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hey, everybody should want us dead. somebody should kill us. we're sure we have enough good reasons.

1 we're a paraphile who has acted on their paraphilia as a kid and teenager, no longer do but that doesn't matter, we should still be killed, or locked up for the rest of our life. we should be dead.

2. we're selfish and don't give a shit about having relationships with people, and only are living with others because of being too broken to function on our own. so we're a parasite that's evil because we don't do anything for people.

3. we get off to fucked up things in fiction, so that means we support it in real life. so we should be in jail.

4. we don't feel empathy, sympathy, or compassion, we're Loveless unable to love we can't feel gratitude and we are primarily angry most the time.

there's more, we can even give details of specific things to help getting people to want us dead more.

life is bullshit, we already fucked it up from the start and past actions can't be resolved. and we're clearly still too fucked up in the brain that even if the other things didn't happen people should wish death upon us anyway.

please, send hate, be happy about it if you never see us again. if you find we are dead one day somehow, celebrate. another vile monster scum of the earth person gone from this planet. it should've already happened. there is no saving for this person, only hiding. we deserve death, never should we live a good life

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Anonymous asked:

so which paraphilia was it? are you a pedo? did you ruin someone’s life irreparably? or did you abuse an animal? does it not count because you’re not human yourself? did you commit a rape? i bet it was sooo sexy just like in your problematic fics hehe

animal abuse and death, it was boring and forgettable. I don't keep animals anymore because I know better than that, still deserve to die for what I've done as a teen and kid. thank you

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Anonymous asked:

how does it feel to know you can never really make up for the horrible abusive shit you’ve done? it’s a stain on you that you can’t get rid of no matter how hard you try. so you should probably just kill yourself to finally do some good.

very fun

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Anonymous asked:

i wish asexuals were actually oppressed so someone would kill your dumb ass

they are and somebody will do it

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Anonymous asked:

honestly real lesbians should fucking curbstomp you you absolute rancid cunt. keep the term out of your mouth you can’t even behave like a fucking human being you don’t deserve a community or a place in the discourse

I love it, I look forward to it

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Anonymous asked:

hiii maybe i’ll send you asks every day until you blow your brains out

sure please do, I'll quite enjoy it

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"you don't owe anybody anything" has done irreparable damage to the minds of the youth

this ordeal of living is collaborative. we owe each other as much as we're able to give. come take ibuprofen with me.

"okay but..." "this only applies to..." "but what about..."

we owe all we're able to give. what are you able to give?

No, you know what? I just can’t with this one. I was going to pass it by, but I just can’t.

You “oweto others as much as you have willingly taken. I didn’t ask to be born. I never asked to be alive. And I’ve spent more time than not over the course of my existence wanting to die. I owe exactly jack and shit to the species that has caused me so much fucking pain over the course of my unwanted life, and the continuation of said life for the sake of those few close to me who simply refuse to let me go is what I am “able” to give, because if it wasn’t for their constant badgering and guilt-tripping, I wanted to be dead 15 years ago. You can miss me with that “you owe people” bullshit.

agree fully with your response. like what the hell is wrong with people that being born means you owe people things. we were born into abuse! the world is fucked up and our body and brain are fucked up and for just existing we are supposed to owe people things? if we didn't have a phobia of death and a weak will we wouldn't be here but that's not an option. and existing for others would make us even more miserable. we don't even give a shit about having friends or relationships so what's the point! there's plenty of other people willing to do stuff for others, let us just slink off into a corner and not deal with this fucked up place.

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where did all the pornbots following us each day go

w h e r e d i d t h e y g o

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Anonymous asked:

are those pictures of Bush vipers real????? they're the most adorable thing I've ever seen

Yes! The first picture of them on the pencil is of babies (a lot of zoos will take pictures of new baby bush vipers on a pencil for scale, they're so tiny!) and the adults will usually stay under about 2 feet long. And variable bush vipers especially come in so many colors!

Bush vipers are often green, but they can also be black, red, yellow, brown, grey, and even this purple-ish color.

This is now a bush viper appreciation post!

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do we know why their scales are like that?

Great question! Yes, we do know why - bush vipers are highly arboreal, meaning they spend most of their lives in the branches of trees and bushes, and their heavily keeled scales help them climb. The heavy keeling also adds an element of camouflage - it helps their scales to blend in with leaves.

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pumpkan

Me: waiting for any form of public transport

Rain: starts

Some deep dark part of my brain that never forgot the first night vale episode: 👀🕐🚌🌧🌧🕐🕐🚌🌧

this is my friend Jay’s song and he has had a really rough time of it lately and whatnot so if you feel like checking out his latest stuff on Bandcamp or whatever, he started releasing stuff as Satellite High again 

I feel like more people should know that the iconic “The Bus Is Late” is from an album of songs entirely about the bus, and he has multiple albums about sharks. Just seems, you know. Relevant to many people’s interests.

