silly goose

the fact that the righteous gemstones teases us with the idea that lori might, malevolently, want to take aimee leigh's life and then turns it around on the audience by saying that yes, maybe lori does want aimee leigh's life but not out of spite, but because her own life had been so inadequate.

aimee leigh had a loving husband who gave her whatever she wanted, kids who despite their shit attitudes love each other and their family, and a flourishing career. lori had an abusive alcoholic miser who treated her like shit and put their kid in between their marital conflict, and after her divorce is possibly actively harming or killing anyone she tries to get close to, and most certainly still has their kid wrapped up in whatever he's doing.

of course now that she's free of that, even if corey and cobb haven't let go, she wants to feel like aimee leigh.

Its like. It's it's really something that the richest man in the world desires internet clout more than anything. Like he wants specifically the kind of clout you get on reddit or 4chan by being a poster like he wants to be a high tier Video Gamer he wants the specific kind of respect you get from being a competitive smash player who posts really good online. But he's just not good. At any of these things . And it's really something. That he has more money than god. But he can't be happy because he can't get a genuine laugh out of the twitch chat.

made me think of some of you <3

Thinking about how Keefe always very clearly had a crush on Kelvin since the beginning of the show and how Kelvin obviously seemed to some sense receptive and interested but in a deeply restrained way and that sort of wonderment of why Keefe wouldn’t just give up and accept maybe Kelvin just isn’t ever going to make that move then it finally happens but even after Kelvin is so restrained with him even more so now, but then between the round table incident and the interlude episode we fully understand Kelvin’s trauma.

Trauma Keefe does not know about, but Kelvin had seen Keefe with his shitty satanic prison tattoos and his mullet and his general weirdness and reached out to him and took him in and helped and supported him even to the detriment of his own reputation and standing in the family church. Kelvin never gave up on Keefe because he always saw something in him and in return the whole series we have been watching Keefe offer the same towards Kelvin. He doesn’t understand but he’s not given up on being there and trying to understand him.

Kelvin and Keefe × When You Were Young by The Killers

objectively the funniest moral panic to come from conservatives is "alternative energy is bad because birds might fly into the wind turbines". birds, which notoriously have no other man-made obstacles, such as the window

very true. just fact checked this and there are many pictures of birds covered in oil.

The idea that Kelvin was such a vocal and incredibly smart kid before the break in, the break in that happened while he was in Judy’s room secretly tearing out pictures of male celebrities from tiger beat magazine, that some part of his brain internalized this. That he withdrew, stopped being as loud or wanting to be smart, that something in him equated the break in with his being gay, that it happened because God was angry at him. Like that shit fucking hurts.

This show. Kelvin's internalized homophobia coming from a childhood trauma where he linked the beginnings of his sexuality with something completely terrifying. Kelvin only starting to have these memories openly resurge as he lives openly as a gay man and is sleeping in a bed with the man he loves. I normally am interested in characters with trauma, but we didn't even have a hint that Kelvin's issues ran this deep for a long, long time. He's been stifling himself because of this terror. He knew this was budding inside of him - he knew how he was starting to feel. He might have known deep down the whole time what he had with Keefe but was just too scared to act on it.

And to think of the roundtable now: Kelvin, as confident as he's gotten about his sexuality, totally destroyed by a homophobe in front of a crowd that claps.

I'm just. I'm so sad. I'm grateful they're writing something this deep for a show that can be so silly, but it's making me sad.

(sidebar: guy who plays young Jesse is flawless. No notes. Perfect Danny McBride impression. I'm always happy to see him.)

The idea that Kelvin was such a vocal and incredibly smart kid before the break in, the break in that happened while he was in Judy’s room secretly tearing out pictures of male celebrities from tiger beat magazine, that some part of his brain internalized this. That he withdrew, stopped being as loud or wanting to be smart, that something in him equated the break in with his being gay, that it happened because God was angry at him. Like that shit fucking hurts.

thinking about the moment in season two when kelvin says, "you know what kills me? everyone sees me as a joke. i'm the baby of the family, the youth pastor who peaked at 12." as an adult, kelvin is able to immediately recall the age at which his life took a downturn... and of course it perfectly coincides with the break in that led to him locking away his true self. like of course it does.

Yes, this. A stunning number of people will default to "because it's illegal." Teaching an intro-level bioethics course will demonstrate real fucking fast that a lot of the population just lets legality stand in for morality.

Other people's emotions are deep and complex and beautiful but mine are proof that there is rot at the core of my being