence in their meetings. Mike Webber prayed for them and the leaders of their church (the guys who asked the question). I liked the way Henry always emphasized on the importance of relationship among band members…how they got involved in each others lives. How it was more important to strike up a conversation than plugging in a microphone. I agree with him that it’s important to seal that relationship among band mates so there’s no sense of offending anyone during sessions coz they were so close to each other…I liked how Mike webber said,’ I don’t play drums…I worship God…it’s my part to play in the band to usher in His presence’ ...and this is coming frm someone who has the skill and experience and the technicality that most of us haven't attained yet.(check out his bio at the website)
Concerts and the BAND
Obviously the highlight of the conference were the nightly concerts that were open to the public. On the first night we had about close to 1800 people. And on the 2nd night about 2300. On the last night the hall hall was jam packed with about 3300 people. The band played some old songs like Reflector, Open Up The Gates and I See Heaven. They did play solos and did the classic ‘Enemy’s Camp’…most of their songs were from their latest album, ‘All That I Want’ which I think will be hitting the stores soon…I bought it and had it autographed.
>(THIS IS MIKE WEBBER) I really like the album, and I think it’s an improvement to the previous ‘My King’. The album is the live recording of this year’s Planet Shakers in 2004. To listen to them via album is one thing. To hear them live is a different experience…all the energy and the passion let loose in abandon in worshiping God…with people swarming to the stage and jumping. What you hear is what you get…with almost the full band there…Like I said I could feel God’s presence and anointing throughout the concerts and sessions. As I was guarding the stage, I could see the huge crowd with their hands lifted high in reverence and worship. I knew that God was moving and speaking to his people. There may be many Christian bands out there, but not many who can really minister in worship excellently. The band were passionate about worship and it showed and flowed out into the crowd. for more of the band...visit: www.planetshakers.com.my
The Band:
Henry Seeley (Worship leader and guitars)
Sam Evans (Worship leader)
Mike Webber (drums)
Mike Guglielmucci (bass)
Matt (guitar and vocals)
Mike ‘Rudy’ Nickkerud (keyboards, vocals and bass)
Alex Seeley (henry’s wife) (vocals)
Home
Personally, I did not manage to get into all the sessions because I was preoccupied as a security volunteer and it consumed a lot of energy. But I know one thing, that God’s presence was there. And I am challenged to make a difference with my life. To be radical in my following of Jesus. As I sit here and struggle with issues in my life…I know that God requires us to live and believe in His plans for us. Me and Tze Seong agree on one thing…’the real deal isn’t in the conference, nor is it the PS band… it’s when we’re back home in Melaka and when the rubber meets the road…how do we live our lives’. Right now I’m thinking…how can I serve God through PG165? If one person can impact a generation, how can I be that person.
p/s hope i can upload some photos when i get it. for more info on Planet Shakers in Malaysia and the band that came...visit : www.planetshakers.com.my
Monday, November 15, 2004
The Past Week
It has been quite a relaxing week the past seven days. We had our last CF meeting for the sem. You know what? Time really flies during the second semester. I wished time could slow down a little....just a little so that i can savour it...
E-Lite On Combo SOHC-5232K [CDR/RW] & Deric
It's slightly more than a week since I bought my Lite-On Combo Drive. I must be the last person in my circle of friends to finally own my own Burner. The Combo Drive consists of a DVD Rom and CDR writter. I just wanted to take some time here to thank Deric. He took time off to follow me to STYGIGS (the place to get the cheapest stuff in Melaka) on a rainy evening to get the burner..and tested the thing for me eventhough he had a paper the next day..a few weeks before that, he also helped me diagonze that my power supply had exploded....thanks man. Now i don't have to trouble my friends when i need something on a disc.
deric and me....outside the YAC juz chilling...
SHARK TALES VS THE INCREDIBLES
The gang travelled to Klang on Thursday to attend Kamini's open house. Vijay apparently wanted to fast dinner and breakfast to gear himself up for the makan marathon.
Last year, when the leaves were greener, I made the same trip to Klang with the gang. We went to Sunway Lagoon and shook Dr Mathathir's hand in Bintang Walk before he retired. Couldn't go/ Did not want to go this year...due to a variety of reasons...reasons that i keep to myself.....This week is suppose to be STUDY WEEK...but with Deepavali and all, the mood just wasn't there..since i couldn't join the gang to KLANG to feast on Kamini's delicacies, I made a trip to GSC Melaka to catch these two movies. My verdict...I enjoyed The Incredibles more....Shark Tales juz didn't click somehow...wasn't as funny as i thought it would be. Watch The Incredibles.
BIRTHDAYs
I went to a friend's 21'st Birthday yesterday(Sat). I realized that this year is a special year for me because all my classmates and friends will be or have turned 21. As in finally reaching the age of being a legal adult...you can vote and go watch Simple Plan in KL (the Club they're playing is admissible to 21 and above) I didn't really wish most of them since i lost contact somehow. Anyway, I'm bad at remembering birthdays...hehehe. horrible me.
But anyways I've been invited to another party on the 27th this month...somehow...u need to spend on presents right,....sighs....
One more week to exams...i am telling myself...to study...STUDY. STUDY!!!!!
and check this out library will be closed till Tuesday...and when it opens...will open from 9am - 5pm...i think...
Everyone seems to be giving their blogs face lifts nowadays...somehow i don't feel pressured to follow suite.
After reading one of my posts, my dad asked me if i was a pessimistic person or an optimistic person...I guess i was kinda optimistic before this...but recent circrumstances has challenged me...greatly
maybe it's time for the annual Sunway Lagoon trip again.
E-Lite On Combo SOHC-5232K [CDR/RW] & Deric
It's slightly more than a week since I bought my Lite-On Combo Drive. I must be the last person in my circle of friends to finally own my own Burner. The Combo Drive consists of a DVD Rom and CDR writter. I just wanted to take some time here to thank Deric. He took time off to follow me to STYGIGS (the place to get the cheapest stuff in Melaka) on a rainy evening to get the burner..and tested the thing for me eventhough he had a paper the next day..a few weeks before that, he also helped me diagonze that my power supply had exploded....thanks man. Now i don't have to trouble my friends when i need something on a disc.
deric and me....outside the YAC juz chilling...
SHARK TALES VS THE INCREDIBLES
The gang travelled to Klang on Thursday to attend Kamini's open house. Vijay apparently wanted to fast dinner and breakfast to gear himself up for the makan marathon.
Last year, when the leaves were greener, I made the same trip to Klang with the gang. We went to Sunway Lagoon and shook Dr Mathathir's hand in Bintang Walk before he retired. Couldn't go/ Did not want to go this year...due to a variety of reasons...reasons that i keep to myself.....This week is suppose to be STUDY WEEK...but with Deepavali and all, the mood just wasn't there..since i couldn't join the gang to KLANG to feast on Kamini's delicacies, I made a trip to GSC Melaka to catch these two movies. My verdict...I enjoyed The Incredibles more....Shark Tales juz didn't click somehow...wasn't as funny as i thought it would be. Watch The Incredibles.
BIRTHDAYs
I went to a friend's 21'st Birthday yesterday(Sat). I realized that this year is a special year for me because all my classmates and friends will be or have turned 21. As in finally reaching the age of being a legal adult...you can vote and go watch Simple Plan in KL (the Club they're playing is admissible to 21 and above) I didn't really wish most of them since i lost contact somehow. Anyway, I'm bad at remembering birthdays...hehehe. horrible me.
But anyways I've been invited to another party on the 27th this month...somehow...u need to spend on presents right,....sighs....
One more week to exams...i am telling myself...to study...STUDY. STUDY!!!!!
and check this out library will be closed till Tuesday...and when it opens...will open from 9am - 5pm...i think...
Everyone seems to be giving their blogs face lifts nowadays...somehow i don't feel pressured to follow suite.
After reading one of my posts, my dad asked me if i was a pessimistic person or an optimistic person...I guess i was kinda optimistic before this...but recent circrumstances has challenged me...greatly
maybe it's time for the annual Sunway Lagoon trip again.
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Some snapshots of the past weeks...
This is just a prank ok....nothing like a little something to stir some controversy...hehehe
A photo of the mission trip that i made to Gunung Ledang with the CF outreach team...
Nothing like being there yourself...
Playing my guitar here...it was an experience to see hear them sing and praise God..
The kids in the tree...
Me and Louis..smile...
Isolated,,,and secluded...
It's one of those periods that i am going through that i just induces silence...not much of a mind to blog this past few weeks...
One of the reasons is because i have not been online for much of the time.
I just finished a couple of papers in the past two weeks. Somewhere between then, all engineering students were required to see their academic advisor...as in it's compulsory. I had always shyed away from my not so spectacular results...sometimes even refusing to coming to terms with it... but this time i had no choice because the advisor wants to know our results.
Coincidentally, the results just came in the mail on the day i wanted to see him. I think it got me thinking...how messed up i am in this area... i kinda wished i had felt this earlier..as in last year or somethin like that..so that at least i could have worked doubly harder...in fact last academic year was the worst year for me...mark that down...GAmma.....HoRrible...
So the past few days...I have just been secluding myself...isolating myself in a way...feeling depressed. It didn't help when my friends were talking about their CGPA at NOC 3 music prac and in other meetings. It's that feeling of failure...it scares me...
I kinda wake up in the morning...don't really like what i see in the mirror...and the day just carries on like that...so i have been keeping to myself.
Go to church,,,and leave as early as possible...avoiding contact with anybody.
Have also been feeling far away and wayward from GOD...it really doesn't make a good combination...
Further more...i am experiencing a time where i am spending more than i am depositing...it has been pretty depressing..sigh...repaired my car, my PC, went to Cyberjaya...petrol...all the money sapping stuff...sigh..have been wanting to buy myself a combo drive...sigh
On the other side of things...PG 165 are playing for this years NOC 3: A Time To Love. It doesn't look easy as last year's NOC band had already set the standard of some clean and good playing...sigh..NOC 3 has been picking up in pace..and enthusiasm...
Besides, we have also been plannin other playing oppurtunities after this NOC assignment. Praying...hoping...asking...exciting...
Please keep me in prayer when you see me...coz i am going through some kinda anxious turmoil about the future and the responsibilities that rest on me..
One of the reasons is because i have not been online for much of the time.
I just finished a couple of papers in the past two weeks. Somewhere between then, all engineering students were required to see their academic advisor...as in it's compulsory. I had always shyed away from my not so spectacular results...sometimes even refusing to coming to terms with it... but this time i had no choice because the advisor wants to know our results.
Coincidentally, the results just came in the mail on the day i wanted to see him. I think it got me thinking...how messed up i am in this area... i kinda wished i had felt this earlier..as in last year or somethin like that..so that at least i could have worked doubly harder...in fact last academic year was the worst year for me...mark that down...GAmma.....HoRrible...
So the past few days...I have just been secluding myself...isolating myself in a way...feeling depressed. It didn't help when my friends were talking about their CGPA at NOC 3 music prac and in other meetings. It's that feeling of failure...it scares me...
I kinda wake up in the morning...don't really like what i see in the mirror...and the day just carries on like that...so i have been keeping to myself.
Go to church,,,and leave as early as possible...avoiding contact with anybody.
Have also been feeling far away and wayward from GOD...it really doesn't make a good combination...
Further more...i am experiencing a time where i am spending more than i am depositing...it has been pretty depressing..sigh...repaired my car, my PC, went to Cyberjaya...petrol...all the money sapping stuff...sigh..have been wanting to buy myself a combo drive...sigh
On the other side of things...PG 165 are playing for this years NOC 3: A Time To Love. It doesn't look easy as last year's NOC band had already set the standard of some clean and good playing...sigh..NOC 3 has been picking up in pace..and enthusiasm...
Besides, we have also been plannin other playing oppurtunities after this NOC assignment. Praying...hoping...asking...exciting...
Please keep me in prayer when you see me...coz i am going through some kinda anxious turmoil about the future and the responsibilities that rest on me..
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
NOC 2 Post Production and MISSION TRIP
It has been more than two weeks since i blogged...it seems like a very long time...well, i guess it is.
Life is slowly getting back to normal...finally got to accomplish what i wanted to accomplish all this while...to complete the NOC 2: Whispers of Hope post production. This project had been weighing heavily on my mind for the past few months..me trying my best to pull everything together, salvaging whatever that was messed up, repairing it and restrategizing.
Basically the entire post production encountered many hiccups. The main one being the VCD being delayed because it was sent all the way to Kota Kinabalu(our camera man's home town...has a cousin there who does this stuff) for production without my prior knowledge...the delay was enought to test my patience. And when i finally got the end product through a third party...i was told that there was no ending. Only my close circle of friends could roughly fanthom the deep disappointment that smouldered within my spirit...i remember storming out of the house. Being unable to market the VCD...we decided to shift our focus to the sound track(OST) that was recorded live on that night. This was a calculated risk and i took counsel with sam, justin and deric. Once agreed upon, we had to alter the cover designs and recalculate the cost. Before this we had already found our quotations for the VCD packaging.
The printing took about one week plus to complete and i made a hasty one day trip last friday to cyber to claim the goods. I also took great pains to explaining to the CF what was happening, and what was going on, and how i was disappointed and hope they would forgive me for all the blunders. Alas, the waiting has finally paid off and i am rather satisfied with what we could offer...although not perfect. It's a momento for all those involved in it, to stir up memories of their experience. It's also the perfect launch for NOC 3: A Time To Love which will take place in a few months time headed by NOC 3 production team.
The VCD=rm4; OST=rm7; package deal(VCD+OST)=rm10
all proceeds will go to NOC 3 production.
p/s Samuel Koh (a 16 year old friend/church mate who won the competition for designing Hillsong album cover two years in a row) did our cover.
Samuel Soon and Raj's company printed it and did some sponsoring.
