Turning Back Time

Mom shouted loudly through the phone:

“What? Separating? Why?”
I frowned. My ears hurt and I took the
phone further away from me.
A divorce revolves around the two
parties. It is a marriage between them but
yet it is others who constantly ask for the
reason behind their divorce.
“Mom, we have signed the papers today.
Your objection is overruled.” I replied.
Mom prompted further, “Who initiated
the divorce?”
I replied, “It‟s me. I like someone else.”
Mom did not believe what I have said,
“You are my daughter. I know what kind
of person you are!”
I chuckled at her words because I did not
even know what kind of person I was.
“Mom, you do not have to worry. There
are many couples divorcing these days.
We are just one of them.”
Mom retorted, “But in this world, there
are countless of couples who spend the
rest of their lives together. Why are you
not one of them?”
I replied to Mom out of the corner of my
strained smile, “We didn‟t manage to
master that skill well enough.”
Mom sighed, “Dan Xin, Dan Xin[1]…
We didn‟t name you well. You always
make me worry.”
Tears welled up in my eyes. Only Mom
would unconditionally love me this way.
I said, “Mom, I‟m fine. I‟m still young
and will still have a chance to find a good
man.”
“Both of you have been together well and
all… Why separating suddenly… The
house and the car…” Mom mumbled,
repeating the same sentences again and
again.
When I hung up the phone, she was still
shouting my name at the other end of the
line.
There was a moment of complete silence.
I was really tired and exhausted. The
house was empty with only me and my
cat. I looked around the luxuriously
decorated master bedroom and saw the
photo of us hanging on the wall. It was
taken during our trip to Jiuzhaigou. At
that time, his charm was
accompanied with a touch of immaturity.
At that time, I was completely in love
with him.
I stood up on the sofa, took the photo off
the wall and threw it into a corner of the
sofa.

When I mentioned the divorce, he was

sitting on this sofa.
“Cheng Rui, I want to get a divorce.”
It was as if I was telling him nothing
special.
“Cheng Rui, I am going to buy food from
the street.”
“Cheng Rui, I am going back to visit my
parents.”
He was reading his music scores. This
year, his career reached a peak along
with his record-breaking album sales. His
news and posters were all over the place.
They called him the Siren – the mythical
creature who lured nearby sailors with
his enchanting voice.
My ever-dashing husband who entered
into countless number of girls‟ wet
dream ultimately had to walk out my life
– no matter how unwilling he was.
He heard my words and raised his head,
looking a little shocked. No matter how
much time has passed, his mesmerising
eyes never fade away with time. He
stared deeply into my eyes and looked at
me in silence for a long time. He looked
at me for so long that I considered
whether to repeat my words until I heard
him mumbled, “We have still come to
this stage…”
I assumed he agreed. To be able to
divorce in this way is the dream of many
couples. In the shortest possible time,
using the simplest language and the most
peaceful way, we agreed on our divorce.
People come and go in your life. No one
in this world can accompany you forever.

The telephone rang again. This time, I

guessed that Mom must have asked our
relatives to ring and check on me.
But it was Cheng Rui this time. “You
haven‟t sleep yet?” he asked.
I looked at the clock; it was only 9 pm. I
laughed and replied, “I am waiting for
the clock to strike 12!”
He was silent for a while before telling
me that he wanted to collect some stuff.
“No problem,” I replied.
This house was bought by him and he
gave it to me when we separated. I was
the one who initiated the divorce but he
was the one who settled everything. He
was very responsible and generous –
giving the house, car, jewellery and even
the flower pot in the study room to me.
The flower pot was my wedding
anniversary gift to him. I gave him a
flower pot and he gave me a diamond
ring. A diamond lasts forever but a
flower only blossoms for one season.
Come to think about it, I actually gained.
I put down the phone and then pulled out
the phone line to prevent any more
„concerned‟ relatives from calling. When
we first got married, everybody
questioned why would a degree-holder
like me marry a busker. Why would I
give up on myself like that? Was it
because I was pregnant with his child?
My father was so furious he gave me a
tight slap. My mother did not speak to
me for a long time.
But I still went ahead to marry him. I was
young at that time and had all the
courage and energy in the world. My
heart was still untarnished then. Love
was bigger than the sky and I had him.
Cheng Rui used to have the habit of
telling me that he will treat me well.
Upon hearing that, I would hug him
tightly. Those were the days…
Fortunately, my mother was angry
because I did not inform her about the
divorce and not because it was a disgrace
to the family. She was afraid I would get
hurt. But it was inevitable that I
would feel hurt.
There are no adults who grew up without
any emotional scars. It is just that we
know how to cover it well.
I went to the bedroom to pack his things.
When I opened the wardrobe, I saw the
coat which I bought for him. Back then,
we just started dating. I knew that the
cream colour and cutting of the coat
would look good on him when I saw it in
a designer shop. I bought it and ended up
spending about a month‟s worth of my
salary. It was as if a spotlight was shining
on him when he donned the coat. At that
moment, I knew that it was just a matter
of time that he would become very
popular and successful.
The thought of how a man like him was
being forced to take upon the role of a
husband was pretty unbearable. I could
now somehow understand the feelings of
his fans and their hatred towards me. It
was a „waste of natural resource‟.
I took out the clothes that he used to wear
and folded it. In a TV drama serial,
whenever the husband wanted to leave
the house for good, the wife would
desperately pull him back and beg him
not to leave. But here I was packing his
luggage. If Mom saw what I did, she
would definitely hit the roof. She had
always led a straight and upright life. If
she saw how her daughter was degrading
herself, how could she not bite her
tongue.

