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Thom Tenery

I almost forgot the date.

honestly sometimes i wish i had gotten some kind of disorder that made me not give a fuck instead of getting a disorder that makes me give a fuck about way too many things

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honestly it’s so insane that morrowind is a dracula story with extra steps. like elder scrolls was cooking so extremely hard before oblivion they made gay dracula with elves and also insane evil femcel and a really annoying nonbinary guy. like come on man how is this game not an hbo original by now. not that i want that but like maybe mads mikkleson can reprise his role of hannibal lecter but in a loincloth and homestuck body paint. whatever i just need the girlies to know about this story because it absolutely whips ass in an insane gothic horror ways and it’s absolutely wasted on its audience of millenial incels with video game addictions and niche yaoi bloggers

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ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

*clicks play in morbid curiosity*

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I think I find this post every April Fools Day and I am so happy that I do

Posting this here too from what I wrote on Facebook/Instagram.

"It's Trans Day of Visibility. A day where we celebrate both those of us that are able to be openly out in the public and those who for whatever reason can't be.

It's hard to write anything given the climate of fear we live in. Hearing about the constant attacks on our rights, and existence is exhausting if not traumatic. Even posting here on Facebook, someone could call me a mentally ill tr*nny and there will be no repercussions.

Corporations are backing out of Pride, which, while it may seem like a good thing, it's more a harbringer of things to come. It signals our removal as acceptable members of a capitalist society.

And this hatred isn't limited to the states, but the UK and Canada too. And it starts by attacking trans children's rights to exist in public. To play sports. And this is what the Canadian Progressive Conservatives are running on.

So, in the face of these attacks, what can we do?

We gotta form community and protect one another. We have to let our trans siblings know that we love them. We have to stop our infighting and focus on fighting the ever looming enemy. And for myself; part of that is being open and visible to those around me.

So, once again. My name is Beatrice. I am a trans woman, and my pronouns are She/her."

Saying that a certain group of people is too privileged to complain about the way that things are is its own sort of defense of the status quo

Like if a white person from the American suburbs who had doctors for parents says "the suburbs are set up in a way that's designed to alienate the people within them from their neighbors growing up there can be an incredibly lonely isolating experience" and you respond with "shut up you had everything you ever wanted growing up" you are sort of pretending that this asocial way of living we've set up based on harmful ideas like castle doctrine and individualism is in some way desirable for someone when the reality of the situation is that everyone is miserable.

Oh boy this is popping off. But I just want to put on this post that this isn't just about the example that I used this is also when people get mad at you for complaining about aspects of living in America because other people are getting bombed by America how dare you, or when (usually neurodivergent) white people complain about how wasp monoculture is high key hostile to be raised in, or when people with middle class jobs complain about the shit their boss pulls, or any other number of situations in which a relatively privileged potential ally talks about the unique ways the oppressive systems we're looking to overthrow effects them negatively. Like yes sure if you have a minimum wage job it's annoying to listen to someone with a salary and benefits say "my boss treats me like shit and my company is doing x evil thing" but if you're in that situation and you're actually down for the cause instead of just here to play oppression Olympics, you want to gain allies in this fight by saying "have you considered unionizing" instead of pushing people away by saying "shut up at least you can afford rent"

I will NEVER see a prehistoric dinosaur

I will NEVER see an anomalocaris. I will NEVER hold a trilobite. I will NEVER see a dimetrodon or an eight foot long millipede. and I will NEVER see a pterosaur

Well as much as it pains me to say it they died

me: my ocpd traits don't rlly affect me

also me: I should create an intricate month to month schedule to track and enforce how often I hang out with every person in my life to make sure I am properly maintaining my social relations so that I can perfect the art of being a person who has friends. if I do not do this I have failed as a friend and as a human.

You may joke, but I def. feel this. I don't recall a time where I hadn't been writing down just that. Feels like the second I'd quit making social relations be part of my to-do structure I'd fail to maintain any relationship at all...

I recently made an argument flowchart... So that's where I'm at.

My mom accidentally joined a grieving support group (long story, she's not grieving tho) and she's missing it this week while visiting me and she's VERY concerned that Lorraine, who very kindly offered to bring a baked good like mom usually would, will NOT bring the correct kind of dessert, she says citrus tarts aren't "griefy" enough

ok so the way my mom accidentally joined a grieving support group when she's not grieving is this:

She's Catholic and has two churches. One is her Real Church but it's far from her house and tbh all the nice priests have died and the new priests are either lackluster or extremely conservative so sometimes she goes to the Other Church which is closer and more liberal but which she won't join permanently because she doesn't want to "cede the territory" of her Real Church to the conservatives (this is all backstory for flavor don't worry about it). Other Church once announced they were looking for volunteers for, like, a grief squad? Basically if someone was having a funeral but no one showed up to attend, the church would call in the squad and they'd mourn for the dead person and pray (which is important for Catholics because we believe you need that oomph to actually get to Heaven, don't worry about it). Anyway mom thought that was a nice concept so the next time she went back to Real Church she asked the head usher if they wanted to put together a similar squad there. The usher was like, oh we have one of those! It's every Wednesday night, you should join.

