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FEATURED WIP: The Devil's Bind

After a cult uses her blood to perform an infernal ritual, mid-century secretary Irene Bridges finds herself soul-bound to one of Hell's most powerful demons... but what begins as a reluctant partnership unfolds into a deliciously risque romance.

Read it on Wattpad. Details here. Last updated 12/11/24.

FFXIV Fics

All FFXIV requests can be found in the #my writing and/or #writing requests tags. Pieces over ~1k words will also be posted on my AO3. See below.

Thrice Undone (Thancred x G'raha x f!WoL series, NSFW) Differences (G'raha x m!Viera!WoL, NSFW) Pins and Needles (angsty Thancred) Another Chance (a Zenos AU) More Time (Erenville gets existential)

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Gonna bring back these bust commissions if anyone is interested! They're 40 USD (50 if they have complicated clothes or details - if you're unsure just ask!). I'm open to any characters, not just dragons, though I'd like to stick to animals rather than humans/machines/etc.

Contact: Holly.o.lucero@gmail.com

Sophia, the Boston woman from 1875 who haunts a lamp I got at Brimfield: what is a stay at home girlfriend, if you please?

me: well, it's a woman who's financially supported by the man she's dating, and she lives with him and usually keeps house and cooks for him

her: and they're not married?

me: well, no; hence "girlfriend" rather than "wife." I know that may alarm y-

her: oh calm down I know about Kept Women. he has no legal tie to her, though? she has no sort of standing with him in the eyes of the law? only his word that he'll follow through?

me: yes

her: and remind me again- you don't have to be financially dependent on a man anymore, right? there are more than like three careers open to women that will let you support yourself at a decent level now? and society isn't pressuring you 24/7 to get married and stop working outside the home?

me: yes

her: so these women. CHOOSE to be dependent on a man. who could leave them at any moment without legal consequence. because they don't like their jobs. the jobs, while imperfect, that let them live on their own, answerable to no-one

me: yes

her: that had better be some absolutely amazing jewelry they can pawn off if he leaves them, then

me: it's usually not

her: THERE'S NOT EVEN SECURITY JEWELRY?!

me: oh by the way they blame feminism for "having to work"

her:

her: I became fully dependent on my in-laws who hated me, after my husband died two years into our marriage, because I was a 23-year-old orphan with no marketable skills in any avenue besides Running A Household and the only men left unmarried in my social circle were widowers thirty years my senior. I also couldn't establish lines of credit as a widow because the merchants said my husband dying so soon meant that I didn't have stable enough income. and that was entirely legal

me: yeah

her: I'm going to go slam some doors please do not bother me

Stop giving men the ability to ruin your life 2k25

Not the point of this post but I'm endlessly amused that Tumblr has rediscovered ghosts as a cultural metaphor for confronting the horrors of the present through the lens of the past in meme format. The essays I could write-

@reverseblackholeofwords where are the essays bud? I want to read them

Okay, because you asked nicely and also because I love to ramble about ghosts given half a reason-

Within fiction, ghosts act as a personified representation of the horrors of the past brought to light in the narrative within much of our collective literary history. This is true especially of the ghosts of women, and *especially* the ghosts of women who haunt houses. Often you have whole types of ghosts that are centered around female identities: red ladies, white ladies, La Llorona and other such mourning mother ghosts, banshees arguably (although they are omens of death rather than actually deceased people, but they represent women as professional mourners throughout many cultures). Most of these ghosts represent a woman spurned and betrayed by a lover, violently murdered for being sexually promiscuous, or who had her children taken from her.

So, the ghost therefore becomes a very literal representation of the horrors done against women. And even if you lean slightly to the left or right with the trope of the Madwoman in the Attic like Bertha from Jane Eyre or the woman frozen in time who cannot leave her past behind like Miss Havisham in Great Expectations, you see these almost "living dead" women who cannot escape their homes, their marriages or potential marriages, and ultimately, their socially-driven fates.

I know this is going to make me sound pretensions but I have to get it off my chest. I feel an unimaginable rage when someone posts a photo and is like "this picture looks like a renaissance painting lol" when the photo clearly has the lighting, colors and composition of a baroque or romantic painting. There are differences in these styles and those differences are important and labeling every "classical" looking painting as renaissance is annoying and upsetting to me. And anytime I come across one of those posts I have to put down my phone and go take a walk because they make me so mad

In case you're curious here's what I mean.

Renaissance(distinct lines, stability and the individual man):

Baroque (bold, chaotic, dramatic):

Romantic(romanticize the simple hard working life):

Do you see the difference?

this post has re-wired my brain in the best way

what if you wore a shirt that featured a picture of you trying to claw your way out of the shirt with a horrid desperate expression and the text "THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME I'M TRAPPED IN THE SHIRT"

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