The first time I saw this film I had felt like I was holding my breath the entire time. After a lengthy period of anticipation, I was finally getting to see the movie based on one of my favorite books. The book, written by the wonderful Becky Albertalli, had been such a refreshing, compelling, and relatable story for my young, and increasingly bitter closeted self. However, at the time of seeing this movie, I was no longer closeted to my…