The miscommunication: the usher didn't understand the purpose of the squad mom was describing, just heard "grieving and mourning" and went to the next closest thing. Because my mom showed up to the Wednesday meeting and discovered a group of widows and widowers who are there to, like, discuss their own losses?

Why didn't my mom just leave when she realized the mistake? Great question. She had baked a cake (chocolate) thinking that would be appreciated (apparently funerals without real mourners are very short and boring) and she didn't want it to go to waste.

She stayed in the support group!! And has been attending! For a full YEAR.

She explained to the group leader that she isn't a widow and doesn't have anyone to grieve but all they said was "well everyone's lost somebody. Or will." So now my mom goes to the weekly meeting with her baked goods because she 1) doesn't want to be rude and leave the group and 2) apparently grieving people are the Most happy to get cookies so she gets to practice all these bonkers recipes shes wanted to try.

In mom's opinion the best kinds of dessert for grief is chocolate and caramel, or any kind of crunchy candy confection. Lemon and cream is "not mournful enough." She's absolutely wild I love her

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Silk & Dagger: A Sensible Drow RPG

Drow: Intensely matriarchal, tunnel-dwelling, scantily-clad warriors obsessed with an evil spider goddess. Why would anyone with access to magic and resources live in tunnels and fight half-naked? Enter: Silk & Dagger: A Sensible Drow RPG.

These dark elves have a long and sordid history, but now they live in a network of tightly constraining social rules, entangling them like a useless servant in the webs of a domesticated spider. Every Drow is the matriarch of a household of servants, and together (and apart), they must navigate the edicts of the Spider Goddess and keep up the Reputation that keeps them safe against other Drow.

Asymmetric Gameplay 

Silk & Dagger: A Sensible Drow RPG features two distinct player-character classes, and two distinct game master roles.

Players either take the role of a brutal mistress whom everything she says goes, whether she understands what she’s talking about or not, and whose position of dominance is maintained by the respect of her peers, respect that hinges on how brutal and controlling she is to her subordinates; or an array of pathetic servants who are helpless without their mistress’s “leadership,” (and maybe even be more so with it).

In addition to the standard game master role, the one who sets up the scenario and runs the NPCs, there is a secondary game master role, that of the Spider Goddess, representing the social scrutiny weighing down on every caste of this strict, ruthless society. Silk & Dagger encourages rotation of players in and out of these roles, rewarding them with points that can be spent to give their own PCs an edge next time they play a PC.

Satire and Deconstruction 

Silk & Dagger: A Sensible Drow RPG takes many of the established trappings of “dark elves” and asks “what kind of society and environment would actually produce individuals like this?” This question is the springboard off which the satire launches, and lands uncomfortably close to home.

Comedy 

Taking inspiration from games like Paranoia, Silk & Dagger: A Sensible Drow RPG presents a situation where survival often hinges on working together, but social pressures, class divides, and constant scrutiny encourage player-characters to do anything but, resulting in a sitcom-esque comedy-of-errors in a grimdark, lightless world.

An elf girl with a gun could save me

types of people : aac / emojis cluster c edition 🚨🚨 these are not medical terms 🚨🚨

exception person :

safe person :

relient person :

As someone with OCPD, exception person is such an ~interesting~ term. I don't hate it entirely, but the way it is described here is somewhat -- not how I think it works necessarily? For one thing, the exception wouldn't be to our rules and rigidity. Our rules are there because we need control; no one is exempt from that. Don't get me wrong, we are capable of giving up control, but it's part of the process of learning to work around/with the OCPD; it's still deeply uncomfortable; exception person implies it's... well, an exception.

But at the same time it doesn't exactly not exist either? It's just... so specific. For me, an exception person is someone I trust enough to let them do things for me. I do not like asking for help. I hate it when people do things for me. Because even if they were well intentioned, I have no way of knowing if they did it right. The only way I can know that is if I do it myself. And if I do fuck up, at least it was me who fucked up and I'll know right away. Someone could do something for me perfectly and I'd still be deeply uncomfortable because of that uncertainty, that lack of agency and control.

So to me, an exception person is someone I trust to do things for me. It can range from blanket to being hyperspecific; take programming. If I consider someone at least as competent as I am with coding, then they are an exception person within the context of programming, and only within the context of programming. If they disagree with me or have a different way of doing things, that's fine. They've demonstrated a level of competence that it doesn't bother me.

The only "blanket" exception persons I have in my life are my partners, and even then I'm not fully comfortable with them doing things for me; it just bothers me substantially less than with other people.

Anyway, this isn't meant to be critical of the poster, just -- I don't really see many ppwOCPD talk about this exception person idea, and this is what it means to me personally ig.