The house that we used to stay in was

only fifteen square feet in area size. The
window faced a vine-covered wall and
the ceiling fan gave off a ringing sound
whenever it was switched on. In the
summer, there would be a lot of
mosquitoes and I would light up the
mosquito coil. I would read my
documents and he would sit on the
bamboo mat, play his guitar and
hum songs that were specially written for
me. He was the Siren who sang in the
sea. I was the young girl on the boat,
lured by him.
We were poor at that time. Whenever we
went out, he would wear his washed out
jeans and I would go out bare-faced. We
would rush to the park early in the
morning on weekends to buy a pair
of half-priced tickets. We would wander
from dawn to dusk. Later, when the park
started charging the tickets at full price,
we would stealthily climb over a wall.
There was once when a security guard
caught us doing that and we ran almost
three stretches of streets before we
managed to escape.
All these memories were memories that
my parents, his friends and his fans did
not know about.
He later became famous. Of course, he
would be famous. Those who have
listened to his songs before would
definitely agree with me. It was not long
before his posters were all over the
streets and he soon started appearing on
television. I would have fallen asleep by
the time he came back but he never
failed to give a light peck on my cheeks
with his cigarette smelling lips before he
turned around to sleep.
All these memories were memories that
other people did not know about either.
His female fans shouted and proclaimed
their love for him. To them, I am just
„that woman‟ – the woman without a
name. The Siren was still the Siren but
the young girl had now become an
unsightly woman and a hindrance to his
career.
In their eyes, I was a spoiled and
pampered woman who drove a red
Ferrari, swiped credit cards to buy luxury
goods and had servants attending to me
at a wave of my hand. I was the woman
who wore a leopard print jacket and had
her nails painted red, covered with a
strong stench of perfume that one could
smell even from ten miles away.

I stopped what I was doing. To move and

pack the five cabinets filled of clothing
was easier said than done. I went on to
pack the table and drawer and saw our
wedding ring.
I froze for a few seconds before taking
the ring out of the box. I was in a daze
and did not know whether I should let
him take the ring as a memento.
Sigh. After the papers were signed, I
would think twice before I speak for fear
that we would become enemies. My
friend once confided in me that she
merely complained about the faulty pen
and the man shouted back at her, “Why?
You are that eager?”
I know that Cheng Rui would not do that.
He is righteous, consideration and
righteous. It is my honour to be married
to him for six years. He might not love
me anymore, but he is still a good man.
I lost my mood to pack and headed back
to the living room.
I recalled how we first met. At that time,
I broke up with my then-boyfriend and
three years of relationship evaporated
into nothing. I drank a lot that night.
A foreigner came over and started to
babble some foreign language. It was
embarassing because I was a student who
majored in foreign language but I could
not understand a single word. That
foreigner started to touch me and Cheng
Rui suddenly jumped down from the
stage and yelled, “Don‟t touch my
woman!” He grabbed me by my hand,
pulled me out of the pub and shoved me
into a cab.
I could not stop laughing. Now that I had
reminisced about that past, I realised that
I remembered every word he had said to
me. This was a premonition.
After his second album was sold out, he
was finally relieved. He finally turned
back to see me and my melancholic
smile. His features were outstanding so
he wore a hat and a turtle neck shirt out. I
could feel the heat emitting out
from him. We ran to the Tian‟anmen
Square together as cars drove past us,
illuminating the dark night. We were
intoxicated with joy and as we embraced
each other, it felt as if we were each
other‟s first love all over again. The
excitement was overpowering as it felt
like we were having a secret affair
unknown to the world. But suddenly, I
was weighed down with grief. I missed
walking hand in hand with him along the
street after finishing our dinner. I missed
him dedicating the last song to me under
the dimly lit stage. I missed the simple
happiness of being together day and
night.