With that done, I also had a busy weekend leading a team to Kg Jus and Gunung Ledang as part of our Outreach program. We made a two day trip to this orang asli settlement. It was a stretching point for me as i had so much to do before this and going to cyber etc...the best thing about this was the majority of Alphas that took the challenge to go. They were Belle, Louis, Lucious, Julian, Joel, Renee, Solomon, and me. only Soly and me were the oldies. Pastor Joanne, Edmund and Dayze came on Saturday and left in the evening. I must say that we did not have the luxury of time to prepare...and i left a lot of matters to my assistant,Belle.
However I am very proud of them in a sense that they showed so much maturity and discipline. Even though a lot of thing happen...like the twins house in Penang was robbed and some had personal problems here and there...they preserved and pressed on. The trip wasn't easy because we had no idea of what we could do since this wasn't an ordinaty misson trip. but the team took time to plan and carry them out. It was very touching to see their interaction with the orang Asli children. I believe that they really showed their heart and that was more important to me than their talent. I am so proud of this group of juniors.
I learned that pioneering work is not easy. We had to drive into the interior...my poor iswara took a beating travelling up terrain that was meant for big four wheelers. It wasn't easy to journey to unreached parts to share the Gospel. Imagine what Pastor Joseph and the other elders had to travel and face while preaching the Gospel. for pictures...visit Renee's blog
Now it's back to live...preparing for an exam which is tmrw. my PC is in the shop since yesterday...so I can't upload pictures and stuff. I gave my car a through wash and polish.
haha...ok, my last entry was a biit emo...but i guess we all experience that.
Life is slowly getting back to normal...finally got to accomplish what i wanted to accomplish all this while...to complete the NOC 2: Whispers of Hope post production. This project had been weighing heavily on my mind for the past few months..me trying my best to pull everything together, salvaging whatever that was messed up, repairing it and restrategizing.
Basically the entire post production encountered many hiccups. The main one being the VCD being delayed because it was sent all the way to Kota Kinabalu(our camera man's home town...has a cousin there who does this stuff) for production without my prior knowledge...the delay was enought to test my patience. And when i finally got the end product through a third party...i was told that there was no ending. Only my close circle of friends could roughly fanthom the deep disappointment that smouldered within my spirit...i remember storming out of the house. Being unable to market the VCD...we decided to shift our focus to the sound track(OST) that was recorded live on that night. This was a calculated risk and i took counsel with sam, justin and deric. Once agreed upon, we had to alter the cover designs and recalculate the cost. Before this we had already found our quotations for the VCD packaging.
The printing took about one week plus to complete and i made a hasty one day trip last friday to cyber to claim the goods. I also took great pains to explaining to the CF what was happening, and what was going on, and how i was disappointed and hope they would forgive me for all the blunders. Alas, the waiting has finally paid off and i am rather satisfied with what we could offer...although not perfect. It's a momento for all those involved in it, to stir up memories of their experience. It's also the perfect launch for NOC 3: A Time To Love which will take place in a few months time headed by NOC 3 production team.
The VCD=rm4; OST=rm7; package deal(VCD+OST)=rm10
all proceeds will go to NOC 3 production.
p/s Samuel Koh (a 16 year old friend/church mate who won the competition for designing Hillsong album cover two years in a row) did our cover.
Samuel Soon and Raj's company printed it and did some sponsoring.
With that done, I also had a busy weekend leading a team to Kg Jus and Gunung Ledang as part of our Outreach program. We made a two day trip to this orang asli settlement. It was a stretching point for me as i had so much to do before this and going to cyber etc...the best thing about this was the majority of Alphas that took the challenge to go. They were Belle, Louis, Lucious, Julian, Joel, Renee, Solomon, and me. only Soly and me were the oldies. Pastor Joanne, Edmund and Dayze came on Saturday and left in the evening. I must say that we did not have the luxury of time to prepare...and i left a lot of matters to my assistant,Belle.
However I am very proud of them in a sense that they showed so much maturity and discipline. Even though a lot of thing happen...like the twins house in Penang was robbed and some had personal problems here and there...they preserved and pressed on. The trip wasn't easy because we had no idea of what we could do since this wasn't an ordinaty misson trip. but the team took time to plan and carry them out. It was very touching to see their interaction with the orang Asli children. I believe that they really showed their heart and that was more important to me than their talent. I am so proud of this group of juniors.
I learned that pioneering work is not easy. We had to drive into the interior...my poor iswara took a beating travelling up terrain that was meant for big four wheelers. It wasn't easy to journey to unreached parts to share the Gospel. Imagine what Pastor Joseph and the other elders had to travel and face while preaching the Gospel. for pictures...visit Renee's blog
Now it's back to live...preparing for an exam which is tmrw. my PC is in the shop since yesterday...so I can't upload pictures and stuff. I gave my car a through wash and polish.
haha...ok, my last entry was a biit emo...but i guess we all experience that.
Saturday, October 02, 2004
no point feeling down
It's been about close to more than two weeks since i updated my blog. My last entry was about my anxiety about my results...It was another disappointing outing for me i guess...i have always asked myself...how much disappointment can one person take.
I have been pretty occupied with uni stuff the first two weeks of the sem. The Noc 2 post production is nearing it's completion and is almost ready for sale. Thank you to all those who helped.
feel a little down...i guess at the rate i'm allowing my 'downs' get to me...i'm gonna lose a lot of friends...
i guess sometimes i feel left out of my circle of friends...i know they don't mean too...
oh...i'm juz crapping...everyone's enjoying themselves...
I guess God's more concerned with the bigger things in life...sorry Lord...juz emo..
I have been pretty occupied with uni stuff the first two weeks of the sem. The Noc 2 post production is nearing it's completion and is almost ready for sale. Thank you to all those who helped.
feel a little down...i guess at the rate i'm allowing my 'downs' get to me...i'm gonna lose a lot of friends...
i guess sometimes i feel left out of my circle of friends...i know they don't mean too...
oh...i'm juz crapping...everyone's enjoying themselves...
I guess God's more concerned with the bigger things in life...sorry Lord...juz emo..
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Saving Grace
I have been feeling pretty apprehensive because I will be checking my results soon. SIgh...I guess I should try getting used to being disappointed...I mean, what's new right?
Anyway was listening to United Live's Best Friend...felt encouraged by this song...so in need of grace...
SAVING GRACE
Words and music by Michelle Fraggar
Verse 1
Night and day I seek Your face
Long for You in the secret place
All I want in this life
Is to truly know you more...
Verse 2
As the waters cover the sea,
So Your love covers me
Guiding me on,
Roads unknown
I trust in You alone (2x)
CHORUS
My Saving Grace
My endless love
Deeper and deeper I'm falling in love with You
My one desire
My only truth
Deeper and deeper I'm falling in love with you
BRIDGE
And I will rise on wings of eagles
Soaring high above all my fears
I rest in Your open arms of love
(end)
As the waters cover the sea
So your love covers me....
covers me...
Anyway was listening to United Live's Best Friend...felt encouraged by this song...so in need of grace...
SAVING GRACE
Words and music by Michelle Fraggar
Verse 1
Night and day I seek Your face
Long for You in the secret place
All I want in this life
Is to truly know you more...
Verse 2
As the waters cover the sea,
So Your love covers me
Guiding me on,
Roads unknown
I trust in You alone (2x)
CHORUS
My Saving Grace
My endless love
Deeper and deeper I'm falling in love with You
My one desire
My only truth
Deeper and deeper I'm falling in love with you
BRIDGE
And I will rise on wings of eagles
Soaring high above all my fears
I rest in Your open arms of love
(end)
As the waters cover the sea
So your love covers me....
covers me...
Friday, September 10, 2004
Milestones...
My life seems to be marked by milestones each time i experience ...i find these milestones come in the form of the music that I listen during those times...
When I was feeling down, I purchased for myself a Simple Plan album. This album is a sob album...I mean it's like...very sad songs...sung punk version...happy tunes..sad lyrics...
And i identified a lot with it...and i still do.... here are exerpts of some of the songs
6 a.m. The clock is ringing I need to spend an hour snoozing
'Cuz I don't think I'm gonna make it
I punch in I'm still sleeping
Watch the clock, But it's not moving
'Cuz every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending
[Chorus:]And I feel likeI'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever
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I'm taking my time I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind
I'm gonna be fine As soon as I get your picture right out of my mind
Chorus:]I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand, you need to hold on to
But everytime I call you don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine
You're nothing at all, I know theres a million reasons why I shouldn't call
nothing to say, could easily make this conversation last all day
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I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I knowI won't forget you
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I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is Having more fun than me Tonight...
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I guess I bottle up all this feelings in me...I found refuge and solitude in an album that I bought during that time...UNITED LIVE-More Than Life. Here are some of the songs that spoke to me and help me get through those dark times...
ALWAYS
Did You rise the sun for me?
Or paint a million stars that I might
Know Your majesty?
Is Your voice upon the wind?
Is everything I've known marked
With my maker's fingerprints?
Breathe on me
Let me see Your face
Ever will I seek You
Chorus:
'Cause all You are, is all I want, always
Draw me close in Your arms
Oh God, I wanna be with You
Can I feel You in the rain?
Abandon all I am to have You
Capture me again
Let the earth resound with praise
Can You hear as all creation lives
To glorify one name?
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ONE WAY
I lay my life down at your feet
You're the only one i need
I turn to you and you are always there
In troubled times its you i seek
I put you first thats all i need
I humble all i am, All to you
One way
Jesus
You're the only one that i could live for
One Way
Jesus
You're the only one that i could live for
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WHERE THE LOVE LAST FOREVER
Your mercy found me,
Upon the broken road,
And lifted me beyond my failing,
Into Your glory,
My sin and shame dissolved,
And now forever Yours I’ll stand.
(Pre-Chorus)In love never to end,To call You more than Lord,Glorious friend.
(Chorus)So I throw my life upon all You are,
‘Cause I know You gave it all for me,
And when all else fades,
My soul will dance with You,
Where the love lasts forever.
(Bridge)And forever I will sing,Lord forever I will sing,Of how You gave Your life away,
Just to save me, Lord You saved me.With You, where the love lasts forever
I hope that this will be an encouragement to those facing the most difficult and darkest of times...seek God, abandon yourself to Him, cry out to Him in your day of sorrow...He will deal with you, He will lift you up, He's our fortress, our strong tower...
When I was feeling down, I purchased for myself a Simple Plan album. This album is a sob album...I mean it's like...very sad songs...sung punk version...happy tunes..sad lyrics...
And i identified a lot with it...and i still do.... here are exerpts of some of the songs
6 a.m. The clock is ringing I need to spend an hour snoozing
'Cuz I don't think I'm gonna make it
I punch in I'm still sleeping
Watch the clock, But it's not moving
'Cuz every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending
[Chorus:]And I feel likeI'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever
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I'm taking my time I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind
I'm gonna be fine As soon as I get your picture right out of my mind
Chorus:]I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand, you need to hold on to
But everytime I call you don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine
You're nothing at all, I know theres a million reasons why I shouldn't call
nothing to say, could easily make this conversation last all day
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I knowI won't forget you
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is Having more fun than me Tonight...
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I guess I bottle up all this feelings in me...I found refuge and solitude in an album that I bought during that time...UNITED LIVE-More Than Life. Here are some of the songs that spoke to me and help me get through those dark times...
ALWAYS
Did You rise the sun for me?
Or paint a million stars that I might
Know Your majesty?
Is Your voice upon the wind?
Is everything I've known marked
With my maker's fingerprints?
Breathe on me
Let me see Your face
Ever will I seek You
Chorus:
'Cause all You are, is all I want, always
Draw me close in Your arms
Oh God, I wanna be with You
Can I feel You in the rain?
Abandon all I am to have You
Capture me again
Let the earth resound with praise
Can You hear as all creation lives
To glorify one name?
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ONE WAY
I lay my life down at your feet
You're the only one i need
I turn to you and you are always there
In troubled times its you i seek
I put you first thats all i need
I humble all i am, All to you
One way
Jesus
You're the only one that i could live for
One Way
Jesus
You're the only one that i could live for
------------------------------------------------------------------
WHERE THE LOVE LAST FOREVER
Your mercy found me,
Upon the broken road,
And lifted me beyond my failing,
Into Your glory,
My sin and shame dissolved,
And now forever Yours I’ll stand.
(Pre-Chorus)In love never to end,To call You more than Lord,Glorious friend.
(Chorus)So I throw my life upon all You are,
‘Cause I know You gave it all for me,
And when all else fades,
My soul will dance with You,
Where the love lasts forever.
(Bridge)And forever I will sing,Lord forever I will sing,Of how You gave Your life away,
Just to save me, Lord You saved me.With You, where the love lasts forever
I hope that this will be an encouragement to those facing the most difficult and darkest of times...seek God, abandon yourself to Him, cry out to Him in your day of sorrow...He will deal with you, He will lift you up, He's our fortress, our strong tower...
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Plastic...The Brotherhood...KL....friends....
SATURDAY
I made a trip to KL on Saturday(4th Sept) after meeting Wee Liem. I was very cautious of going because the last time I went to Cyber, it was hell for me. And he has rehearsal at ACTS church…and at that time, that was the last place on planet earth that I wanted to go…I detested the very air of it. I hated the situation I was in. I don't hate ACTS...just that being there reminds me of stuff that conjures up a sadness and grieve that has not healed. Everyone’s so happy. I wouldn’t have made any trip to ACTS in the near future…but I gave it some thought since wee liem wouldn’t take that long and I did want to go KL. Sat there like an idiot reading…but all these feelings of bitterness are human…God is bigger than all that. Met Lenard for dinner…We attended the Saturday night service. I guess in times like this, I needed God more. I needed some kinda breakthrough. I was feeling sad and lonely…worship was loud.
Pastor Sandra spoke so strongly about how we need to get out from the chains that bind us so that we can be spokesman for God to impact others. And we can’t do that unless we were walking with God and was right with Him. Though we may not understand…His ways and thoughts are higher than ours. I needed to hear that truth.
