“Is it so hard to grasp God with one’s senses? Why must He hide in a mist of vague promises and unseen miracles? How are we to believe the believers when we don’t believe ourselves? What will become of us who want to believe but cannot? And what of those who neither will nor can believe? Why can I not kill God within me? Why does He go on living in this painful, humiliating way? I want to tear Him out of my heart, but He remains a mocking reality that I cannot shake off.”
