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hi I changed my username (was @/lonelyaroace)
I still have an almost two week long travel-intensive trip to get through. but mentally, i’m like fully in cruise vacation mode.
my grandmother is taking me on a cruise in may and I just did all the research on the trip and the ship and the super expensive basically all inclusive package that she got and like now I just want everything to be easy and free and on a cruise ship. not a logistical mess of transport, hotels, and walking directions. but alas I will prevail
#my gf’s next vacation was supposed to be a cruise but she had to cancel it#so she’s also in a chill cruise headspace#so it should all balance out#but like still it’s so many logistics#and i’m EXTREMELY anxious about the Ryanair baggage situation#everything will be better once that flight is done#bc then my gf will be navigating and dealing with transport tickets bc she knows what she’s doing and has done it before#hopefully it’ll be fine😭#grace is dramatic#public diary
staying in an allegedly 100+ year old house for free for a month. barely working heat and no AC. but free. can hear everyyyyything happening outside. but free and in a small little walkable town. slightly creepy and I fear may end up being haunted. but free and in a cool country. we shall see how this month goes😭
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And I try to understand why you would do this all to me
You must be insecure, you must be so unhappy
And I know in my heart hurt people hurt people
And we both drew blood, but, man, those cuts were never equal
And I try to be tough, but I wanna scream
How could anybody do the things you did so easily?
And I say I don't care, I say that I'm fine
But you know I can't let it go
I've tried, I've tried, I've tried
i’m giving it more time bc like i’ve learned people change and lie, but I believe i’ve maybe found a situation where I can have the EXACT relationship that I want and need? which after some false hope I had started to genuinely permanently believe wasn’t possible. but maybe it is possible. and is with someone that I know can handle her own shit and who makes me want to be a better and more productive person and who I can actually get support from and who knows how adult life works.
it’s heading towards being one of those situations where it’s either going to be the worst heartbreak of one’s life or a forever thing. either it’ll take a year to have to figure out how to move forward and what I want to do when it’s over, or we’ll be living in london together. we shall see.
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You can spam boop me!
reblog if you let people spam boop you
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so like what does it mean when the girl you’ve been talking to met up with her ex boyfriend last night and didn’t interact with you after that until almost noon the next day and just said “i’m so sorry I got all busy” when she’s just been at home but like still valid, but when you ask how the night went she hasn’t responded even tho she read the message 3 hours ago?
asking for a friend😭
okay so I was lowkey right
he JUST left and they talked the entire night and day basically😭 which is cool and good for her but yeah
I WAS FUCKING RIGHT
we started like officially dating the day after this, bc I said fuck it and like confirmed I was interested bc this sent me into such a spiral
and like I assumed I was wrong and nothing happened, BUT NO. SHE JUST TOLD ME THEY ACTUALLY DID FUCK OR ALMOST FUCKED😭
like it wasn’t technically wrong, but like in her words it was bad vibes😭
but if I count it as cheating, I would have an award for having every single girlfriend i’ve ever had cheat on me. that must be an accomplishment of some kind😭
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do not understand people who get bored of seeing common animals. understand even less when they act with annoyance or hostility just because they're common animals. a deer or a sparrow or a field mouse is like a sunset to me
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i'm tired of how boring the little free libraries are in my neighborhood. i'm going make a little newspaper to put in them. i will inject some whimsy and delight into this godforsaken suburb all by myself
i have to do everything around here