I met up with Nicky and Michelles and Leona...(was teasing her about a certain something/someone and she punched me in the arm...ouch...anyway, it was nice to see her again..hahaha), and we went supper and watched Butterfly Effect at Mich’s place. I learned a new term: The Brotherhood…I wrote a note to Charis in which I drew Sam’s face on it…(sorry Sam)..hahahaa…
SUNDAY
We went to One Utama…I didn’t buy anything…I like their MPH…walked around…at 9.30 watched Puteri Gunung Ledang(Leona was there with me too along with Kae Ee, Wee Liem, Rachael, Nicky, Michelle) at the Summit not a bad movie…after the movie…picked Joash up coz he was overnighting with us…poor guy, waited for one hour…a Starbucks waitress was hitting on him…hahahaa..
MONDAY
I had the treat of eating Klang’s Bak Kut Teh which Joash brought me and wee liem…it’s awesome stuff…I had the privilege to meet Joash mum and brother…nice house…wee liem was kinda disappointed that his twin kid sisters weren’t home. Haha. After that, met up with Lenard and headed to town. Took a KTM to KL Sentral. Went to Bentley’s for the first time…I found out that I missed the Mega Sale offers they had for their BOSS pedals…Arghhhhh…I’m looking for a BOSS Digital Delay DD-3…sigh, I missed the sale…Wee Liem had to go for some church prayer meeting so lenard, joash and I walked around and went to Berjaya Times Square after getting my bus ticket. I had a pleasant surprise at a certain toy shop there. It had original Transformer toys…seriously…it’s very difficult to find these toys since it’s from the 80’s. I spent half and hour there juz checking them out. One toy cost about rm119. The Optimus Prime model cost rm450 I think…after that, we went back to Subang to meet Wee Liem and Rachel Ann. After supper, we went over to her place to watch Mean Girls starring Lindsday Lohan…that’s where I learned a new term…’plastic’. By the time we left her house, it was about 2.15am…wee liem got lost so we reached Cyber about 3am. It was a tiring day…was feeling queasy.
TUESDAY
Packed up. Left Cyberia about 12.30pm. We met up with Lenard at Kelana Jaya LRT station. Our mission: Locate Woh Fatt. It’s a budget shop for guitar effects and guitars…with a variety of BOSS, Jim Dunlopes Wahs…there were Gibson Les Pauls there too. Alas, the DD-3 was out of stock. But they sell their stuff really cheap. Like a ZOOM 505II cost rm420 in Melaka, but it was rm390 there.
Oh well, I shall check out the price in Melaka for the DD-3.
Went to Sungai Wang to juz walk around.
I caught the 5.30pm bus home.
Thanks Wee Liem for being a good host. It was nice meeting Lenard, Joash, Nicky, Rachel. Kae Ee and Michelle…hope it will change my mind about somethings.
I guess I’m glad that I’m home. I would like to spend my holidays quietly now since I have been running here and there since it began. It’s good to be home and see my family.
I made a trip to KL on Saturday(4th Sept) after meeting Wee Liem. I was very cautious of going because the last time I went to Cyber, it was hell for me. And he has rehearsal at ACTS church…and at that time, that was the last place on planet earth that I wanted to go…I detested the very air of it. I hated the situation I was in. I don't hate ACTS...just that being there reminds me of stuff that conjures up a sadness and grieve that has not healed. Everyone’s so happy. I wouldn’t have made any trip to ACTS in the near future…but I gave it some thought since wee liem wouldn’t take that long and I did want to go KL. Sat there like an idiot reading…but all these feelings of bitterness are human…God is bigger than all that. Met Lenard for dinner…We attended the Saturday night service. I guess in times like this, I needed God more. I needed some kinda breakthrough. I was feeling sad and lonely…worship was loud.
Pastor Sandra spoke so strongly about how we need to get out from the chains that bind us so that we can be spokesman for God to impact others. And we can’t do that unless we were walking with God and was right with Him. Though we may not understand…His ways and thoughts are higher than ours. I needed to hear that truth.
I met up with Nicky and Michelles and Leona...(was teasing her about a certain something/someone and she punched me in the arm...ouch...anyway, it was nice to see her again..hahaha), and we went supper and watched Butterfly Effect at Mich’s place. I learned a new term: The Brotherhood…I wrote a note to Charis in which I drew Sam’s face on it…(sorry Sam)..hahahaa…
SUNDAY
We went to One Utama…I didn’t buy anything…I like their MPH…walked around…at 9.30 watched Puteri Gunung Ledang(Leona was there with me too along with Kae Ee, Wee Liem, Rachael, Nicky, Michelle) at the Summit not a bad movie…after the movie…picked Joash up coz he was overnighting with us…poor guy, waited for one hour…a Starbucks waitress was hitting on him…hahahaa..
MONDAY
I had the treat of eating Klang’s Bak Kut Teh which Joash brought me and wee liem…it’s awesome stuff…I had the privilege to meet Joash mum and brother…nice house…wee liem was kinda disappointed that his twin kid sisters weren’t home. Haha. After that, met up with Lenard and headed to town. Took a KTM to KL Sentral. Went to Bentley’s for the first time…I found out that I missed the Mega Sale offers they had for their BOSS pedals…Arghhhhh…I’m looking for a BOSS Digital Delay DD-3…sigh, I missed the sale…Wee Liem had to go for some church prayer meeting so lenard, joash and I walked around and went to Berjaya Times Square after getting my bus ticket. I had a pleasant surprise at a certain toy shop there. It had original Transformer toys…seriously…it’s very difficult to find these toys since it’s from the 80’s. I spent half and hour there juz checking them out. One toy cost about rm119. The Optimus Prime model cost rm450 I think…after that, we went back to Subang to meet Wee Liem and Rachel Ann. After supper, we went over to her place to watch Mean Girls starring Lindsday Lohan…that’s where I learned a new term…’plastic’. By the time we left her house, it was about 2.15am…wee liem got lost so we reached Cyber about 3am. It was a tiring day…was feeling queasy.
TUESDAY
Packed up. Left Cyberia about 12.30pm. We met up with Lenard at Kelana Jaya LRT station. Our mission: Locate Woh Fatt. It’s a budget shop for guitar effects and guitars…with a variety of BOSS, Jim Dunlopes Wahs…there were Gibson Les Pauls there too. Alas, the DD-3 was out of stock. But they sell their stuff really cheap. Like a ZOOM 505II cost rm420 in Melaka, but it was rm390 there.
Oh well, I shall check out the price in Melaka for the DD-3.
Went to Sungai Wang to juz walk around.
I caught the 5.30pm bus home.
Thanks Wee Liem for being a good host. It was nice meeting Lenard, Joash, Nicky, Rachel. Kae Ee and Michelle…hope it will change my mind about somethings.
I guess I’m glad that I’m home. I would like to spend my holidays quietly now since I have been running here and there since it began. It’s good to be home and see my family.
Great MMU CF Melaka camp...
Finally…home sweet home. It has been a while since I had the opportunity to update my blog…ironically it’s the holidays and I should have all the time in the world. It’s gonna be long, so I’m breaking them up into two parts.
MMU CF Melaka camp was held at Highlands Christian Center (HCC) from the 30th Aug – 2nd August with the camp theme : Frequency Switch. It was a great camp. This would be my 4th Cf camp and every camp leaves a different experience. The messages by Pastor Joanne were very heart felt and bits and pieces of it at times struck me, at time chewed at my heart. Prior to the camp, I was in a very messed up spiritual state…though I may have looked fine on the outside. So I spend a lot of time during the camp doing some soul searching…We had a session where Ps Joanne invited individuals from the 1st, 2nd and 3rd generation Christians to come up and share their testimonies and have a Q & A session. It was interesting to see the diverse mindsets and influences of each generation upon their personal walk with God. In a way I am thankful that I have the opportunity to worship God without persecution. I hope that I will never take it for granted and guard it jealously. God help me. Ps Joanne also asked the Chern Wai(ex pres.), Kai Lee(ex-pres.) and Samuel(current pres.) to share their heart about being CF president. It somehow challenged me to not miss out in whatever area God wants me to serve in seeing that I have about 1 year plus in CF. I looked back at my terms as Music Director, NOC 2 Director…did I achieve what I could? Did I manage to change anything. These are some of the questions I have been asking myself. How can I make an impact…I wouldn’t want to leave MMU knowing that I missed out in something that God had in plan for me but I messed it up because I wasn’t ready for it or because I disqualified myself because of sin…as it’s said…’many are called, few are chosen’…God help me not fool around anymore when it comes to destiny and callings…
Besides that, I had the opportunity to see many juniors serve and give their hearts to God. Many of us had praise for the current batch of Alphas who have been a blessing with the freshness, their live…as Deric once put it, ‘Our CF is in very good hands’ considering the future generation. I had loads of fun getting to know them…julian, simon, cp, dayze, louis, lucious, belle, aaron, joel, renee…kudos to Justin, Abel and Vijay for leading the camp with a great team of Alphas. It was a great camp...it was well balanced...games, fun, serious stuff, lame stuff,...
Yeah…we had a water gun show down that we bought from the town…ended up all wet and sweaty...then we were wet and cold.
No white guy came and shouted at us this time…whee..
Pastor Joanne said that God's impression on her was this' My people may be dull of hearing sermons, but not My voice.' during the last day where we had reflection...I think it all ended superbly.
I guess this holidays, I shall try and tune my frequency to God’s frequency.
MMU CF Melaka camp was held at Highlands Christian Center (HCC) from the 30th Aug – 2nd August with the camp theme : Frequency Switch. It was a great camp. This would be my 4th Cf camp and every camp leaves a different experience. The messages by Pastor Joanne were very heart felt and bits and pieces of it at times struck me, at time chewed at my heart. Prior to the camp, I was in a very messed up spiritual state…though I may have looked fine on the outside. So I spend a lot of time during the camp doing some soul searching…We had a session where Ps Joanne invited individuals from the 1st, 2nd and 3rd generation Christians to come up and share their testimonies and have a Q & A session. It was interesting to see the diverse mindsets and influences of each generation upon their personal walk with God. In a way I am thankful that I have the opportunity to worship God without persecution. I hope that I will never take it for granted and guard it jealously. God help me. Ps Joanne also asked the Chern Wai(ex pres.), Kai Lee(ex-pres.) and Samuel(current pres.) to share their heart about being CF president. It somehow challenged me to not miss out in whatever area God wants me to serve in seeing that I have about 1 year plus in CF. I looked back at my terms as Music Director, NOC 2 Director…did I achieve what I could? Did I manage to change anything. These are some of the questions I have been asking myself. How can I make an impact…I wouldn’t want to leave MMU knowing that I missed out in something that God had in plan for me but I messed it up because I wasn’t ready for it or because I disqualified myself because of sin…as it’s said…’many are called, few are chosen’…God help me not fool around anymore when it comes to destiny and callings…
Besides that, I had the opportunity to see many juniors serve and give their hearts to God. Many of us had praise for the current batch of Alphas who have been a blessing with the freshness, their live…as Deric once put it, ‘Our CF is in very good hands’ considering the future generation. I had loads of fun getting to know them…julian, simon, cp, dayze, louis, lucious, belle, aaron, joel, renee…kudos to Justin, Abel and Vijay for leading the camp with a great team of Alphas. It was a great camp...it was well balanced...games, fun, serious stuff, lame stuff,...
Yeah…we had a water gun show down that we bought from the town…ended up all wet and sweaty...then we were wet and cold.
No white guy came and shouted at us this time…whee..
Pastor Joanne said that God's impression on her was this' My people may be dull of hearing sermons, but not My voice.' during the last day where we had reflection...I think it all ended superbly.
I guess this holidays, I shall try and tune my frequency to God’s frequency.
Sunday, August 29, 2004
Happy Holidays
It's about 5 days into my semester holidays...tonight is one of those nights that I'm actually staying home..haha. Realised that I have been spending a tad too much the past few days...hmm...well, some of it on stuff i needed to get during the break but most on spending time with my friends. In the past four days, i have watched The Village and Alien vs Predator, played two bowling games, did some shopping...spending.
The Village was substantial...AVP was kinda really lame.Another thing that I've begin to experience is the phenomena of sleeping really late(or really early in the morning like 5 - 6 am) and waking up around noon. I think I'm making up for all the lack of sleep that I got during the exam week...yea rite...actually I have been watching a lot of The Simpsons and also some MACROSS anime that i got from Deric.
Besides that, we also played football with the likes of deric, abel, justin, joash, solomon, tze seong, tze wei, edmund...finally getting some opurtunity to sweat out after living in a 'veggie-state' kind of routine of sleeping, waking, studyin, eating, sleeping, studying, supper...yada yada...the work out was good.I think I'm kinda privilged to have finshed my papers within one week as compared to some of them who had papers till Saturday of the second week..i mean the campus must have seemed kinda empty by then. Imagine the feeling of watching your friends digging movies and going home and packing...while you're rotting wif da books..
Kinda looking forward to MMU CF Melaka camp from Monday to Thursday at HCC Cameron Highlands...the place of mixed memories for me...hope they dun become nightmares..
Feeling kinda 'duh' at the moment...plz excuse me...
Happy Holidays fellow MMU people...
The Village was substantial...AVP was kinda really lame.Another thing that I've begin to experience is the phenomena of sleeping really late(or really early in the morning like 5 - 6 am) and waking up around noon. I think I'm making up for all the lack of sleep that I got during the exam week...yea rite...actually I have been watching a lot of The Simpsons and also some MACROSS anime that i got from Deric.
Besides that, we also played football with the likes of deric, abel, justin, joash, solomon, tze seong, tze wei, edmund...finally getting some opurtunity to sweat out after living in a 'veggie-state' kind of routine of sleeping, waking, studyin, eating, sleeping, studying, supper...yada yada...the work out was good.I think I'm kinda privilged to have finshed my papers within one week as compared to some of them who had papers till Saturday of the second week..i mean the campus must have seemed kinda empty by then. Imagine the feeling of watching your friends digging movies and going home and packing...while you're rotting wif da books..
Kinda looking forward to MMU CF Melaka camp from Monday to Thursday at HCC Cameron Highlands...the place of mixed memories for me...hope they dun become nightmares..
Feeling kinda 'duh' at the moment...plz excuse me...
Happy Holidays fellow MMU people...
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Yayness...
