@carapacecross / carapacecross.tumblr.com
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hi yall! i made the scp fictionkin/fictive/etc server!! its here!
ill accept pretty much anyone, i dont care, so long as you are scp related in some way! oc, canon, system, singlet, just please join TT-TT /nf /silly
uhhh people who showed interest on the interest check:
plus a couple others who i cant tag for some reason TT-TT
deeply obsessed with this
i know what you did last time loop
they hate me because i live a second life in my dreams and wake up changed from the experience
indeed.com/jobs/living-weapon
force de-dollification is that anything
personhood forced upon you again, no longer an object, no longer sitting on the shelf, agency once more
your purpose ripped from as you're thrown into the sea of needs you can never truly fill, still no more you must act
"death do us part!" Incorrect. You are forever fucking stuck with me. You will never leave me. I will find you in every single lifetime.
The only thing being "locked in" is you in the torture dungeon
maybe if i imagine the character all my problems will be solved
maybe… if i become the character… all my problems will be solved
they need to invent somewhere where I belong
the beauty of online anonymity in the alterhuman community is that i don't know what any of you look like irl, so when i read your posts and picture you speaking them aloud, i imagine that a wolf, or a crow, or a dragon, or whatever creature you may be, is the one speaking
sometimes a theme recurs in your work without your permission. and sometimes it reaches a threshold where you're like. well now i think this is saying something about me against my will. don't know what though
there's a particular sort of gut-wrenching envy i've been on and off experiencing since seeing that weather factory newsletter about strathcoyne and annabelle. i am carapace cross. i have always been. where is my transformation. when is it my turn. not to mention that while i don't know if i simply am a member of the cross or if i had an actual lifetime as one of them, i do have a timeline where i transformed (which does not answer the previous question because it is a different carapace-kind that i transformed into than the one that i am primarily kin with), and in the wake of this newsletter, i have just been replaying that memory again and again and again. that is me. that is supposed to be me. give it back.
