“the real truth about it is there ain't no end
to the desert I'll cross
i've really known it all along
mama here comes midnight
with the dead moon in its jaws
must be the big star about to fall
mama here comes midnight
with the dead moon in its jaws
must be the big star about to fall
long dark blues
will-o'-the-wisp
long dark blues
the big star is falling
long dark blues
will-o'-the-wisp
the big star is falling…
“the true state of all things
i keep on not dying, the sun keeps on rising
i remember my life as if it's just
some dreams that i don't trust
burning off, layered thick
a cargo that i haul
wounds and loves unresolved
i wake up with the sun in my eyes
the present moment tries
but now i'm back where i was when i was 20
crashing through salal alone and mumbling
one moment thinking i'm wise
and in…
"i don't want this escaping.
all this moody brooding; i just don't like that."
when i retreat to the untouched crevices of my mind, i truly believe that i’m an unwanted creature of earth’s soil. my psyche and heart operate on opposite planes, my soul is drenched in the longing to not exist, and i am plagued by enchanting memories of the past where i felt genuine happiness for what could be the final time. i don’t really know what i want to achieve, i don’t know why i can’t stop ruining myself, and…