Exams are finally over....welcome back to the real world...
5 papers in 6 days...not your usual schedule for exams...but i'm glad it's over...juz savouring the moment of not having to worry about anything for now...haha...and thinking of all the things i wanna do.
Haven't been online for a week...had nothing much to update...unless you wanted to hear me rave about my exams...LOL
Had church last Sunday and played in service again. I think I need a break for a while. Have been serving for three consecutive weeks due to some changes in the schedule.
Have been boasting about my friend to my other friends about how 'hebat' he is on the drums...the strokes and techniques... He's non other than Jason Teh...the guy who taught me my guitar basics.
He's still the best drummer that I've played with thus far. Keep up the standard bro...still trying to attain that musical ear that God has blessed you with...
yayness...exams are over...
5 papers in 6 days...not your usual schedule for exams...but i'm glad it's over...juz savouring the moment of not having to worry about anything for now...haha...and thinking of all the things i wanna do.
Haven't been online for a week...had nothing much to update...unless you wanted to hear me rave about my exams...LOL
Had church last Sunday and played in service again. I think I need a break for a while. Have been serving for three consecutive weeks due to some changes in the schedule.
Have been boasting about my friend to my other friends about how 'hebat' he is on the drums...the strokes and techniques... He's non other than Jason Teh...the guy who taught me my guitar basics.
He's still the best drummer that I've played with thus far. Keep up the standard bro...still trying to attain that musical ear that God has blessed you with...
yayness...exams are over...
Friday, August 13, 2004
Praise and Worship Night - First Love
This week's CF was one of those CF meetings that ended with a bang, which was a fitting ending for the first semester. It was Praise and Worship Night...where the guitar amps screamed and the drums thundered the YAC where voices singing praise resonated.
Attendance for CF this semester has been encouraging if not great. And the same can be said for this week even though it's the study week and finals are juz days away.
Praise and Worship Night with the theme FIRST LOVE was meant to draw people back to remembering our first love in Christ as Christians. There was a lot of anticipation on the part of the musicians as we rehearsed and practised during those few days before Tuesday.
The night began with some awesome praise and worship led by Samuel Yau(WL) Renee(BGV), Seong(drums), Wei(bass), Timothy(guitar), Justin(lead guitar) and Janet(piano). with a good mixture of energetic praise to soulful hyms..the last song 'Great is the Lord' lead us proclaiming the greatness of God. I felt a need to proclaim it in the midst of the terrible crimes that has been happening in our nation.
SESSION 1
Next was a song presentation by the Alphas with Louise and Lucious (vocals), Renee(vocals and dance), Joel (drums), Julian(bass), Belle(piano), Aaron (guitars). They did a hearty rendition of REFLECTOR and STILL.
next was a series of unplugs...songs that meant a lot to those who wanted to share them with the CF...
Joash presented a song entitled LOVE SONG which is a cover from a band(forgot what band it was) and Justin played the guitar for him.
Justin sang a cun self composed song entitled MY FRIEND with juz the guitar.
I sang a self composed WHERE YOU LEAD which i shared in my blog dated:Tueday, June 8th.
SHARING
Then it was time for Vijay to share the word which he delivered to us. It made me ask some questions like...when was the last time I thought about God's sacrifice and extreme love for me and do I love Him in return through my lifestyle...
SESSION 2
Then Deric's band...Two Freaks and A Guy (Deric, Tze Seong, Tze Wei) presented a song from PFR. And they later sang Love SOng for A Saviour by Jars of Clay. They were actually bringing back their previous Team C when teams still exsisted in the worship team last year.
PG 165 was up next. And we presented YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME which we presented in the last BOTB:Tones of Absolution. AFter that we sang Justin's composed Your Light which was fresh from the oven...leading the CF into a time of worship...and rededication.
Deric's band slid in as the atmosphere of worship descended on the CF and they closed the session with a celebrative hym...
Then the lights came on and the announcements and offering was collected...
Then for the finale of the night, PG 165 lead the CF to sing FREE from United Live's To The Ends of The Earth album...indeed God was moving via the many songs that was shared and it brought freedom to those being ministered....it ended with the people shouting for us to sing the song One Way from the latest United Live series...but because of time...we said,' Come back next sem'...which was indeed true...it may be the last CF of the first sem, but it was certainly a beginning of something exciting in the Music Ministry MMU in the CF.. great music, raw talent, awesome potential in the young musicians, skillful playing by the senior musicians..what a great way to end the semester.
EXAMS here...so may be late in blogging this next few days..
Attendance for CF this semester has been encouraging if not great. And the same can be said for this week even though it's the study week and finals are juz days away.
Praise and Worship Night with the theme FIRST LOVE was meant to draw people back to remembering our first love in Christ as Christians. There was a lot of anticipation on the part of the musicians as we rehearsed and practised during those few days before Tuesday.
The night began with some awesome praise and worship led by Samuel Yau(WL) Renee(BGV), Seong(drums), Wei(bass), Timothy(guitar), Justin(lead guitar) and Janet(piano). with a good mixture of energetic praise to soulful hyms..the last song 'Great is the Lord' lead us proclaiming the greatness of God. I felt a need to proclaim it in the midst of the terrible crimes that has been happening in our nation.
SESSION 1
Next was a song presentation by the Alphas with Louise and Lucious (vocals), Renee(vocals and dance), Joel (drums), Julian(bass), Belle(piano), Aaron (guitars). They did a hearty rendition of REFLECTOR and STILL.
next was a series of unplugs...songs that meant a lot to those who wanted to share them with the CF...
Joash presented a song entitled LOVE SONG which is a cover from a band(forgot what band it was) and Justin played the guitar for him.
Justin sang a cun self composed song entitled MY FRIEND with juz the guitar.
I sang a self composed WHERE YOU LEAD which i shared in my blog dated:Tueday, June 8th.
SHARING
Then it was time for Vijay to share the word which he delivered to us. It made me ask some questions like...when was the last time I thought about God's sacrifice and extreme love for me and do I love Him in return through my lifestyle...
SESSION 2
Then Deric's band...Two Freaks and A Guy (Deric, Tze Seong, Tze Wei) presented a song from PFR. And they later sang Love SOng for A Saviour by Jars of Clay. They were actually bringing back their previous Team C when teams still exsisted in the worship team last year.
PG 165 was up next. And we presented YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME which we presented in the last BOTB:Tones of Absolution. AFter that we sang Justin's composed Your Light which was fresh from the oven...leading the CF into a time of worship...and rededication.
Deric's band slid in as the atmosphere of worship descended on the CF and they closed the session with a celebrative hym...
Then the lights came on and the announcements and offering was collected...
Then for the finale of the night, PG 165 lead the CF to sing FREE from United Live's To The Ends of The Earth album...indeed God was moving via the many songs that was shared and it brought freedom to those being ministered....it ended with the people shouting for us to sing the song One Way from the latest United Live series...but because of time...we said,' Come back next sem'...which was indeed true...it may be the last CF of the first sem, but it was certainly a beginning of something exciting in the Music Ministry MMU in the CF.. great music, raw talent, awesome potential in the young musicians, skillful playing by the senior musicians..what a great way to end the semester.
EXAMS here...so may be late in blogging this next few days..
Sunday, August 08, 2004
COMING THIS TUESDAY,,,
Today(saturday) PG 165 had rehearsal for Praise and Worship night(this 10th August) at YAC. It was kind of exciting...really looking forward to this Tuesday.
Justin and the rest was jamming some chord progression as I was setting up my accoustic guitar for a certain song...and we actually managed to write a song from that progression. I mean he wrote it and we chipped in ideas here and there...but it was like awesome coz it's like the beginning of a stage where we try writting our own stuff. I guess we were messing around with the idea of a theme song for our Melaka camp: Frequency Switch...andwrote a song. I wonder what he will call that song...haven't named it yet.
So if you hear it this Tuesday...it's fresh from the oven. This Tuesday, we juz wanna take time to worship and adore our Maker via the expression of music that he has blessed us with. So it will be exciting and it also has the potential to change your life..so be there.
nitez
Justin and the rest was jamming some chord progression as I was setting up my accoustic guitar for a certain song...and we actually managed to write a song from that progression. I mean he wrote it and we chipped in ideas here and there...but it was like awesome coz it's like the beginning of a stage where we try writting our own stuff. I guess we were messing around with the idea of a theme song for our Melaka camp: Frequency Switch...andwrote a song. I wonder what he will call that song...haven't named it yet.
So if you hear it this Tuesday...it's fresh from the oven. This Tuesday, we juz wanna take time to worship and adore our Maker via the expression of music that he has blessed us with. So it will be exciting and it also has the potential to change your life..so be there.
nitez
Friday, August 06, 2004
A tribute to my band...PG 165.
Justin Lee just doing the stuff that makes the girls go 'ga ga'...haha..a great friend and this photo is a tribute to him...looks cool huh?
Best Drummer...Vijay in action. For those who missed it...well...you missed it...all the double peddle stuff...whoa...drool...
Jason,"Eh, Zhen Xin...i kinda jealous lar coz Apple taking care of you so well...I wished someone could take care of me too...sniff...your playing rocks man..."
Zhen Xin,"Huh?...."
Just a microphone stand between me and the crowd
The night itself...finally...
Reached home to take a quick shower. It was about 6.30 pm. The initial feeling of excitement slowly gave way to weariness as I sat down on my chair under the fan. Now I was feeling tired…and that wasn’t good. Haha. Didn’t know what to wear…brought my jacket coz it would be cold.
Went to Vijay’s house coz we were going to MITC together. He was still bathing and stuff, so I rested on his sofa listening to some music. By the time we left, it was about 7.30pm…Justin called us telling us that there’s a band meeting and we had to get there in a jiffy. So dinner had to wait. Vijay was wearing his shinny shoes…guess he can play drums faster with his magic shoes and his unhygenic hankie.
We met Justin and Zhen Xin and proceeded to MITC. The place seemed pack with people from the outside, loitering, smoking and lining up to gain access into MITC. They were selling admission tickets on the spot at rm14. We unpacked our instruments and stuff and made sure we had our band tags that read: TONES OF ABSOLUTION - Band (ALL ACCESS)/ PG 165. We could feel the crowd staring at us as we made our way to the entrance carrying our stuff. There was a long line that stopped at the escalator where security was allowing the crowd in by batches. And we walked past the queue and saw a heartwarming sight…The likes of Joash, Seong, Abel, Louise, Lucious,Rachel Ann, Rebecca, Michelle, Wee Liem, Edmund, Aaron, Su Be, Carina, Joel,Julian, Mark..(I;m sorry if I missed anyone out) right in front of the line cheering us as we made our way up the escalator. WOW.
The briefing was just to tell us not to do anything stupid on stage and enjoy ourselves. So we took leave after that to grab a much needed bite. Asked AWAKEN to look after our stuff..But I was feeling so energy less. Was feeling tired, nervous, no appetite. We went to Subbaidah. I ordered some stup double egg bread called Roti Hong Kong. The rest of the gang were devouring their chow while I was struggling to eat. Zhen Xin had been down with a flu and sore throat…and Apple was tending to him so gently. Hmm…I wished I had someone to tend to me too…hahah…I bit my lip about three times..ouch. Tempered Mental was also eating there but they seemed kinda bored and antisocial…should smile more. Anyway I bought a can of RED BULL to drink later just in case I still felt lifeless.
Oh, we met Sam Ng, Wee Ni, Stefanie, George and Asher.
The hall was almost packed to the end and the ppl were sitting on the carpet.We were just in time for the speech…as usual the schedule was later than on paper. We were grateful to have missed KRONG’s act. Didn’t really liked them. The first band to perform was Vendetta…a band that I heard won some stuff. You get that kind of feeling of wanting to access other bands and kinda rate them. Hahaa…so it wasn’t a nice feeling coz were 9th on the playing list…so personally, I had to see all the skill and frills. Basically we told ourselves that we didn’t really care how the other bands performed, we’d juz go do our stuff and enjoy ourselves. Vendetta was not bad followed by Phoenix. I couldn’t bare staying there coz of the anxiety and excitement that was building up. So I decided to lepak outside the hall where the bands were stationed. We had to wait a few hours which I spent resting. We had nice conversations with AWAKEN and made fast friends with them. It actually helped me settle down and be more calm about going on stage. Found out that they were not MMU students but only one of them was an Alpha. So I found comfort in people that I hardly knew.
Tempered Mental played and they were really technical. Was nice to see some technical stuff after all the head banging rock that was being played that evening. I think they’re pretty good. TIGHT music.
All this while we were counting down the bands to our turn. Wee Liem and some of them came out after a while and said to us which he summed up the general consensus by our friends.(he wrote this in his BLOG http://weeliem.blogspot.com/)
"U guys are simply awesome! it was worth the trip all the way down, the RM14 i paid for my ticket and the numerous hours enduring other bands being wannabee-metal screaming bands, just to see PG165 win. coz if they hadn't won, a few of us guys had made a plan to beat the crap out of the PG165 members for making us go through all the crappy bands."
So we had some extra pressure which I wanted to dismiss and juz concentrate on why we were there, not just to win, but to make a difference with our music.
Finally we were ushered into backstage. It was about 12.30am. I realized that the defining moment had finally come. I guess I was beginning to feel a bit nervous and goin through the lyrics and stuff. We unpacked our stuff and guitars all tuned. We said a silent but earnest prayer as the other BOTB staff looked at us. The emcee checked with us. I could hear the other band slowly wrapping up their gig. I couldn’t stand the people smoking at backstage. Then the emcee finally said something like, ‘From Melaka…PG 165’…and then I could hear the people go into a frenzy(the friends who came to support us) as we made our way up the stage. I was plugging in my stuff and trying to make sure my settings were perfect and I could hear the CF people and some BOTB people cheering us and screaming and shouting ,' Vijay's so cute...Justin's so cute'. It was an awesome feeling. There we were. I shouted.’Apa khabar semua’ and I couldn’t decipher what the response was coz they were shouting and I was in my mind to start playing. My guitar sounded ALIVE…
Here it goes…SWITCHFOOT's Meant To Live which i dedicated to Awaken. (apparently the crowd knew the song ‘Meant to Live’ and broke into a frenzy when I announced our first number)…I striked the string, and Justin answered…and Vijay and Zhen Xin crashed in and it was symphony…seeing the heads bob up and down to the groove. I wasn’t sure if they could hear me sing…but I sang like I meant it...and savoured everything of the moment. At that time…all feelings of anxiety left us. As the song closed, I could see strangers in the middle of the crowd raise their hands in applause.
