Sedih...

 Sedih sangat bila mengenangkan our brothers and sisters Palestinian. Bila dah jumpa ramai orang Arab, kawan-kawan pun orang Arab yang ramai antaranya dari Yaman, mereka ini bukan nya kasar seperti yang di gembar gembur sebelum ni. Ms di USM dulu ada kenalan dari Palestine, doctor gigi. Muka mak aih cantik, baik dan lemah lembut je orang nya. Ex-lecturer pun ada Palestinian, baik orang nya. Kawan-kawan dari Arab, lelaki dan perempuan, baik dan tidak kasar. Maka, perception aku terhadap golongan Arab sudah berubah. Mungkin ada yang agak kasar, muka seperti orang dari tanah Arab, tapi mungkin dari negara selain kawan-kawan yang aku sebutkan tadi.

Selain itu, sejak Al-Aqsa diserang. Aku mula nak tahu kehidupan orang Yahudi yang kufur, perangai mereka etc.. aku dapat simpulkan... apa yang disebutkan dalam al-quran semuanya tepat dan benar walaupun mereka tu bukan Zionist. Period.

Semoga Allah membantu kita. Aku dah x sanggup nak melihat video2 orang Islam diseksa. Sedih sangat. 

My life journey: Kemam

I read a book which was written by my friend about her life, really inspired me to write about myself too. I am just an ordinary person, nobody wants to know about me, but at least I can 'leave' something to my children. To tell indirectly why I am acting like this or like that. Besides, others may also learn something from what I have gone through life, at least. InshaAllah, from now on, I will write it by the name of a person, from birth until now.

My name is Norhafizah, nur means light and hafizah is guardian which was given by my Ayahde named Mahadi, my mother's big brother. I am very grateful to have him as my uncle, a brave, he used to be school primary teacher at so many places including kampung orang Asli. I want to continue my story with Bahasa because I felt more comfort with it. My ayahde ni selalunya tidak sependapat dengan kemeterian Pendidikan sering bersuara jika sesuatu keputusan tidak kene dengan jiwanya. Oleh kerana itu beliau sering di hantar ke sekolah-sekolah yang jauh di hutan belantara. Dan aku rasa perangai aku juga ada sedikit terpengaruh dengan sifat beliau yang berani itu. Masa kecil-kecil aku selalu melepak di rumah nya hingga petang. Tika itu dia bertugas di SK Chini 3 dan 5. Dia hanya takut tuhan, Allah yang maha Esa. Ayahde punya sebelas orang anak, namun seorang daripadanya telah bertemu tuhan akibat kecelekaan jalan raya.  Ku panggilnya Kemam, kami bukan sebaya, aku tua empat tahun dari almarhumah. Comel budak nya. Putih melepak, hidungnya mancung persis hindustan. Peristiwa yang paling aku ingat adalah kami pernah hampir lemas di sungai lubuk jik. Lubuk tersebut agak popular dikalangan pencinta alam semula jadi. Menjadi tumpuan ramai ketika cuti sekolah. Juga tempat 'merendek' buat muda mudi. Ketika itu aku dalam lingkungan 12 tahun, mandi di lubuk tersebut dengan si Kemam ketika pulang ke kampung. Sedang kami mandi dengan gembiranya, aku dan almarhumah telah tidak sengaja berada di kawasan deras. Tiba-tiba kami hanyut di bawa arus!. Ya Allah.. tolonglah kami.. aku sempat memaut sebatang dahan yang agak besar. Alhamdulillah, syukur sangat. Aku memegang sekuatnya tangan sepupu ku itu.

"Kemam, pegang klong kuat2!"

"Tapi kain Kemam nak terlondeh ni" sambil dia memegang kain batiknya. Kami berdua berkemban sebenarnya. Haha. Teruk betul.

"Kemam nak mati ke, nak malu?" jawabku pantas.

"Kemam tak nak mati". Dia terus memaut tangan ku, dibiarkan kain nya itu terselak sedikit. Lagipun di situ tiada manusia. Kawasan sekitar penuh dengan lalang-lalang.

Akhirnya kami terselamat. Setelah itu, kami salin baju dan terus pulang ke rumah tok dan tokki menaiki basikal tua milik nenek ku.

Aku sayang dia, seorang yang suka membantu orang dalam kesusahan. Semoga rohnya tenang disana dan di masukkan ke dalam syurga. Semoga kita dapat berjumpa lagi Kemam! Kaklong really miss u.

Lubuk jik

Assalamualaikum..

COVID19 Pademic. 

One shot, sudden and dangerous life by little tiny Allah's creature. Our life have changed 360 degree since we been attacked by corona virus which was originated in Wuhan. Do not know what are the total cases and death right now but it reduced daily. Alhamdulillah. 

Starting from middle of March until mid-June everything is difference #stayathome #wearmask #washhand. Year of 2020 will be remembered as unexpected year for me. Political crisis, corona virus, no school, online class with children at home, loosing job and movement control order. And also gaining weight!

My routines everyday starts with bangun subuh without tidur semula, settle all the cooking, house chores, and no gadget for kids in the morning. Starting je at 2pm. Ibu will busy with office work, all kids with their screen. Abah goes to work most of the day, unless if ibu need go to office physically. At 6pm onward everyone must do physical activity and not allowed to enter the house before 7pm.  

And now we try to live together with this virus normally. May Allah protect us. InshaAllah we can get rid of completely soon!

#staysafe #stayhealthy

Hi everyone!

Mesti ada yang rindu kita kan sbb dah lama x bersua :)

Dah setahun lebih dah rupanya, cepatnya masa berlalu! 

introducing the latest member in our family....

Wafa Amani bt Ahmad Naufal!

Kelahiran yg ke tiga.. untuk anak yg ke 5

Assalamualaikum.. salam ramadhan everyone.

