I can never leave Tumblr because after years of sporadic therapy utterly failed to even approach the core of my problem some random tumblr user was like โI processed my trauma by writing a 10,000 word work of filthy fanfic eroticaโ and I was like โfuck it Iโve tried everything elseโ and now Iโm 17 chapters and 20,000 words deep into an unpublishable work of obscenity and after careful literary analysis with one of the Beloved Mutuals I have come to some Terrible Revelations about my childhood and may now continue the process of Healing. Where else am I supposed to get this kind of experience. Who does this. Why are we like this. Iโm never leaving. I love yโall.