‘Waves of Glory’ was an instrumental that we wrote together. And personally it was the song that I feared most to perform becoz it was technical. I did not know if it would make the cut. But it was the most awesome experience as we jammed there...from some punk, to reggae... Each of us played bars of solo pieces. Justin did some finger tapping, Vijay played stuff that he did not play at the rehearsals which he kept in his head, Zhen Xin grooved something that he come out with just two days before, I juz did what I could. It was nice.
‘You’re Everything To Me’ was a slower song that I wrote and the band helped bring to live. Personally I felt something was out of tune as I tried singing.(my guitar suddenly kinda soft) I felt the bass was out of tune. Vijay said that it sounded perfect. I was a biit disappointed after that and was complaining at backstage that I sang out of tune as my friends were consolling me…hahaha…Anyway, I managed to say thank you to a very awesome crowd. Wished that we could have did that song again...actually wished we could play all night... But after that no one complained but feedback was they were blessed by the song…and they actually sang to it. I was pleasantly surprised by that. We hurried off stage feeling strangely in a land of euphoria.
Next: The results and the closing of Tones Of Absolution.
Reached home to take a quick shower. It was about 6.30 pm. The initial feeling of excitement slowly gave way to weariness as I sat down on my chair under the fan. Now I was feeling tired…and that wasn’t good. Haha. Didn’t know what to wear…brought my jacket coz it would be cold.
Went to Vijay’s house coz we were going to MITC together. He was still bathing and stuff, so I rested on his sofa listening to some music. By the time we left, it was about 7.30pm…Justin called us telling us that there’s a band meeting and we had to get there in a jiffy. So dinner had to wait. Vijay was wearing his shinny shoes…guess he can play drums faster with his magic shoes and his unhygenic hankie.
We met Justin and Zhen Xin and proceeded to MITC. The place seemed pack with people from the outside, loitering, smoking and lining up to gain access into MITC. They were selling admission tickets on the spot at rm14. We unpacked our instruments and stuff and made sure we had our band tags that read: TONES OF ABSOLUTION - Band (ALL ACCESS)/ PG 165. We could feel the crowd staring at us as we made our way to the entrance carrying our stuff. There was a long line that stopped at the escalator where security was allowing the crowd in by batches. And we walked past the queue and saw a heartwarming sight…The likes of Joash, Seong, Abel, Louise, Lucious,Rachel Ann, Rebecca, Michelle, Wee Liem, Edmund, Aaron, Su Be, Carina, Joel,Julian, Mark..(I;m sorry if I missed anyone out) right in front of the line cheering us as we made our way up the escalator. WOW.
The briefing was just to tell us not to do anything stupid on stage and enjoy ourselves. So we took leave after that to grab a much needed bite. Asked AWAKEN to look after our stuff..But I was feeling so energy less. Was feeling tired, nervous, no appetite. We went to Subbaidah. I ordered some stup double egg bread called Roti Hong Kong. The rest of the gang were devouring their chow while I was struggling to eat. Zhen Xin had been down with a flu and sore throat…and Apple was tending to him so gently. Hmm…I wished I had someone to tend to me too…hahah…I bit my lip about three times..ouch. Tempered Mental was also eating there but they seemed kinda bored and antisocial…should smile more. Anyway I bought a can of RED BULL to drink later just in case I still felt lifeless.
Oh, we met Sam Ng, Wee Ni, Stefanie, George and Asher.
The hall was almost packed to the end and the ppl were sitting on the carpet.We were just in time for the speech…as usual the schedule was later than on paper. We were grateful to have missed KRONG’s act. Didn’t really liked them. The first band to perform was Vendetta…a band that I heard won some stuff. You get that kind of feeling of wanting to access other bands and kinda rate them. Hahaa…so it wasn’t a nice feeling coz were 9th on the playing list…so personally, I had to see all the skill and frills. Basically we told ourselves that we didn’t really care how the other bands performed, we’d juz go do our stuff and enjoy ourselves. Vendetta was not bad followed by Phoenix. I couldn’t bare staying there coz of the anxiety and excitement that was building up. So I decided to lepak outside the hall where the bands were stationed. We had to wait a few hours which I spent resting. We had nice conversations with AWAKEN and made fast friends with them. It actually helped me settle down and be more calm about going on stage. Found out that they were not MMU students but only one of them was an Alpha. So I found comfort in people that I hardly knew.
Tempered Mental played and they were really technical. Was nice to see some technical stuff after all the head banging rock that was being played that evening. I think they’re pretty good. TIGHT music.
All this while we were counting down the bands to our turn. Wee Liem and some of them came out after a while and said to us which he summed up the general consensus by our friends.(he wrote this in his BLOG http://weeliem.blogspot.com/)
"U guys are simply awesome! it was worth the trip all the way down, the RM14 i paid for my ticket and the numerous hours enduring other bands being wannabee-metal screaming bands, just to see PG165 win. coz if they hadn't won, a few of us guys had made a plan to beat the crap out of the PG165 members for making us go through all the crappy bands."
So we had some extra pressure which I wanted to dismiss and juz concentrate on why we were there, not just to win, but to make a difference with our music.
Finally we were ushered into backstage. It was about 12.30am. I realized that the defining moment had finally come. I guess I was beginning to feel a bit nervous and goin through the lyrics and stuff. We unpacked our stuff and guitars all tuned. We said a silent but earnest prayer as the other BOTB staff looked at us. The emcee checked with us. I could hear the other band slowly wrapping up their gig. I couldn’t stand the people smoking at backstage. Then the emcee finally said something like, ‘From Melaka…PG 165’…and then I could hear the people go into a frenzy(the friends who came to support us) as we made our way up the stage. I was plugging in my stuff and trying to make sure my settings were perfect and I could hear the CF people and some BOTB people cheering us and screaming and shouting ,' Vijay's so cute...Justin's so cute'. It was an awesome feeling. There we were. I shouted.’Apa khabar semua’ and I couldn’t decipher what the response was coz they were shouting and I was in my mind to start playing. My guitar sounded ALIVE…
Here it goes…SWITCHFOOT's Meant To Live which i dedicated to Awaken. (apparently the crowd knew the song ‘Meant to Live’ and broke into a frenzy when I announced our first number)…I striked the string, and Justin answered…and Vijay and Zhen Xin crashed in and it was symphony…seeing the heads bob up and down to the groove. I wasn’t sure if they could hear me sing…but I sang like I meant it...and savoured everything of the moment. At that time…all feelings of anxiety left us. As the song closed, I could see strangers in the middle of the crowd raise their hands in applause.
‘Waves of Glory’ was an instrumental that we wrote together. And personally it was the song that I feared most to perform becoz it was technical. I did not know if it would make the cut. But it was the most awesome experience as we jammed there...from some punk, to reggae... Each of us played bars of solo pieces. Justin did some finger tapping, Vijay played stuff that he did not play at the rehearsals which he kept in his head, Zhen Xin grooved something that he come out with just two days before, I juz did what I could. It was nice.
‘You’re Everything To Me’ was a slower song that I wrote and the band helped bring to live. Personally I felt something was out of tune as I tried singing.(my guitar suddenly kinda soft) I felt the bass was out of tune. Vijay said that it sounded perfect. I was a biit disappointed after that and was complaining at backstage that I sang out of tune as my friends were consolling me…hahaha…Anyway, I managed to say thank you to a very awesome crowd. Wished that we could have did that song again...actually wished we could play all night... But after that no one complained but feedback was they were blessed by the song…and they actually sang to it. I was pleasantly surprised by that. We hurried off stage feeling strangely in a land of euphoria.
Next: The results and the closing of Tones Of Absolution.
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
PG 165 unleashed at the Sound Test
Days prior to the event, I was getting kinda nervous about the whole thing. I kept telling people like Seong that I didn’t like the spotlight and the stage…furthermore they said that they were expecting 3000 people. Oh, and we had to draw lots to see who performs first and I drew out number 10. That’s like 3rd last band. We were scheduled to play at 11.15pm. That means we had to endure the anxiety of watching the others perform.
I did ask Justin if he was nervous, he said stuff like this doesn’t really wrack his nerves. Vijay and Zhen Xin also kinda lepak. I was feeling all sorts of emotions. Excited, nervous, anxious…I kept thinking about standing up there with nothing between me and the crowd but a microphone stand..hahaha. Anyway, we had our last rehearsal on Friday. Rachel, Rebecca, Michelle and Wee Liem came down to support us. Hung out with them for a while after rehearsal. (michelle said of making a big cardboard sign saying: Vijay I'm pregnant..hahah) That night, I couldn’t really sleep. There I was watching David Letterman…knowing that after this sleep, my waking will mean I have arrived on the 17th. So I guess I tried to stall that by not sleeping immediately. I was nervous,(it was about 3am) so I read a passage from the Bible, about an incident in Acts, where the early Christians were told to shut up or face the music. They prayed for boldness and the house shook coz of the power of God. So I did likewise…and was able to sleep around 4am.
On the morning of 17/7, they had a last briefing for the bands at MMU at 12pm, so I was able to see the rest of the bands…what a crowd…There was no break for us for we were asked to gather at MITC for sound test at 1.30. PG 165 went for lunch first. We reached MITC about 2. Guess what? They were still setting up the hall. Some UMNO function had taken place there and there was delay in the schedule. Vijay was there earlier(for once he was earlier than us) and he knew where the hall was…but he walked so fast up the escalator. He left me and Justin with our guitars, we walked right into an UMNO hall…and the told us were at the wrong place…all Vij’s fault...hahaha
Sound test was suppose to start at 1.30…(actually the sound test was suppose to be on Friday-messed up) but we only started around nearly 3pm. And we were the 10th band in line. So there begun the journey of jus lazing around the outskirts of the ballroom(venue). We made some friends in the band AWAKEN. They are really nice fellas that kept us company and helped to look after our stuff. We hung out with them till the end of the event. They were scheduled to play after us. We dedicated a song to them and they did likewise to us...haha
We saw Project Ei8ht sound test...it was really nice..
So there we were…having to listen to the other bands sound test before us. So some of them were showing their skills…searing guitar solos…drums…I did feel a biiiit intimated by some of those metal heads. We had to endure the bands sound test for a good 2 hours plus…by the time PG165’s turn came, it was about 5.30…no rest. Strangely, after waiting that long, we were getting very restless. Justin was playing with a coin and we were mucking around. All feelings of being intimated left me. I was getting weary and fed up of having to wait, so when our turn came. I just kinda went up the stage and plugged my stuff and made sure we didn’t do a remake of horrible settings as in the audition.
And just that 5 mins up there…I felt so excited that I felt like just jamming up there. But Vinder(band relations) said we hadn’t much time, so we had to cut it short and get the heck out of there. But it was unleashed…that passion of wanting to play and rock and sing…that PG165 had to suppress those feelings for a while and we couldn’t stop grinning(except Zxin coz the bass amp kinda sounded like it cracked) as we jumped off the stage. At that time, I was like…common, bring it on man…but we had to wait. It was 6pm…we needed to get home and bathe and eat. They told us to be back at 7.30…we couldn’t oblige coz we were just too tired. Suppressing those feelings of excitement, we went home to dress up/make up(vijay dyed his hair red man...dunno was it for a girl or wat LOL) and wait our turn….wow…tired but excited. Yeah, we got our band tags…cool…
Next…the night itself…and our friends who came and made a difference...
I did ask Justin if he was nervous, he said stuff like this doesn’t really wrack his nerves. Vijay and Zhen Xin also kinda lepak. I was feeling all sorts of emotions. Excited, nervous, anxious…I kept thinking about standing up there with nothing between me and the crowd but a microphone stand..hahaha. Anyway, we had our last rehearsal on Friday. Rachel, Rebecca, Michelle and Wee Liem came down to support us. Hung out with them for a while after rehearsal. (michelle said of making a big cardboard sign saying: Vijay I'm pregnant..hahah) That night, I couldn’t really sleep. There I was watching David Letterman…knowing that after this sleep, my waking will mean I have arrived on the 17th. So I guess I tried to stall that by not sleeping immediately. I was nervous,(it was about 3am) so I read a passage from the Bible, about an incident in Acts, where the early Christians were told to shut up or face the music. They prayed for boldness and the house shook coz of the power of God. So I did likewise…and was able to sleep around 4am.
On the morning of 17/7, they had a last briefing for the bands at MMU at 12pm, so I was able to see the rest of the bands…what a crowd…There was no break for us for we were asked to gather at MITC for sound test at 1.30. PG 165 went for lunch first. We reached MITC about 2. Guess what? They were still setting up the hall. Some UMNO function had taken place there and there was delay in the schedule. Vijay was there earlier(for once he was earlier than us) and he knew where the hall was…but he walked so fast up the escalator. He left me and Justin with our guitars, we walked right into an UMNO hall…and the told us were at the wrong place…all Vij’s fault...hahaha
Sound test was suppose to start at 1.30…(actually the sound test was suppose to be on Friday-messed up) but we only started around nearly 3pm. And we were the 10th band in line. So there begun the journey of jus lazing around the outskirts of the ballroom(venue). We made some friends in the band AWAKEN. They are really nice fellas that kept us company and helped to look after our stuff. We hung out with them till the end of the event. They were scheduled to play after us. We dedicated a song to them and they did likewise to us...haha
We saw Project Ei8ht sound test...it was really nice..
