some exchanges:
["you should have felt it" "i feel my leg normally now" ]
["you rip your leg open, you don't feel it. i touch you, and you jump and scratch" ]
["it's strange that you felt nothing" ] ["when i do this, can you feel it?" "no" "no?" ]
["i don't know what to say about your cutting" "say nothing"]
[ "is it my fault? don't you like your body?" ]
[(robotically) "hello! this is your wake up call!]
esther feels nothing when she is injured; she finds joy in self-injury. the world around her is anesthetizing, misogynistic, and devoid of meaning, a stultifying bourgeois haze; to feel pain, to bleed, is to be alive, and to consume one's…