things about me:

chill with any pronouns

have and will continue to post dumb shit and make this blog a mess

write fan fics in my free time

always down to talk and have new mutuals

if all of s3 ep1 isn't Armand and Daniel in a heavy, rough, entirely animalistic make out sesh with sub/dom undertones I am NOT watching

#4 emails part 7

I just wanted to share some emails sent back and forth about my fic Sense of a Foreshortened Future because I need inspiration to start writing it again. In these emails it's referred to as #4 because it was the fourth Thiam fic I ever started writing. I will do my best to remove what I think is spoilers.

fuck it friday

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this is part of an essay I'm writing about THG and SOTR

It’s important to note that in THG people in the seam are not the only ones struggling for food, “Most of the Peacekeepers turn a blind eye… because they’re just as hungry for fresh meat as anybody is.” The food deprivation in District 12 has gotten so bad by the 74th Hunger Games that Peacekeepers are amongst the best customers of black market food. This indicates to me that 12 is not just struggling, but has intentionally been made into a food desert. Capitol citizens not having access to fresh food, when it is clearly stated earlier in the text that there is plenty of food outside of 12’s fences, and later in the text that there is an excess of food in the Capitol, proves that this lack of fresh food is an intentional move made by the Capitol. It isn’t enough to just keep District citizens poor, but those who might have the funds to eat properly are deprived of that right by there simply being a lack of food available.

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#4 emails part 6

I just wanted to share some emails sent back and forth about my fic Sense of a Foreshortened Future because I need inspiration to start writing it again. In these emails it's referred to as #4 because it was the fourth Thiam fic I ever started writing. I will do my best to remove what I think is spoilers.

my yellowjacket ships ranking

1. TaiVan (teen)

2. MistyNat

3. ButcherQueen (teen and also ship name that might need some work after the s3 finale)

4. TravNat

5. LottieLee

6. JackieShauna

7. ShaunaHat (it makes me angry and I think if Mari and Shauna had an angry fling instead it would honestly be sick as hell and more interesting for the plot and characters)

8,9. Shauna/Jeff and TaiVan (adult) (I hate cheating)

10. Shauna/Adam (again cheating and I hate hate hate Adam. Hate that man. I genuinely get so angry whenever he's on my goddamn screen.)

I keep seeing the question of "why didn't the girls just stop Shauna?" and I think it's a really easy answer. For one they we're a team, and at this point have survived a year and a half out in the wilderness together. There isn't a lot of hate between them (besides Shauna towards Mari and Ben). And secondly, I think adult Shauna was right saying that each and every one of them did find some sort of joy or purpose out in the wilderness.

Shauna is violent and cruel to a degree that none of the others are. However, the hunt isn't Shauna's doing in any way, even if she is "the queen" and takes credit for it. The hunt is coordinated by the others, Tai and Van rig the cards, and Lottie is the one who continues to count after Shauna. And before all of this, Melissa encourages Shauna's cruelty and play for power. They all participated. Shauna is a conduit for everybody's violence, cruelty, and lack of humanity.

in the adult timeline we also see this cruelty/selfserving/destructive behavior from the survivors (except for Van and Nat majority of the time). Misty quite literally abuses her elderly patients by withholding medication. Tai leaves her family to pursue a woman that she hasn't talked to in decades. Melissa stalks and deceives a woman and eventually enters a relationship with her and has a child. We're all aware of how fucked Shauna is in the adult timeline I don't need to go over that. Lottie has a literal cult and is the one to suggest that they kill one of the remaining survivors. Lottie, Nat, Tai, Misty, and Van hunt Shauna in the adult timeline. Van heavily contemplates murdering Melissa. Melissa does murder Van. Tai is very close to murdering two separate people for Van (and yes other Tai is, even if there's dissociative amnesia between them).

guys I could literally keep going. The reason why they don't stop teen Shauna is because they are all fucked up by that point. I'd say the least morally corrupt of the group is Nat and that's for obvious reasons. Nat is the perfect foil for Shauna, and Nat dying in the adult timeline will ultimately be the reason why everything goes seriously wrong for them. They don't have a conduit for the good in them anymore.

I honestly really like Hayden and I really wished the relationship she had with Liam didn't happen. This isn't because I ship thiam, that's a separate topic. I loved her competitiveness and petty attitude, which I feel like were really snubbed when her and Liam got together. Once she was a girlfriend I feel like she wasn't a full character in the writers eyes, which is a shame. This isn't to say that she lacks all personality after, but I feel like if her and Liam hadn't gotten together, or got together later, she would have had more to her, y'know?

No one is ready for the day I start writing mlm Star Wars y/n fics. I am also not prepared for that day, but I fear I feel it fast approaching.

I wish the Mandalorian had come out earlier. I feel like there was so much potential for cringy DinLuke bullshit that only 2015 would have truly taken full advantage of. Tell me why I can only find a handful of poorly done DinLuke imagines on youtube?? Bring back cringe, please, I need it.

the amount of food Haymitch mentioned in 12 that seems to be a part of his everyday life while being in a very comparable position to Katniss boggles my mind when I go back and think about the food that Katniss describes having. This paired with how pampered the tributes become in the 74th hg I think really speaks to how the capital has really gotten keeping the tributes- and by extension, the districts- docile down to a science. Before, of course, Seneca Crane, but that's because he was drinking the Kool Aid too.

“I want Finnick’s games!” Same, but I also really don’t want to see a world where Suzanne Collins feels the need to write about his games

I don’t fuck with Gale. “But he’s a complex character!!” The Gale glazers say. Okay?? Yeah everyone in that series is. I don’t fucking like him. He doesn’t know who the enemy is. He’d kill his neighbors in the same way he’d kill Snow. His anger blinds him and makes him a liability for a revolution.

the take that sotr was “too sad” is interesting….