So there we were…having to listen to the other bands sound test before us. So some of them were showing their skills…searing guitar solos…drums…I did feel a biiiit intimated by some of those metal heads. We had to endure the bands sound test for a good 2 hours plus…by the time PG165’s turn came, it was about 5.30…no rest. Strangely, after waiting that long, we were getting very restless. Justin was playing with a coin and we were mucking around. All feelings of being intimated left me. I was getting weary and fed up of having to wait, so when our turn came. I just kinda went up the stage and plugged my stuff and made sure we didn’t do a remake of horrible settings as in the audition.
And just that 5 mins up there…I felt so excited that I felt like just jamming up there. But Vinder(band relations) said we hadn’t much time, so we had to cut it short and get the heck out of there. But it was unleashed…that passion of wanting to play and rock and sing…that PG165 had to suppress those feelings for a while and we couldn’t stop grinning(except Zxin coz the bass amp kinda sounded like it cracked) as we jumped off the stage. At that time, I was like…common, bring it on man…but we had to wait. It was 6pm…we needed to get home and bathe and eat. They told us to be back at 7.30…we couldn’t oblige coz we were just too tired. Suppressing those feelings of excitement, we went home to dress up/make up(vijay dyed his hair red man...dunno was it for a girl or wat LOL) and wait our turn….wow…tired but excited. Yeah, we got our band tags…cool…
Next…the night itself…and our friends who came and made a difference...
Monday, August 02, 2004
If I could paint my blog black today...
Today it rained...
Today is a sad day for me...sometimes we don't understand why things happen the way they do...
All we can do is hope beyond hope in a Great God..just like Abraham and Sarah at their old age.
Like David at Ziklag, to strengthen ourselves in God admist all the uncertainty...while his mighty man wept and spoke of stonning him.
Forgetting what lies behind...striving onward..to gain the prize..
Does Jesus know why we go through pain? Like when he delayed His coming and Mary and Martha's brother Lazarus died.. I reckon He would have known the grief they would experience...but why?
Somethings..sometimes we don't understand...but we must trust in our God who is big..bigger than everything else..
That was what i can remember from today's sermon..
Why do great men of God sometimes depart from our lives? Are we rendered sheepless? What shall I do when my commander in chief is taken away, when my teacher is removed? God help me...help me never forget the teachings, the life, the influence, the example...
God help me in my grief..
Today is a sad day for me...sometimes we don't understand why things happen the way they do...
All we can do is hope beyond hope in a Great God..just like Abraham and Sarah at their old age.
Like David at Ziklag, to strengthen ourselves in God admist all the uncertainty...while his mighty man wept and spoke of stonning him.
Forgetting what lies behind...striving onward..to gain the prize..
Does Jesus know why we go through pain? Like when he delayed His coming and Mary and Martha's brother Lazarus died.. I reckon He would have known the grief they would experience...but why?
Somethings..sometimes we don't understand...but we must trust in our God who is big..bigger than everything else..
That was what i can remember from today's sermon..
Why do great men of God sometimes depart from our lives? Are we rendered sheepless? What shall I do when my commander in chief is taken away, when my teacher is removed? God help me...help me never forget the teachings, the life, the influence, the example...
God help me in my grief..
Sunday, August 01, 2004
MMU BATTLE OF THE BANDS 2004
What VOCALIST?
Jason appears to be singing and playing a funny looking instrument.
BEST DRUMMER
That's Vijay...smilling only huh...happy dude..got one girl drummer kept shouting his name..
Shot at 2007-07-10
BEST ORIGINAL SONG
PG 165 ...1st Runner's up...but still an unforgettable moment. These guys are the best...we look funny on camera..all that funny smiles...ESTACY
Justin Lee
Best Drummer...Vijay in action.
Jason,"Eh, Zhen Xin...you rock
ZX: huh?
That Unbelievable feeling...
Amazed at what was unfolding before us...
The humble walk...
PG 165 in 2004...
The best friends in the whole wide world...
PG 165 now.
Deric our keybordist joined PG 165 in January 2005 to complete the line up and we've never looked back since.
It has been an awesome journey...
Let's look forward to greater things in God...
Auditions...
I apologize for not updating my blog sooner. I was having some technical problems with my phone line, so I couldn’t log on for a week.
The second part of my documented journey of PG 165 will mention about the audition that we had to attend. I remember clearly that it was the weekend after we came back from the one week holidays at Sunway Lagoon/Leader’s Training and classes had begun. Auditions was on the 3rd and 4th July. I guess the timing was kinda ok for me coz my mid terms was after that.
Our time slot was 4.45pm on the 3rd(Sat) and we were required to perform 2 songs(one self composed) within 10 mins I think…we had to edge 43 bands for the 6 places they were offering to the finalist. To tell you the truth, I was dead nervous about the whole thing. We had a string of rehearsals thoughout the week. And that’s when I began to feel fatigue. I guess lack of proper rest was taking it’s toll on me. I was losing my voice via a bad throat and I lead worship that week…I guess it wasn’t a very good week for us. I came down with a fever on Thurs. Justin had football training and were all kinda stretched. It was a bad weekend for me. Fever nearly killed me. Got my voice back on Thurs.
They had a band meeting and Vijay represented us. He asked the committee if You’re Everything to Me was offensive. The committee surrounded Vijay and screened the lyrics. Their conclusion…’Ok wat..at least they’re not Anti-Christ’. Haha
And they needed a name for our instrumental and Vijay named it "Waves of Glory". When he told us,,,we were like...Why lar? why? what kinda name is dat...sighs...
On that day, I was still down with fever I really felt cold, fatigue, sweaty. And I rode all the way to Viva Studio. There were all the rockers in different shapes and sizes loitering outside the studio, smoking etc. I could hear music pounding from the room. Justin was rushing to the audition from football prac. Nervous..
We kinda stood out from the rest I guess…non Bumiputra band. We were gonna sing Switchfoot’s Meant To Live and You’re Everything to Me which was composed.
There we were. The band before us was Scorpion Merah Saitama…and the guitarist was good. You kinda get that feeling of being intimated...all this rockers... Next was us, and we went up there to plug and play and pray hard that I didn't faint.
The one thing that I feared the most was using unfamiliar amps and not given a chance to test them. What if our music suck. What if we didn’t make an impression.
I was sweating profusely. I was setting my effects, they were looking at us. Ok…let’s rock.
I started the Switchfoot song, striking the guitar strings...Then in happened. The thing every guitarist dreads the most…the sound coming from the amp sounds like crap…and there was nothing I could do because we has started playing, this was an audition and not the time to be tinkering with knobs and EQ’s. I couldn’t hear my guitar, so there goes all the guitar parts. We scraped through Meant to Live(not much response frm the audience). Next was You’re Everything to Me, which bore Christian undertones and i saw the guy reading the lyrics as i sang…Adjusted the volume, still not much difference and I forgot the second line of the song (blank). I think Vijay played extremely well coz he was very tight. After that ordeal, we stepped out of the studio and hardly spoke to each other and went our separated ways…entertaining our thoughts. Personally I felt…it wasn’t good.
I went home and thought about it. And I switched on my TV and saw Nickleback with that guy playing his guitar in front of a crowd of supporters...and I said to myself…sigh, I guess we messed up the Auditions. Oh well, at least now don’t have to worry about the finals…sigh...my fever got better on Monday.
I just didn't want to think about it. I had 4 test in eight days...sighs...But on Tuesday, Zhen Xin came to me and said ,’eh..we made it’…And then Vijay, and then Justin. I couldn’t believe it at first. So it we had two weeks to prepare for MITC. Hahaha…but that gave me another problem…stage fright…sleepless nights of anticipation. But try to imagine the feeling of getting into the finals...43 bands man...and we didn't play our best...calculate...
I later found out that Justin and Vijay also thought we messed up the auditions but kept it to themselves. But I guess God honours those who trust in Him and not in their talents…haha…sometimes I think God does stuff in a funny way. Now we rehearsed with more jest. ..and to work on the Song,,,Waves of Glory..
It was nice to see us pull through this together, it was nice to see Justin, Vijay and Zxin smile. Now I at least begin mentioning the exsistance of PG 165 to my friends...
Next...how it felt on that night (17/7)...and Vijay's unhygenic hankie.
Do catch PG 165 at MMU CF Praise and Worship Night (10th August 2004) at YAC.
The second part of my documented journey of PG 165 will mention about the audition that we had to attend. I remember clearly that it was the weekend after we came back from the one week holidays at Sunway Lagoon/Leader’s Training and classes had begun. Auditions was on the 3rd and 4th July. I guess the timing was kinda ok for me coz my mid terms was after that.
Our time slot was 4.45pm on the 3rd(Sat) and we were required to perform 2 songs(one self composed) within 10 mins I think…we had to edge 43 bands for the 6 places they were offering to the finalist. To tell you the truth, I was dead nervous about the whole thing. We had a string of rehearsals thoughout the week. And that’s when I began to feel fatigue. I guess lack of proper rest was taking it’s toll on me. I was losing my voice via a bad throat and I lead worship that week…I guess it wasn’t a very good week for us. I came down with a fever on Thurs. Justin had football training and were all kinda stretched. It was a bad weekend for me. Fever nearly killed me. Got my voice back on Thurs.
They had a band meeting and Vijay represented us. He asked the committee if You’re Everything to Me was offensive. The committee surrounded Vijay and screened the lyrics. Their conclusion…’Ok wat..at least they’re not Anti-Christ’. Haha
And they needed a name for our instrumental and Vijay named it "Waves of Glory". When he told us,,,we were like...Why lar? why? what kinda name is dat...sighs...
On that day, I was still down with fever I really felt cold, fatigue, sweaty. And I rode all the way to Viva Studio. There were all the rockers in different shapes and sizes loitering outside the studio, smoking etc. I could hear music pounding from the room. Justin was rushing to the audition from football prac. Nervous..
We kinda stood out from the rest I guess…non Bumiputra band. We were gonna sing Switchfoot’s Meant To Live and You’re Everything to Me which was composed.
There we were. The band before us was Scorpion Merah Saitama…and the guitarist was good. You kinda get that feeling of being intimated...all this rockers... Next was us, and we went up there to plug and play and pray hard that I didn't faint.
The one thing that I feared the most was using unfamiliar amps and not given a chance to test them. What if our music suck. What if we didn’t make an impression.
I was sweating profusely. I was setting my effects, they were looking at us. Ok…let’s rock.
I started the Switchfoot song, striking the guitar strings...Then in happened. The thing every guitarist dreads the most…the sound coming from the amp sounds like crap…and there was nothing I could do because we has started playing, this was an audition and not the time to be tinkering with knobs and EQ’s. I couldn’t hear my guitar, so there goes all the guitar parts. We scraped through Meant to Live(not much response frm the audience). Next was You’re Everything to Me, which bore Christian undertones and i saw the guy reading the lyrics as i sang…Adjusted the volume, still not much difference and I forgot the second line of the song (blank). I think Vijay played extremely well coz he was very tight. After that ordeal, we stepped out of the studio and hardly spoke to each other and went our separated ways…entertaining our thoughts. Personally I felt…it wasn’t good.
I went home and thought about it. And I switched on my TV and saw Nickleback with that guy playing his guitar in front of a crowd of supporters...and I said to myself…sigh, I guess we messed up the Auditions. Oh well, at least now don’t have to worry about the finals…sigh...my fever got better on Monday.
I just didn't want to think about it. I had 4 test in eight days...sighs...But on Tuesday, Zhen Xin came to me and said ,’eh..we made it’…And then Vijay, and then Justin. I couldn’t believe it at first. So it we had two weeks to prepare for MITC. Hahaha…but that gave me another problem…stage fright…sleepless nights of anticipation. But try to imagine the feeling of getting into the finals...43 bands man...and we didn't play our best...calculate...
I later found out that Justin and Vijay also thought we messed up the auditions but kept it to themselves. But I guess God honours those who trust in Him and not in their talents…haha…sometimes I think God does stuff in a funny way. Now we rehearsed with more jest. ..and to work on the Song,,,Waves of Glory..
It was nice to see us pull through this together, it was nice to see Justin, Vijay and Zxin smile. Now I at least begin mentioning the exsistance of PG 165 to my friends...
Next...how it felt on that night (17/7)...and Vijay's unhygenic hankie.
Do catch PG 165 at MMU CF Praise and Worship Night (10th August 2004) at YAC.
Saturday, July 24, 2004
Tones Of Absolution
Winners of MMUsic :
Tones of Absolution
1st Place : Project Ei8ht
2nd Place : PG 165
3rd Place : Awaken
4th Place : Relic & Baind Merry
6th Place : Life of Violent Emotions
7th Place : Candle Lite Dinner
8th Place : Phoenix
9th Place : Raggamuffins
10th Place : Vendetta
11th Place : Scorpion Merah Saitama
12th Place : Plaster Cutter
Best Song : Waves of Glory [ PG 165 ]
Best Guitarist : Christopher Felix [ Project Ei8ht ]
Best Bassist : Mohd. Amar [ Life of Violent Emotions ]
Best Drummer : Vijay Raj [ PG 165 ]
Best Vocalist : Jason Teoh [ PG 165 ]
Tones of Absolution
1st Place : Project Ei8ht
2nd Place : PG 165
3rd Place : Awaken
4th Place : Relic & Baind Merry
6th Place : Life of Violent Emotions
7th Place : Candle Lite Dinner
8th Place : Phoenix
9th Place : Raggamuffins
10th Place : Vendetta
11th Place : Scorpion Merah Saitama
12th Place : Plaster Cutter
Best Song : Waves of Glory [ PG 165 ]
Best Guitarist : Christopher Felix [ Project Ei8ht ]
Best Bassist : Mohd. Amar [ Life of Violent Emotions ]
Best Drummer : Vijay Raj [ PG 165 ]
Best Vocalist : Jason Teoh [ PG 165 ]
PG 165 - The Beginning
These days it’s always raining…I have not accessed my blog since my last entry and I have not read anyone’s blog. My streamyx has encountered some problems and I am typing this offline at the moment…sigh.
Lots of good things have been happening to me the past one week… success of BOTB, great friends, got a car, streamyx guy came…wow. Trying to live a life of gratitude by not doing anything stupid.(seem to do lots of stupid things at times, God help!!!)