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Inspired by an OC maker poll created by @piplupcola ! I plan to draw the results as a sort of unofficial blog mascot. Drop your stand power and name suggestions in the comments/tags/reblogs

Categories explained:

1. 0-5% = scrawny for a JoJo character, 6-10% = average beefiness, more than 10% = Jonathan Joestar build

2. 0-5 = fully covered, 6-10 = a little slutty, more than 10 = Anasui (can't go full Pillar Man, I want to design SOME clothes)

3. 0-5 = short hair, 6-10 = medium, more than 10 = long

4. Percentage = number of accessories

5. Percentage = number of colors

6. 0-5 = timid, 6-10 = a normal-ish person, more than 10 = major bitch

7. 0-5 = no cowboy, 6-10 = minor cowboy elements, more than 10 = FULL COWBOY

8. 0-5 = no vampire, 6-10 = minor vampire/goth elements, more than 10 = FULL VAMPIRE

9. 0-5 = not italian, 6-10 = Italian ancestry, more than 10 = FULL PASSIONE

10. 0-5 = just lipstick, 6-10 = lipstick and something else fancy, more than 10 = full face of makeup

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poonking

to everyone still pirating from sketchy sites named shit like freemovie12369virusfucknow dot com dot net dot au dot lol :

DOWNLOAD SOULSEEK

(*or nicotine. same server different client.)

everything you could ever want, someone on there has. it's p2p. there's no ads. there's a very effective honor system so you'll never have to worry about downloading anything that isn't what you thought it was.

it is home to a large community of datahoarders and lossless audio fans and cinephiles who host some really high quality movies/tv/music. none of that 140p covered by a filter captions with ads shit. this is the real shit. this is quality. it is refined piracy, piracy for those with enough self respect not to bother with torrents and seeding. soulseek is piracy for the mature professional

look at this. ALL of this is courtesy of soulseek. spotify is down? oh that's a shame i didn't even notice. i've already got every song ever made right here on my home media server.

piracy is always morally correct but it makes you COOLER than everyone else to do it correctly. you deserve 1080p movie downloads where you can see all of their pores. download soulseek do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it please

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Tbh there is an overabundance of media about a nonhuman creature's deep desire and journey to become human, and so very few of the opposite

Many of those movies/shows are very good and I like them but the whole time I'm feeling like it's tragic in a way. The thought of a creature giving up its otherness to assimilate into humanity is really fuckin sad to me. Or a human getting the chance to be something else freaking out and rejecting it.

Just makes me feel all the more alienated, y'know. Like "damn why don't I relate to this allegedly universal enthusiasm for being human" and "why is the desire to be anything else always wrong"

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Anonymous asked:

What does being non human entail for you, I don't feel connections to humanity due to trauma and ND amongst other things.

For me, personally, being nonhuman just comes from the extreme disconnect between myself and humans.

I don't really feel like I relate to humans easily, things that are seen as "basic human things" feel foriegn to me. I'm neurodivergent, loveless aromantic, very low empathy, have had SEVERE depression for all of the years that I was supposed to be mentally developing (age 10-19), and suspect that I have NPD (educated self-diagnosis). I'm constantly being told (especially growing up) that the things that I don't experience, or don't experience "correctly," are the things that make us human, whether that's love or empathy or connection or what have you.

On top of that, my delusions of grandiose probably don't help. I already feel such a disconnect from humans that it is very hard for me to even believe that I am one, then I have the voice in the back of my head saying that I have such issues connecting with them because I'm a superior being and am simply above them.

I've always related to the villian. The Gods, the all-powerful beings, the sorcerers, etc. I've always related to cryptids. I've always related so much more to these things that are very not human, that are more than human, that are ageless and have no "human" feelings and that have power within them.

I know other people that identify with nonhuman have past lives and more spiritual reasons for their nonhuman-ness, but this is what it is for me.

I know that, from a physical standpoint, I am human. I know that, logically, I am human. I won't argue against me being human. It's just a coping response, me taking years of being told that my thoughts are "not human" and years of feeling so seperate and alienated from humans, and me finally saying "If everything I am goes against what separates human from beast, or what makes someone human, then maybe I'm not human! Maybe I don't want to be human, either!!"

Kind of a long response, I don't know if I explained it well, I don't even know if I *could* explain it well without delving into specific personal information and dissecting how each one molded me into the creature that I am today. Regardless, I hope this helped and provided some insight on my reasons for considering myself nonhuman!

Tl;dr : I don't relate to things that I've been told are fundamentally human. Trauma, mental illness, and neurodivergence heighten this. At some point, I got fed up and said "fuck it, guess I'm not human, then!"

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this is the closest we've related to another's description of nonhumanity, we also consider it a direct symtopm from cptsd

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Every now and then I see a post that reminds me that most non-kin have an idea of the otherkin community that's defined more by people who made fun of us than by our community itself

If you heard about otherkin through general tumblr osmosis but never made an effort to actually understand us, your mental image of otherkin is mostly likely informed by people who pretended to be otherkin to start drama with the express intent to get people to hate us. It was really common a while back for anti-kin to create blogs posing as otherkin and post absurd, ridiculous, and inflammatory things like "I'm plantkin and keeping houseplants is slavery" or "I'm dragonkin and I ate my mom's jewelry". If you actually knew anything about the community it was fairly easy to figure out that these blogs were trolls, but most of the people on tumblr at the time either didn't know enough to be able to tell, or didn't even consider that they might be fake

And the most upsetting part? It fucking worked. So many people still seem to think that those posts were genuine reflections of what being otherkin means and how we act or talk about our kin identities

If you want to learn what otherkin are like, outside of hatred and mockery, if you wanna see how rich an vibrant our community is, and how varied our experiences are, here's some further reading:

General info:

Therians:

Fictionkin:

Otherkin:

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Hey Tumblr! Looking for books with Aro/Ace (no relationship) leads that are written for adults!

Preferably genre. I don't mind the YA, but that's all I can really find suggested. And not Loveless by Alice Oseman.

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