Usually, moms who support or practice homebirth or natural birth are proud with their birth story. They will share on the web about the chronolgy on how they gave birth 'successfully'. I am not neither the person who practice natural birth nor homebirth supporter. I am an allopathy believer with sometimes also practice homeopathy when necessary. ;)

Wafa Amani, the name given to my fifth child, see the world from my womb by spontaneous vaginal delivery (SVD). Alhamdulillah. I think this time the process was better than previous deliveries. I was quite relax and know what to do time to time.

Starting had 'pink' spot on 8 june after zuhor without pain or contraction. On that day husna and nazhan at home. Kids were on school holiday. adam at kampung, aisha at taska and abah was working. Because I had no contraction, i decided to go to DIY to buy them toys as a reward for their good attitude in that week.

I never had this sign before. During my previous deliveries, my waterbag broke (adam) and had contraction (aishah). My friends suggested to check baby's heart beats and we went to hospital after asar. After done with registration, wait for midwife check the os. They were busy with so many cases on that day. Finally, I met her at 6pm. My husband came and bought some food as all of us were fasting. I started having mild contraction!

After check up and underwent CTG monitoring, she said 'U better go back, os not open yet'

'Can you check again as now i already have mild contraction' I replied

'Erm.. 1.5 cm, u can go back'..

'but i think i want to stay at hospital.. pity to my husband need to send me to hospital at the same time need to take care of all my children'

After she called doctor, she allowed me to stay as doctor said, based on my history, duration between the first sign of labour and delivery was short. It took about 13 hours when given birth to adam and 6 hours to Aishah. Alhamdulillah. But i dont think it were short. She also said she wanted to check os again after maghrib but i want to solat isyak before she check. After settled everything.. i went to labour room, all procedures did in labour room. 3 cm was open. I request to have epidural, at 10.30pm epidural was given. I recited surah maryam slowly while contractions come and go. It makes me relaxed and didnt think about the contractions. I cant remember what time doc broke my waterbag. Baby was bo in my womb but the color of the water was still light mean the baby just did the bo. So, still can wait, no need to go for ceaser. Alhamdulillah.

The os consistently open after that. Less than 20 min per cm. And after Im done with surah maryam recitation, midwives asked me to push to make the baby's head going down. I pushed seriously about 4 times as i remembered. I just try and error. I practiced because when the real session with doctor, they will be no CTG. She called Dr after the baby's head at the opening of cervix and after pushed 2 more times in front of the doc, wafa was delivered at 3.10am on 9 june 2016. No episiotomy, natural tear. As expected, the baby was 3.8kg, third degree tear. No perineum massage during third trimester of pregnancy. Totally forgot to do that. I did massage during Aishah but end up with emergency c-section.

Ok, this is my birth story.. alone in the labour room. All the staffs very kind and give the best service to me and wafa. Thank you. nothing to be proud. Everyone has difference experience. Even the same person have different experience when giving birth to different children.

Ok. Babai.

Masalah

Bulan lepas after meeting, ada kawan dtg jumpa

"Hafizah, akak stress la.. x tau nk cerita kat siapa. Akak rs penat sgt.. husband akak sakit.. sakit saraf.. dia x dpt tlg buat apa2.. sy yg cr rezeki. Kt rumah pun dia just baring je.. anak2 sy uruskan semuanya. Family husband asyik nk duit. X faham yg dia sudah tidak bekerja. Keluarga akak pula asyik mengata husband."

Tiba2 dia luahkan pada diri ni yg terpaku dan termanggu.. x tau nk ckp apa. Br berjumpa dgn nya tiga kali. Kami bercakap hal kerja shj sblum ni. Air matanya mengalir.. oh.. aku mula x tau nk buat apa.. just memegang lengannya suruh dia bersabar dgn ujian Allah di dunia yg sementara ini..

Ramai kawan2 suruh akak bercerai dgn husband.. akak pun kdg2 terasa penat sgt.. hari2 akak bc quran, mathurat nk kuatkan semangat. Kalau x nnt ada kata x best dlm hati. Jdi x ikhlas nk tlg husband

Ya Allah.... sungguh besar ujian nya..

Nnt smbung ya.. nak basuh pinggan. Td baru je buat lasagna roti. Anak2 suka... try la korg!

.... bersambung.....

Bateri

My car break down. Tunggu my hero cari jumper..bateri kong.. td rasa mcm putera telah datang selamatkan puteri dlm kesusahan jer.. tp sampai2 terus ckp.. izah, abg lapar.. ni siapa yg akan selamatkan siapa ni.. puteri selamatkan putera dlm kelaparan ke ape?

Alhamdulillah, smpat pam susu, sarapan nasi lemak dlm kereta.. kemas kereta sikit2..skrg mmg kene cari waktu.. kerja byk, students ramai dua kali ganda.. kerja pon skrg double, aishah still menyusu badan, ibu belum give up..skrg x de stok susu..kais pagi minum pg..kais petang minum petang.kalu ada org nk jadi ibu susuan pon ok juga..tp siapa la nak ambil upah jd susu ibu di zaman sekarang?.. skrg mmg curi2 ms pam susu..waktu drive pergi dan balik keje, waktu meeting.. alhamdulillah rakan sekerja lelaki dan perempuan sgt memahami.. bunyi mesin rumput semasa vetting soalan exam pon tidak menjadi masalah kepada mereka. rs x cukup ms 24jam yg Allah bg.. nnt tup2 kita dah tua..

Tahun depan inshaAllah akan pindah to kajang.. jauh sgt shah alam ni.. duit tol dan minyak harap boleh lah save sikit.

Ok jumpa lagi, adios

Assalamualaikum..

Hafizah
Petronas seksyen 7 shah alam.