I have been meaning to document PG 165’s journey. Here it goes…the first part of it. How did it all start? I sat down with Vijay one day and we had one of those talks at a funny café that he brought me to. We spoke about the possibility of seriously starting a band. At that moment, I was indeed wondering whether it was the right timing? I knew that it was easier said than done. Would it be juz an idea, a dream? That night I left wondering what would materialize from our conversation. During that time, my circle of friends were experiencing personal problems, including myself…so it was a world wind of emontions.
I guess some weeks after that, I met a friend at the library at the topic of BOTB(Battle of The Bands) came out and she told me that band selection was over…I thought to myself…We missed the chance and felt disappointed. I later found out that it was wrong info and we could download the forms. Justin, Zhen Xin, Vj and I began the journey when we agreed to take the challenge and we sat down to discuss the possible songs and band name. Band names such as ‘Band Aid’, ‘All Shapes and Sizes’, etc came and went…by divine revelation or freak brilliance, I can’t recall how we came to it but Zhen Xin’s WWar II motorcycle bearing the plate PG165 juz kinda clicked coz we all had an affection for that bike(it’s antique). We were also discussing a suitable cover song to play and we decided on Switchfoot’s Meant to Live(other selections were Love Song for a Savior, Iris, I’d do Anything)…from there on there was this sense of excitement and questions like, ‘Can we do this?’. We needed a self composed song as a pre-requisite to participate…so I tried modifying a song that I had been working on for a few months and kinda decided to propose it entitled, ‘You’re Everything to Me’ We needed all these details coz we wanted to submit the forms + lyrics before the deadline. At that time of mid terms and assignments, it was all pretty vague at that moment.
Auditions was scheduled on 3 & 4 July…we had about two weeks to prepare. Our choice venue for rehearsals was at God’s Garage at my church, Gateway CF. Our first rehearsal was on the 19th June the Saturday before the one week hols, before we went Sunway Lagoon. I remember my conversation with Vijay about ‘You’re Everything to Me’…he asked me if we had an alternative song coz it had Christian overtones in it and may not have gone well with the mainstream judging. The band decided to pray about it and enquire about it from Tones of Absolution committee.
From the start, I expressed my conviction about PG165…I said I don’t wanna stereotype our band as a ‘Christian Band’ or ‘THE BAND FROM CF’…I hate all that stereotyping by people, what’s wrong being Christians, yet starting a band? …but neither did I want us to forget our roots and core beliefs and convictions, one of them is to ultimately touch lives for Christ via our music (be it mainstream, contemporary, or even traditional). It felt kinda weird at first, but we mustered enough courage to not be ashamed to pray for God’s favour and thanking Him for talents EACH time before each jamming session. Nobody protested, we all submitted. Our first rehearsal filled me with confidence.
I guess, God has a funny way of bringing the four of us together for this project. We became better friends over that time span of rehearsals. Zhen Xin’s car was the ‘gig van’. We piled all our instruments inside it and he drove it around every time we needed it.
We started jamming as regularly as possible through out the week. I really salute the guys for their commitment to the project. Sometimes we jammed at 9.30am(that’s early). Justin had a football tournament at that time(so he was really stretched between training and rehearsals + studies and CF)…but he never complained about it and came and did his part. Zhen Xin the gentle giant, always offered to drive 8km to Gateway, never complained. Vijay had always been an encouragement to me via sharing the same passion in this, his enthusiasm is matched by his drumming skills. Evidently it was a team effort and was never a one man show right from the start. I guess the journey started well coz we made some right choices in the beginning and saw exciting consequences…
I was reluctant to tell people about PG165 and what we were at that time until we had made it through the auditions. I made discreet mentions about it in my blog.
Next up…AUDITIONS…43 bands and only 12 finalists eligible. So it was very intimidating.
And the development of Waves of Glory (best original song) and Vijay’s unhygienic hankie.
Check out some photos here:
http://eema.fotopages.com/?entry=163689
Lots of good things have been happening to me the past one week… success of BOTB, great friends, got a car, streamyx guy came…wow. Trying to live a life of gratitude by not doing anything stupid.(seem to do lots of stupid things at times, God help!!!)
I have been meaning to document PG 165’s journey. Here it goes…the first part of it. How did it all start? I sat down with Vijay one day and we had one of those talks at a funny café that he brought me to. We spoke about the possibility of seriously starting a band. At that moment, I was indeed wondering whether it was the right timing? I knew that it was easier said than done. Would it be juz an idea, a dream? That night I left wondering what would materialize from our conversation. During that time, my circle of friends were experiencing personal problems, including myself…so it was a world wind of emontions.
I guess some weeks after that, I met a friend at the library at the topic of BOTB(Battle of The Bands) came out and she told me that band selection was over…I thought to myself…We missed the chance and felt disappointed. I later found out that it was wrong info and we could download the forms. Justin, Zhen Xin, Vj and I began the journey when we agreed to take the challenge and we sat down to discuss the possible songs and band name. Band names such as ‘Band Aid’, ‘All Shapes and Sizes’, etc came and went…by divine revelation or freak brilliance, I can’t recall how we came to it but Zhen Xin’s WWar II motorcycle bearing the plate PG165 juz kinda clicked coz we all had an affection for that bike(it’s antique). We were also discussing a suitable cover song to play and we decided on Switchfoot’s Meant to Live(other selections were Love Song for a Savior, Iris, I’d do Anything)…from there on there was this sense of excitement and questions like, ‘Can we do this?’. We needed a self composed song as a pre-requisite to participate…so I tried modifying a song that I had been working on for a few months and kinda decided to propose it entitled, ‘You’re Everything to Me’ We needed all these details coz we wanted to submit the forms + lyrics before the deadline. At that time of mid terms and assignments, it was all pretty vague at that moment.
Auditions was scheduled on 3 & 4 July…we had about two weeks to prepare. Our choice venue for rehearsals was at God’s Garage at my church, Gateway CF. Our first rehearsal was on the 19th June the Saturday before the one week hols, before we went Sunway Lagoon. I remember my conversation with Vijay about ‘You’re Everything to Me’…he asked me if we had an alternative song coz it had Christian overtones in it and may not have gone well with the mainstream judging. The band decided to pray about it and enquire about it from Tones of Absolution committee.
From the start, I expressed my conviction about PG165…I said I don’t wanna stereotype our band as a ‘Christian Band’ or ‘THE BAND FROM CF’…I hate all that stereotyping by people, what’s wrong being Christians, yet starting a band? …but neither did I want us to forget our roots and core beliefs and convictions, one of them is to ultimately touch lives for Christ via our music (be it mainstream, contemporary, or even traditional). It felt kinda weird at first, but we mustered enough courage to not be ashamed to pray for God’s favour and thanking Him for talents EACH time before each jamming session. Nobody protested, we all submitted. Our first rehearsal filled me with confidence.
I guess, God has a funny way of bringing the four of us together for this project. We became better friends over that time span of rehearsals. Zhen Xin’s car was the ‘gig van’. We piled all our instruments inside it and he drove it around every time we needed it.
We started jamming as regularly as possible through out the week. I really salute the guys for their commitment to the project. Sometimes we jammed at 9.30am(that’s early). Justin had a football tournament at that time(so he was really stretched between training and rehearsals + studies and CF)…but he never complained about it and came and did his part. Zhen Xin the gentle giant, always offered to drive 8km to Gateway, never complained. Vijay had always been an encouragement to me via sharing the same passion in this, his enthusiasm is matched by his drumming skills. Evidently it was a team effort and was never a one man show right from the start. I guess the journey started well coz we made some right choices in the beginning and saw exciting consequences…
I was reluctant to tell people about PG165 and what we were at that time until we had made it through the auditions. I made discreet mentions about it in my blog.
Next up…AUDITIONS…43 bands and only 12 finalists eligible. So it was very intimidating.
And the development of Waves of Glory (best original song) and Vijay’s unhygienic hankie.
Check out some photos here:
http://eema.fotopages.com/?entry=163689
Sunday, July 18, 2004
A Special Tribute
It's 4.45 pm in the evening...I am surprised at the various status my YM friends have adorned...paying various tributes to PG165...now I kinda understand that you are nothing much without friends and supporters...
As I was just reflecting on the past events...of course a wave of euphoria comes over me. Kinda strange to be in these moments of silence...when the past few days was juz pure hectic runnin around and an extremely enormous amount of stage fright that grips me when i laid to sleep the past few days...
I guess much has been going through my mind, so many memories, so many smiles, the adrenaline rush, the lights, the smoke, the MOMENT, the intenseness, the noise, the cheers...
Can't seem to handle all the mixed emotions all at once...but as I was juz sitting around, i felt that God deserves all the tribute, so i just took out my accoustic guitar and sang, and i juz wanna honour Him coz He's so great and His grace covers us, covers me when I'm a total mess.
You laid aside Your majesty
Gave up everything for me
Suffered at the hands
Of those You have created
You took all my guilt and shame
When You died and rose again
Now today You reign
In Heaven and Earth exalted
I really want to worship You my Lord
You have won my heart
And I am Yours
Forever and ever
I will love You
You are the only one
Who died for me
Gave Your life
To set me free
So I lift my voice to You
In adoration
God...PG165 isn't ashamed to be belonging to You...we are eternally grateful for Your grace and for saving us...that's why our talents are Yours. You amaze us.
As I was just reflecting on the past events...of course a wave of euphoria comes over me. Kinda strange to be in these moments of silence...when the past few days was juz pure hectic runnin around and an extremely enormous amount of stage fright that grips me when i laid to sleep the past few days...
I guess much has been going through my mind, so many memories, so many smiles, the adrenaline rush, the lights, the smoke, the MOMENT, the intenseness, the noise, the cheers...
Can't seem to handle all the mixed emotions all at once...but as I was juz sitting around, i felt that God deserves all the tribute, so i just took out my accoustic guitar and sang, and i juz wanna honour Him coz He's so great and His grace covers us, covers me when I'm a total mess.
You laid aside Your majesty
Gave up everything for me
Suffered at the hands
Of those You have created
You took all my guilt and shame
When You died and rose again
Now today You reign
In Heaven and Earth exalted
I really want to worship You my Lord
You have won my heart
And I am Yours
Forever and ever
I will love You
You are the only one
Who died for me
Gave Your life
To set me free
So I lift my voice to You
In adoration
God...PG165 isn't ashamed to be belonging to You...we are eternally grateful for Your grace and for saving us...that's why our talents are Yours. You amaze us.
Thursday, July 15, 2004
A memorable Journey so far...
Exams finally finished on Monday,,,what a week...4 exams in 8 days..the last paper was so draggy...just wanted to get over it.
After that..the next day was juz lazing around and enjoying that feeling of no more papers for now...hahaa..what a waste of time.
CF..I really enjoyed the way Justin and Joash did the Bible Quiz...their opening skit was lame but cool...KUDOS guys.
Was raining..so followed Vijay's car. Had a good chat at his place after that.
Have been gelling with PG165...it has been a tremdous experience for me..to see the gang so committed to this project.
It's great to see us insulting each other coz we know we can do that and laugh about it at the end of the day...i guess that level of friendship is there.
i have been meaning to document this journey...but not in this entry..
Anyways..those reading my blog..do come and support PG 165 this Saturday at MITC, Tones of Absolution. We are competing with 11 other bands. Tickets are availble at the MMU music booth for rm12..if you buy it at MITC..it will be rm14.
At the moment..i am taking a step at a time...it has been a memorable journey for me and PG 165.
After that..the next day was juz lazing around and enjoying that feeling of no more papers for now...hahaa..what a waste of time.
CF..I really enjoyed the way Justin and Joash did the Bible Quiz...their opening skit was lame but cool...KUDOS guys.
Was raining..so followed Vijay's car. Had a good chat at his place after that.
Have been gelling with PG165...it has been a tremdous experience for me..to see the gang so committed to this project.
It's great to see us insulting each other coz we know we can do that and laugh about it at the end of the day...i guess that level of friendship is there.
i have been meaning to document this journey...but not in this entry..
Anyways..those reading my blog..do come and support PG 165 this Saturday at MITC, Tones of Absolution. We are competing with 11 other bands. Tickets are availble at the MMU music booth for rm12..if you buy it at MITC..it will be rm14.
At the moment..i am taking a step at a time...it has been a memorable journey for me and PG 165.
Monday, July 12, 2004
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Saturday, July 10, 2004
Of Macroni, Cheese and Spiderman
Had a test yesterday(Thurs)...was ok..We had Macroni and cheese mixed with shreds of ham for CG yesterday at Samuel Yau's house. It was the first time i traveled to Sam's house on my own..somewhere near MITC. I guess my sense of direction is pretty ok, since i was using Solomon's hand drawn map...but there's this one long and dark road that you need to travel before reaching his house...pretty scary coz u start to think of all the weird stories...and i kept looking in my rear-view mirror.
It was a Ladies Night for our CG where the guys did the cooking and the girls suppose to wash up, but we did the washing anyway.(din know Joash could cut onions so well and he was boasting cos he wan't crying). The girls were watching a musical on tv. Kudos to Abel for being a good CG leader..and Sam for his recipe...oh, we had a new girl in town,...Joanne..a NS kid...haha..Cg with all the ladies...
I woke up today(Fri) around 11am, and decided to catch Spiderman 2..since i am the few who haven't watched..and my cg leader claims he's Spiderman ...the first show was at 12. So I rushed there and managed to get a ticket. Some of my friends think me weird watching alone...called me a 'sadist' once.. Well, I guess i juz managed to sqeeze some time there to watch it...alone...kinda get use to it.
It was trully a splendid movie...really good..the best i'v seen in months.
Tomorow will be another long day. Another test again..and another test on Monday...having band prac ar 9am..the first in a week. A good one week break.
trying to stick my neck above the traffic of business this week. Need grace...not in the mood...cheer me up..
nitez.
It was a Ladies Night for our CG where the guys did the cooking and the girls suppose to wash up, but we did the washing anyway.(din know Joash could cut onions so well and he was boasting cos he wan't crying). The girls were watching a musical on tv. Kudos to Abel for being a good CG leader..and Sam for his recipe...oh, we had a new girl in town,...Joanne..a NS kid...haha..Cg with all the ladies...