The clock on the wall struck ten. I

decided to go to the kitchen to grab a
bite but there was only a bottle of wine
left in the refrigerator . I poured a full
glass for myself and finished it in one
gulp. I walked towards the living room
and sat down on the sofa. The whole
place suddenly came to life when I
switched on the television.
My mobile phone rang. I jumped up,
recalling that I have pulled out my
telephone line.
Cheng Rui raised his voice, “Dan Xin?
How come I can‟t reach you by phone? I
thought something happened.”
“Nothing! Nothing!” I quickly said,
“When are you reaching?”
“There is a car accident and the road is
blocked now. I will be slightly late.”
I laughed. Being late again. Even after
getting a divorce, he is still playing the
same trick.
I do not know since when, I began to live
in waiting. Waiting for the man to come
home, waiting for the man to call me,
waiting for the man to remember me. I
cannot remember how many times I have
slept on the sofa waiting for his return,
nor can I remember how many times I
have waited in the restaurant for
someone who will never come. It was
then I finally understood that marriage is
not the end, but another beginning. The
story of „happily ever after‟ continued to
exist in fairy tales. How many girls have
these romance novels harmed?
A girl in the television shouted, “Qian
Wen!” I woke up in a state of panic.
That woman is still as ravishing and
dazzling. For a period, rumours of her
having an affair with my husband spread
throughout the city.

