hi! my name is lumi or moonie (also known as auroraheart on ao3)! about me: they/he, 28, white, autistic

i'm a writer and i love shin soukoku and tachigugin (+ any variations) and sakaguchi ango <3

i like bungou stray dogs, link click, kpop and various other things!

this blog is just for my writing and occasional bsd brainrot! if you want more of me, follow @countakutagawa :D

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there are so many parallels between bsd 88 and bsd 122 but this one is making me feel the illest

one thing that 122 has highlighted to me is that sskk's lack of understanding is the only thing that hindered them until now.

akutagawa sought to understand atsushi, but was still caught up with his own reason to live and could not comprehend a world where somebody else had a deadly ability but could be treated so kindly. once he understood atsushi, and understood the reasons he wished to fight or go on missions, he trusted him with rashomon and even sacrificed himself to ensure the 'better' man went ahead.

whereas atsushi, up until 122, meets akutagawa and focuses on why. why was akutagawa always like this. why is it always dazai that akutagawa focuses on. why does akutagawa even help atsushi. why did he save atsushi. it's never clicked in his mind that all of these things could be linked - or even, that akutagawa is just as human as atsushi is.

now the puzzle is complete in atsushi's mind, he understands. he knows the answers to why akutagawa has done all of the things that he did, and he knows why he and akutagawa are meant to work together. he gets it. he understands.

oh thank you thank you <3

thank you so much <33333

sorry for being extremely mentally ill about throwing my posting schedule out the window do you still want me

unfortunately there is something in the water and that is the inevitable fear of nothingness

shin soukoku are so imperfect and that is what makes them so good. what do you mean you hate this guy because he’s like looking in a mirror, but you can only see what you deemed as the flawed parts of yourself. what do you mean you are always putting up some kind of front around other people but you can show your enemy the worst and truest version of yourself. what do you mean you are so far into your rivalry that even dying for each other becomes a competition.

god they are both such FREAKS neither of them have been normal for a single moment they have been alive and they make me want to eat glass.

also thank you so much :3

sskk post-amenogozen holding each other... ;_;

There was barely any hesitation in going back to Akutagawa's apartment. Not even after Kunikida's protests, and especially after Lucy had offered to stay with Kyouka for the night.

(She'd given him a look, eyebrows raised and arms folded. Go, it read, we'll see you tomorrow.)