I woke up today(Fri) around 11am, and decided to catch Spiderman 2..since i am the few who haven't watched..and my cg leader claims he's Spiderman ...the first show was at 12. So I rushed there and managed to get a ticket. Some of my friends think me weird watching alone...called me a 'sadist' once.. Well, I guess i juz managed to sqeeze some time there to watch it...alone...kinda get use to it.
It was trully a splendid movie...really good..the best i'v seen in months.
Tomorow will be another long day. Another test again..and another test on Monday...having band prac ar 9am..the first in a week. A good one week break.
trying to stick my neck above the traffic of business this week. Need grace...not in the mood...cheer me up..
nitez.
Thursday, July 08, 2004
In The Secret, In The Quiet Place....
Today's Wednesday...Woke up late...cause i didn't sleep well...was getting symptoms of stage fright.
But I kinda regretted sleeping late. I needed this day to do lots of studying for my test this Thursday..but evidently i did not really get to study as much as i wanted.
Today we had our weekly committee prayer meeting. I struggled to go coz of the blazing heat. I came in just in time for a very insightful sharing session among our committee.
"Please share when was the time you actually got serious with God and your faith" (paraphrased)
So we went in one big circle...and i was like the 2nd last person to share. So i heard everyone tell of their walk with God and i realised that all of us are at different levels of faith and in our walk. It's a blessing to hear ordinary ppl with their struggles and doubts, yet pressing on to know God in their own way.
I kinda fumbled with my words when it came my turn to share. That troubled me. I asked myself...have i compromised so much in my walk, that i find it hard to speak with conviction and confidence about what i know in my head...but was it dear to my heart.??
I guess that's following God NOW when you'r a little older, with more head knowledge and more crap in your head,internet, can be tougher, less a bed of roses.
In those earlier years as a teen grew up spending my weekends at church...and me and wee liem have this in common...we don't...NEVER regretted that. I guess not coming from a purely Christian home actually made me more independent as a youth, that i wanted to seek God. When i was in secondary school, no one drove me to church at one time..i cycled..now I ride, or drive. I must be the very few from my peer group...who didn't get chauffered to church.
Pastor Joshua has always been my favourite pastor...who had always advocated that a relationship with God is that of uttermost importance. And setting aside time to commune with Him daily is a must for those who yearn to know Him. He thought me the walk and he walks the talk himself.. So that helped me to actually take time to do it for myself...at 13 years old. And when i started learning guitar, i enjoyed playing it during those times of devotion...trying to learn love this God...and many times feeling His love although i can't love myself...learn to hear His voice and what pleases Him and what doesn't. It's an intimate closet...something that many preachers have charged us again and again to guard it jealously... I can't get my life right when this area suffers...i noticed that..
Doing those quiet times...I struggle with that...and i'm still learning to be like Enoch...'Enoch walked with God...and one day he was no more coz God took him'...i mean you get the point...
so i hope all you ppl out there take time to check God out with His word,,,coz when u start working, and you wanna start doing this, it will be hard...so follow your God now.
nitez...
p/s...check out the MMU Bulletin Board for Tones of Absolution finalist....i think it's Wendesday's bulletin...look out for PG 165.
But I kinda regretted sleeping late. I needed this day to do lots of studying for my test this Thursday..but evidently i did not really get to study as much as i wanted.
Today we had our weekly committee prayer meeting. I struggled to go coz of the blazing heat. I came in just in time for a very insightful sharing session among our committee.
"Please share when was the time you actually got serious with God and your faith" (paraphrased)
So we went in one big circle...and i was like the 2nd last person to share. So i heard everyone tell of their walk with God and i realised that all of us are at different levels of faith and in our walk. It's a blessing to hear ordinary ppl with their struggles and doubts, yet pressing on to know God in their own way.
I kinda fumbled with my words when it came my turn to share. That troubled me. I asked myself...have i compromised so much in my walk, that i find it hard to speak with conviction and confidence about what i know in my head...but was it dear to my heart.??
I guess that's following God NOW when you'r a little older, with more head knowledge and more crap in your head,internet, can be tougher, less a bed of roses.
In those earlier years as a teen grew up spending my weekends at church...and me and wee liem have this in common...we don't...NEVER regretted that. I guess not coming from a purely Christian home actually made me more independent as a youth, that i wanted to seek God. When i was in secondary school, no one drove me to church at one time..i cycled..now I ride, or drive. I must be the very few from my peer group...who didn't get chauffered to church.
Pastor Joshua has always been my favourite pastor...who had always advocated that a relationship with God is that of uttermost importance. And setting aside time to commune with Him daily is a must for those who yearn to know Him. He thought me the walk and he walks the talk himself.. So that helped me to actually take time to do it for myself...at 13 years old. And when i started learning guitar, i enjoyed playing it during those times of devotion...trying to learn love this God...and many times feeling His love although i can't love myself...learn to hear His voice and what pleases Him and what doesn't. It's an intimate closet...something that many preachers have charged us again and again to guard it jealously... I can't get my life right when this area suffers...i noticed that..
Doing those quiet times...I struggle with that...and i'm still learning to be like Enoch...'Enoch walked with God...and one day he was no more coz God took him'...i mean you get the point...
so i hope all you ppl out there take time to check God out with His word,,,coz when u start working, and you wanna start doing this, it will be hard...so follow your God now.
nitez...
p/s...check out the MMU Bulletin Board for Tones of Absolution finalist....i think it's Wendesday's bulletin...look out for PG 165.
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Mum, Dad and God
HOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Finally I can jump and I can sing and I can do all the things a healthy and well person can. Sorry guys for the silence after my last post. It has been truly a very testing weekend for me. My health had been deteriorating since Wednesday.
Thursday
My day started with mum asking me why was I not waking up for my classes. I was feeling weak and heavy headed and had an inflamed throat. So clearly I was in a very surly mood…and said I couldn’t answer so much coz I feel sick and my throat is sore. I went to the Doctor (Wee Liem’s dad). And he gave me lots of medicine. I thought…yay…hope I get my voice again.
Took a nap…and…there it was…the fever. Well…it was normal. Poped some penadols and let’s get this over with. Was I in for a ride.
I preferred to lie in bed than go CG that day. Had a hard time sleeping but managed to do so.
Friday
Fever still there…enduring it. I felt slightly better in the evening so I tried going to the lib around 4 to study. I was ok until about 6. I got home half dead and burning hot. I juz rushed upstairs with my jeans and socks and juz collapsed into bed. My mom was kinda worried and told me not to go out at all. She broght me my medicine...more tablets. I was too sick to argue…Mum left for work around 8.30pm(she works shifts as a nurse). I disobeyed her and went for band prac coz my mates won’t rehearse if I couldn’t.
When I got home at around 10.30…it was raining. Zhen Xin was kind enought to drive me home and Vijay would send my bike over the next day...thanks guys. I dived under the covers and juz shivered. There I was…just shivering…no one there…for 45 mins…I smsed some friends..then I realized I better get help before I die…so I called my dad…mum… They wanted me admited to the hospital my mum was working at...i didn't want admission...not unless it was the last resort.
My temp was 39.5C. My saviour was my dad who took me to his place and cared for me in my weakest state…He’s in the nursing line too so he knows all the medic stuff. So he cooled my head with some cool stuff in a cloth and gave me medicine and wrapped me up. And I managed to drop off to sleep around 2…back to the doctor the next day. My mum took over my dad when she came home and was my heroine till I got well. Cold cloth remedy on my forehead. They stayed with me till i dropped off to sleep in the wee hours of the mornin...I have the coolest parents on earth...I think i have the most down to earth, approchable, supportive parents...not those grouchy stuck up ones that i know off...yeesh
Fever was there for the next few days...in those days I realized how frail life is. I can't even fight 'fever'...yet i dare to challenge God via my daily disobedience. I found myself lying on the bed muttering prayers, pouring my soul, like the psalmist pleading with God to deliver me frm this evil. I also realised how important my parents are to me, and how much they worry for me when I am ill.
My thoughts also trailed to the people I missed and loved..and I wonder if i was being missed, was i being loved, was i remembered...i longed to hear that voice...but i it did not come...i longed for that affection, but i could see none...i longed to hear that voice...more than all the talents in the world, more than all the greatness and success...i longed...that feeling still persists...even as i write this.
Here I will end...so much to tell, too long a blog...thanks for all the prayers.
My tribute to PG 165(Vijay,Justin,ZhenXin)...we did the unbelieveble. to tell you the truth, i couldn't belive the news. 43 bands(5 non-bumi) with half the organizing committee also playin, 6 places...and to be in one of the 6...it jus blows my mind apart...especially in my sickly sweaty state, and horribe amp settings...Vijay...your tightness saved us. Remeber your roots guys, dun be like those who forget their God in their success. pray alwiz.
More on that later...in another entry of this blog.
4 papers in one week,,,do the math.
His strength is perfect
When our strenth is gone
He'll carry us when we can't carry on
Raised in His power, the weak become strong
His strength is perfect.
Words and music by Steven Curtis Chapman
Finally I can jump and I can sing and I can do all the things a healthy and well person can. Sorry guys for the silence after my last post. It has been truly a very testing weekend for me. My health had been deteriorating since Wednesday.
Thursday
My day started with mum asking me why was I not waking up for my classes. I was feeling weak and heavy headed and had an inflamed throat. So clearly I was in a very surly mood…and said I couldn’t answer so much coz I feel sick and my throat is sore. I went to the Doctor (Wee Liem’s dad). And he gave me lots of medicine. I thought…yay…hope I get my voice again.
Took a nap…and…there it was…the fever. Well…it was normal. Poped some penadols and let’s get this over with. Was I in for a ride.
I preferred to lie in bed than go CG that day. Had a hard time sleeping but managed to do so.
Friday
Fever still there…enduring it. I felt slightly better in the evening so I tried going to the lib around 4 to study. I was ok until about 6. I got home half dead and burning hot. I juz rushed upstairs with my jeans and socks and juz collapsed into bed. My mom was kinda worried and told me not to go out at all. She broght me my medicine...more tablets. I was too sick to argue…Mum left for work around 8.30pm(she works shifts as a nurse). I disobeyed her and went for band prac coz my mates won’t rehearse if I couldn’t.
When I got home at around 10.30…it was raining. Zhen Xin was kind enought to drive me home and Vijay would send my bike over the next day...thanks guys. I dived under the covers and juz shivered. There I was…just shivering…no one there…for 45 mins…I smsed some friends..then I realized I better get help before I die…so I called my dad…mum… They wanted me admited to the hospital my mum was working at...i didn't want admission...not unless it was the last resort.
My temp was 39.5C. My saviour was my dad who took me to his place and cared for me in my weakest state…He’s in the nursing line too so he knows all the medic stuff. So he cooled my head with some cool stuff in a cloth and gave me medicine and wrapped me up. And I managed to drop off to sleep around 2…back to the doctor the next day. My mum took over my dad when she came home and was my heroine till I got well. Cold cloth remedy on my forehead. They stayed with me till i dropped off to sleep in the wee hours of the mornin...I have the coolest parents on earth...I think i have the most down to earth, approchable, supportive parents...not those grouchy stuck up ones that i know off...yeesh
Fever was there for the next few days...in those days I realized how frail life is. I can't even fight 'fever'...yet i dare to challenge God via my daily disobedience. I found myself lying on the bed muttering prayers, pouring my soul, like the psalmist pleading with God to deliver me frm this evil. I also realised how important my parents are to me, and how much they worry for me when I am ill.
My thoughts also trailed to the people I missed and loved..and I wonder if i was being missed, was i being loved, was i remembered...i longed to hear that voice...but i it did not come...i longed for that affection, but i could see none...i longed to hear that voice...more than all the talents in the world, more than all the greatness and success...i longed...that feeling still persists...even as i write this.
Here I will end...so much to tell, too long a blog...thanks for all the prayers.
My tribute to PG 165(Vijay,Justin,ZhenXin)...we did the unbelieveble. to tell you the truth, i couldn't belive the news. 43 bands(5 non-bumi) with half the organizing committee also playin, 6 places...and to be in one of the 6...it jus blows my mind apart...especially in my sickly sweaty state, and horribe amp settings...Vijay...your tightness saved us. Remeber your roots guys, dun be like those who forget their God in their success. pray alwiz.
More on that later...in another entry of this blog.
4 papers in one week,,,do the math.
His strength is perfect
When our strenth is gone
He'll carry us when we can't carry on
Raised in His power, the weak become strong
His strength is perfect.
Words and music by Steven Curtis Chapman
Thursday, July 01, 2004
Sometimes i wonder...
Wednesday...
Voice still bad...
Saw a close friend(Chester) who was my highschool classmate off. His goin sailing..that's his job, a marine engineer..me and justin brought him for lunch at Simply Fish.
Went home and rested.
Attended a scriptwriter's meeting just now..was good.
Have to wait some more for the NOC Vcd ain't ready yet coz the guy's pc crashed..pretty discouraged, but the gang told me to not worry but trust that it will be ok.
My dog has been vomitting blood. He's kinda old. I hope he lives a good more years. I seem to be losing a lot of stuff that's close to me in such a short period of time...kinda wonder how much i can take...
Hope i get my voice back.
nitez
p/s. If anyone messes with my message box, juz one thing straight..i am not gay.
Voice still bad...
Saw a close friend(Chester) who was my highschool classmate off. His goin sailing..that's his job, a marine engineer..me and justin brought him for lunch at Simply Fish.
Went home and rested.
Attended a scriptwriter's meeting just now..was good.
Have to wait some more for the NOC Vcd ain't ready yet coz the guy's pc crashed..pretty discouraged, but the gang told me to not worry but trust that it will be ok.
My dog has been vomitting blood. He's kinda old. I hope he lives a good more years. I seem to be losing a lot of stuff that's close to me in such a short period of time...kinda wonder how much i can take...
Hope i get my voice back.
nitez
p/s. If anyone messes with my message box, juz one thing straight..i am not gay.