I have seen her at a movie premiere. I

wore a white dress while she wore a
black halter dress, as if a battle against
justice and evil was about to begin. We
exchanged handshake and all the cameras
were on us. The reporters tapped on the
shutter button continuously, the bright
flashlight blinded my eyes. I attempted to
dodge but she had already started posing
confidently in front of the cameras.
On the way back home, I asked Cheng
Rui, “Do you find her attractive?”
Cheng Rui knocked my head with his
finger, “Don‟t talk nonsense!”
I always made jokes about them. I have a
dark sense of humour. I find pleasure out
of pain. Newspapers frequently reported
about how compatible they are. I laughed
at it as I read and chewed on my apple.
Of course they did not use me to spice up
the story. They never bother.
Later, I went online and saw the fans
encouraging Cheng Rui to get a divorce.
“Divorce that hag and get together with
Qian Wen!” It was then I realised that the
whole thing was no longer fun anymore.
I did not know when I became such a
distasteful and unlikeable character,
being described as uncouth
countrywoman. Cheng Rui became the
talented scholar who married the wrong
person while Qian Wen became his soul
mate and confidante.
I felt terrible. I am just a kind-hearted
and harmless woman. Why was I
portrayed like an evil and ugly woman?
I knew him at his lowest point of life.
Was it wrong for me to appreciate a
hero? But I got together with him, so I
was wrong.
I suddenly felt tinge of bitterness
spreading in my mouth. I tilted my head
back and drank another mouthful of
wine. Cheng Rui have not arrived yet,
but I have enough patience to wait and to
keep on waiting.
The only time Cheng Rui got a break was
after our marriage. It was the one and
only time we travelled together but we
went to a lot of places. At the foothills of
the Alps, we stayed at a small but cosy
inn. We covered ourselves with a big
fleece blanket and huddled together in
front of a fireplace next to the window as
we looked out of the window. The
scenery was beautiful. The mountain and
meadow were covered with snow, and
the sky was deep blue in colour.
As I gazed at the fleeting snowflakes
against the backdrop of the sky, I
wondered what lay behind this
magnificence.
Cheng Rui asked me why I was not
talking.
“When I was young, the adults always
said that everyone has a star that belongs
to them. For a period of time, I would
look up the sky every night, thinking that
there will surely be unique star that
belongs to me only.”
He hugged me tightly, “I belong to you,
to you one person only.”
But he was wrong.
The wine bottle was empty. I put down
the bottle and looked at the clock. It was
ten thirty already. I went back to the
kitchen to take another bottle of wine.
Actually, I should not have drank so
much. I have a low alcohol tolerance.
What if I babble nonsense in front of
him? I do not want that to happen. That
would be too embarrassing. I am a strong
and confident woman. I am determined
to keep up my image at whatever cost.
Even if the whole world has collapsed, I
will still stand on top of the ruins and
hold my head high.
How would he think of me, what would
he say, I no longer care. He is no longer
my husband. In the past, my whole heart
was with him, my eyes only looked at
him, my ears only listened to his words.
Now that we have divorced, my status of
a servant has been elevated to a general. I
am relieved.
The TV host asked Wen Qian about her
first date with her first love. She vaguely
answered that it was in the school. I
suddenly thought, where did I have my
first date with Cheng Rui?
I remembered that it was at a noodle
shop in the corner. It was summer.
Against the setting sun, the two of us sat
inside the small and stuffy shop and ate
our beef noodles, sweating profusely.
Cheng Rui was a big and unfriendly boy
that time. “Missy, you have the time in
the world but I rely on myself to earn my
keep at night. You can play, but please
let me off!”
I grinned from ear to ear, “Do you want
another bowl of iced green bean soup?”
He looked troubled. His dignity and
appetite were in a battle but he finally
chose to abandon his dignity for the bowl
of iced green bean soup.
That was our beginning, a poor and
young boy who got together with an
innocent and young girl. Their story
began like any romantic young couple
out there. I was attracted to him just by
hearing him sing love songs. He was
attracted to me just by watching me busy
in his small kitchen. At that time, no one
would have thought that after many years
later, two weary adults would sit down
on a table to sign a legal paper titled
„Divorce Agreement‟.
Many couples can go through thick and
skin together, but not all can enjoy the
fruit of their labour together.
The doorbell rang. I jumped up, quickly
hid the wine bottle and hurriedly rinsed
my mouth before opening the door.
Behind the door was actually Yue Ru jie,
Cheng Rui‟s manager.
It was half past ten, not early anymore. I
rushed to the kitchen to make her a cup
of lemon tea. When I went out, she was
holding and looking at the photo that I
threw at the corner earlier on. She said,
“You are very cold-hearted once you
make the determination to do
something.”
I shrugged, “Otherwise, how would you
call that determination.”
She took the cup, and started persuading
me.
“Everything will turn for the better. You
thought that you have reached a dead
route, but who knew there would still be
a door hiding behind the dark? Both of
you will regret for making such a hasty
decision.
I asked, “What is happening outside?”
She snickered, “I‟ve switched off all my
phones but if both of you intended to
occupy the headlines, then you all have
succeeded. ”
I am a little tired striking this
conversation, “Even if you want to help
us patch up, you can‟t help much now.
There are so many people divorcing
these days. Why can‟t we get a divorce?”
Look, how interesting. When ordinary
citizens get a divorce, they would say
that it is nothing. Look at how many
celebrities are divorcing now. When we
get a divorce, we would say that so many
people are divorcing, us getting a
divorcing is nothing.
Yue Ru jie looked at me, her eyes filled
with regret and sympathy. She is a very
nice person, just like my big sister.
Cheng Rui‟s success was partly
attributed to her. The both of us are very
grateful for her, but she cannot save our
marriage.
Finally she said, “There is no room for
forgiveness?”
I lowered my head.
“He loves you. I am very sure of this.
Those rumours outside, you know, it is
for the sake of hype. I know that you feel
stressed, but the pressure on him is not
small either. I hope you can be more
considerate and understand him.”
I laughed, “I have been considerate for
six years already.”
“After this period…” she said.
“I heard the same words for six years.
When he was not popular, I had to wait
for him to be popular. When he was
popular, I had to wait for him to be even
more popular. I got married but I felt like
I didn‟t get married at all. I have seen
through it already. The only time when
we will be able to lead a normal and
good life would be when he retires. How
long would that be? Ten years? Twelve
years?”
Yue Ru jie sighed, “Which singer can be
popular for twenty years now?”
“So what? We are pursuing different
things in life now. I am a simple woman.
I just want a lover who can accompany
and stay by my side.”
“Just give him more time,” Yue Ru jie
asked earnestly, “You have come so far.
It wasn‟t easy, why give up now?”
“He is my husband, but he does not
belongs to me. I already knew that he
belongs to everybody but I wanted to
have him. Now I will return him back to
everyone.”
Yue Ru jie was very anxious, “Do you
know that everybody out there is saying
that you want to get a divorce because
you are having an affair?”
I‟m tired, really tired. Let them say what
they want to say. This world is too noisy,
too complex. Five years have passed, but
I am still unable to live here. I will give
up my Siren and go back to my ship.
For the past year, we had little to talk
about. We rarely met each other. There
was many times where I could only flip
the newspaper to know about his
whereabouts. None of my friends was in
this city. After I finished work, the house
and books were my only companions.
Sometimes, I even feel that I do not have
a husband. I do not know what does
marriage means.
When we are finally reunited, I would
ask him, “How are you?” He would ask
me, “How are you?”
How pathetic. We had become so distant
and unfamiliar.
Yue Ru jie continued to harp, “It would
be better if both of you had a child.”
She is really a good person.
Yue Ru jie got up to leave. I did not ask
her to stay nor did I offer to send her off.
She walked to the door, looked back and
said, “I admire your courage.”
It took courage to marry him. Leaving
him this time also required courage. I
have nothing but guts in me. Actually,
she should think it this way; after the
divorce, I will become a rich woman who
owns a house, car and jewelleries. I am
still young and a woman like me would
be the ideal partner for many men. If she
thought it that way, then she would not
think that I am in an unfavourable
position. But she did not think it this
way. That was why I said she is a good
person.
The clock struck eleven. The house was
empty again. She came and left while I
stayed behind.
I was waiting for my lover to come see
me for one last time. The feeling was
different this time. I did not feel relaxed
like how I used to be when we dated. In
the past, whenever we met, I turned into
a little girl who liked to snuggle into his
embrace. But now, I am so scared to
even catch a glimpse of him, for fear that
I would fall into a deep abyss of flames.
I love him that much.
I took a shower, continued to drink wine.
The television began to broadcast a
typical anti-revolution drama revolving
around city life. I switched off the
television and played his songs.
“Do not say forever”
We really cannot say forever.
If I must say what feelings I have for this
girl named Zhen Zhu, I really have no
idea on what to say.
She is young, pretty and ambitious. She
knows what she wants the most. She is
initiative, positive and willing to work
towards improvement. I am just like a
turtle, crawling slowly as she overtook
me. It was only then I realised how much
I have aged.
How we first met was the most awkward
moment of my life. They were kissing
each other – Zhang Rui and her.
The house was overwhelmed with the
smell of alcohol, the bottles scattered
around the ground and the balloons were
hung everywhere. There were only the
two of them in the house. Today was a
celebration to mark the good sales of his
album. And I was late, so I was just in
time to see this scene.
I stood in the open doorway, watched the
two of them fell down on the sofa,
caressing each other as if there was no
one. The girl wrapped her arm tightly
over my husband‟s shoulder. I was
stunned, and stood rooted to the ground.
It was as if my feet were nailed to the
floor, causing me to not move a single
inch.
I knew what I was doing was not right. I
should not have peeped at my own
husband, and the more I should not have
peeped at a half-dressed woman.
I quickly left, but accidentally kicked a
beer bottle. Cheng Rui chased out,
tugging up his clothes as he shouted for
my name. I ran away like I was a rabbit
being chased by a hunter. I ran to the
station, hopped onto a coach and went to
another city. I hid in my friend‟s house
for half a month.
Cheng Rui did not look for me. He went
abroad to do publicity for his album.
Indeed, forever did not exist in this
world.
Our relationship completely broke down
– we hardly spoke to each other but no
tears were shed during this journey. And
then we got a divorce.
My marriage.
I finished drinking the third bottle of
wine.
But I have never blamed or resented
Cheng Rui. He has always been a
wanderer. To be able to be his wife for so
many years shows that at least, the
woman that he loves the most is still me.
But I can also make a choice.
There was a sound of the doorknob
unlocking. The person I have waited had
come.
This man is always so handsome and his
gestures are still as graceful.
He and I went into the bedroom. I
pointed at the wardrobe and said, “I don‟t
know how many clothing you want to
take with you so I packed only the
clothes that you often wear.”
He opened the wardrobe and first took
out the sweater that I knitted for him. I
was on the brink of my tears and turned
my head away from him.
“Take your time to pack. I will sleep
first.” I went into the other room.
The guest room was well maintained and
comfortable. I lay on the bed, stared
blankly at the ceiling. Who am I lying to?
I am definitely going to suffer from
insomnia tonight.
I felt discomfort in my stomach because
of the alcohol I drank earlier on. I was in
pain and felt giddy, but I could not fall
asleep. I got up and started groping in the
dark to look for the bottle of sleeping
pills. I poured two pills out and headed
towards the kitchen to pour water. Cheng
Rui‟s voice sounded at this time,
“Alcohol plus sleeping pills. Unless you
do not want to live anymore.”
I almost forgot that these two things
could not be used together.
I threw the pills in the trash, took a stool
and sat down. Cheng Rui took a bottle of
milk from the refrigerator and heated it in
the microwave.
“You don‟t have to bother about me,” I
said, “Just leave if you have finished
packing.”
He sighed, “Look at how you look like
now, like a ghost.”
“There is no dead person, only living
ghost.” I said.
“How can I not be worried when you are
like that?”
I laughed. I heard the biggest joke.
“Worried? You are only worried now?”
Then where have you been all this while?
The microwave beeped and the cup of
milk was ready. He brought the cup over
and cautioned me to be careful of the hot
milk. He placed it near my hands, but I
did not touch it.
What I need is not a cup of hot milk.
“Let‟s talk,” He said, “What do you
want? What must I do to get your
forgiveness?”
“Forgive you for what?”
“Zhen Zhu and I. I went out of control
that time.”
I sighed, “If you are talking about the
woman, then I am not angry about that
matter. It is just that I am tired of this
kind of lifestyle. What is point of staying
together but being so courteous with each
other? To spend my life sharing you with
your ambition, I do not want that.
He was silent, looked very tired.
“Can you give up on your career?
Willingly? No. By the time when you are
old and start to think about the past, you
will be filled with regrets and blame me.
I cannot guarantee that I am strong
enough to shoulder that. I am just a
woman.”
“Dan Xin, why do you have so many
requests?”
“A woman who only wants her husband
to stay by her side after dinner everyday
is not making a request.”
He stared at me. Not many women can
resist him under his gaze.
“Dan Xin, the woman I love, from the
beginning until now, has always been
you only.”
Then he lowered his head. A moist
sparkle shined at the corner of his eyes.
This, I believe. But love is not enough to
sustain a marriage. Two people are
required to maintain the family. No
matter how well I recite my monologue, I
can never be the Best Actress.
If he does not want to give up, then I will
give up. Take a step backward, and
everybody will have a better choice.
I could not bear to look at him anymore,
“You can go now. I‟m just depressed. I
promise that nothing will happen to me.”
He stared hard back at me, “Dan Xin, do
not joke!”
Really. When I joke, people take it
seriously. But when I start to tell the
truth, no one wants to believe.
I felt really dizzy but I decided to stand
up and walked towards the window. It
was late at night, but there were still
many cars driving on the road. Because
the sky was cloudy, I could not see any
stars. I felt very disappointed.
Cheng Rui came behind me, “Dan Xin,
why don‟t…” I raised my hand to stop
him. I did not want to sum up the reason
why our marriage failed with him.
He did not say anything and continued to
stand behind me.
I took the wedding ring from my pocket
and placed it in his hands. “To keep or to
throw, you decide. I don‟t safe keep
valuable items here.”
He lowered his face.
I turned away to face the window again.
After a long period of silence, he knew
that I did not want to speak to him
anymore. He finally moved and lifted his
luggage.
I heard the doorknob turned. I felt like
my heart was being ripped apart. My
tears began running down. Bidding
farewell has always been a sentimental
and painful affair.
He stood at the doorway, but was not in a
hurry to leave. “Dan Xin, I am
leaving…”
The doors finally closed.
I slowly knelt down and cried silently
against the glass window.
I will miss him for a long time, but I do
not want to spend my time and love on
waiting anymore.
I remembered the first time I met him. A
young man jumped down from the stage
like he had descended from the heaven.
The bright fire shined on my eyes and
merged together as iridescent clouds.
If only time could stop at the moment
when we first met.