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@devilsuncomet

Wreathed in an an ever burning flame, I am cast anew from the kimber-forge: a requiem to what has come before. 21, she/her, transfem, can't think of any more information worth putting in here lmao

If I see another youtube video reviewing a ttrpg for its ability to "make your DnD game better" I swear to god I am going to start setting things on fire.

YOU CAN JUST PLAY THE FUCKING GAME

NOT EVERYTHING NEEDS TO BE CHOPPED AND GRAFTED INTO THE BEATEN CORPSE OF DND 5E

Ttrpgs deserve praise and critical examination on their own. Not as an exploitable extant of a "main" game.

If I designed a game and put in it hours and sweat and tears balancing mechanics and bonuses and procedures and narratives only for a nerd to chop it off and slap it in the middle of the hyper comercial husk that dnd 5e is... I would go postal.

I hate that tge thing I hear from people most often about my game The Magical Land of Yeld is "oh, I can use this in my D&D game!". Or done version if that.

Listen, if you need to hack up other games to make your D&D game work, maybe just play those other games instead?

This introduction was once a long meandering tangent disparaging the fact that the community i once held dear is completely dead, and yet it's still stuck in my mind like some cancerous fucking tumor. But times change, and instead all I'm going to say is,

you should play mspaint RISK (and join our new discord @ https://discord.gg/Sdn2TgEeMN):

The thing about RISK is there's no real way to describe it apart from, it's not anything like the board game it shares a name with. There are some central, recurring components sure (99% of maps have dice rolls, and involve you conquering territory) but apart from that? the sheer beauty in it lies in that you can invent and do literally whatever the fuck you want. And people have! In that archive there are thousands - and i really mean that, last i checked it was over 2000, maybe even closer to 3000 - maps, all made over the course of over a decade, with a shit ton of varying rules and rulesets, covering literally every IP and location imaginable;

the explainer document i gave above is an introduction, but it's genuinely only the top of the iceberg. I first discovered RISK when i was 12-13 years old, and since then it's completely taken over my life. It's brought me some of the most fun and novel experiences I've ever had, and I'm completely genuine when I say that I've never found anything even remotely like it. But, for the longest time it's brought me nothing but shame. The old community that birthed this game is one of the most violent and toxic places I've ever been a part of.

As a result, we're now building something new, on the foundations of the old. I'd love nothing more than to start over more or less from scratch - to excise the bad parts of the old risk community, and bring in fresh blood from here - but in order to do that I need your help. If you're interested in anything in the explainer document I linked earlier, or if anything in this post has sparked your interest, I highly recommend joining our server.

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wtf is going on at youtube

we should hold ourselves to the standard of looking up if something is even real before we start writing think pieces probably

My mom passed away last night.

I'm sorry in advance if some of this doesn't make too much sense, I'm totally lost and numb and I need an outlet.

Let me preface this by saying my mom was my rock and my whole world. We were very close and she has always been my absolute best friend. My mom had me when she was 23 and raised me mostly all by herself along with my grandma. She has been through so much and she has always been the strongest woman I've ever known.

When we lost my grandma in late 2020 and youngest brother in July 2023, we were devastated on both occasions. It was a massive loss to my mom, my other younger brother and I. Since then my mom's health has declined in various ways. I have been living with her to take care of her and make sure she is eating and staying as healthy as possible, but the pain has just been too hard to overcome.

Please keep reading if you are able to, and please reblog.

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Please keep boosting so I can reach this goal. To those who have helped, I cannot thank you enough and I want to plan to do something nice for you in return when I'll be able to. ❤️

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Me: The egg episode of RGU is not just another episode of comic relief where Anthy ker-pranks Nanami but also a sign that Nanami is breaking from Touga’s control. The egg can be seen to represent one of two things- menstruation from the fact that it is an egg, and how Nanami worries that it’s weird before obsessing how other girls have gotten it before her, or a gay awakening seeing her rose tinted view of Utena and how she turns red being touched by her in the episode, plus the out of nowhere “Homosexuality is bad” talk Touga gives her in the middle of the episode. Perhaps a mix of the two. These two things are both associated with growing up and becoming more mature and in the case of a gay awakening, sure of yourself. Things that take control away from Touga. If you go with a lesbian reading, she wouldn’t even be attracted to him, thus taking away the power of his grooming. Hence why he doesn’t want her to have the egg and she feels forced to abandon it. In the end however, she chooses the egg over Touga, in the process also choosing a living being over Touga, which could be seen as a major step forward since the drowned cat, choosing to salvage the animal that came between her and her brother instead of smother it because she’s decided it is more important. The episode ends with the egg being cracked and her crying in despair, but it could also be a symbolic reference to “the worlds shell breaking” and Nanami having come upon revolution.

People with low spoons, someone just recommended this cookbook to me, so I thought I’d pass it on.

I always look at cookbooks for people who have no energy/time to do elaborate meal preparations, and roll my eyes. Like, you want me to stay on my feet for long enough to prepare 15 different ingredients from scratch, and use 5 different pots and pans, when I have chronic fatigue and no dishwasher?

These people seem to get it, though. It’s very simple in places. It’s basically the cookbook for people who think, ‘I’m really bored of those same five low-spoons meals I eat, but I can’t think of anything else to cook that won’t exhaust me’. And it’s free!

SPREAD THE WORD THIS IS FUCKING GOD TIER OH MY GOD, SOMETIMES I HAVE SPOONS SOMETIMES I DON’T BUT NO COOKBOOK OFFERS LEVELS IN THEIR RECIPES THIS ONE DOES!

i feel like game piracy is sometimes viewed as this massive disruption to the game industry and not just “a small group of people who weren’t going to buy a game anyways now have it on their computer.” when companies report “losses” due to piracy that’s fake. that’s a fake number because no money was actually ever exchanged and companies cannot possibly know how many people actually pirated their game. piracy does not work like this

My wife has developed a very sudden and unexpected hololive vtuber fixation out of nowhere but the ones she was specifically showing me have a kind of similar interactive dynamic to my wife and I so I'm just assuming it's actually like a vicarious psychosexual thing and I'm spinning it that technically any attention payed to these two vtubers is actually a roundabout way of giving me attention so I win in the end and get my ego fed without lifting a finger

this doesn't work actually it's backfired now I've ended up saying things like "tch i would do that thing that the vtuber that reminds you of me would do too and i'd do it cuter. you dont even need her" so i think i have discovered a whole new way to be unwell about a vtuber without being unwell about a vtuber in the normal way to be unwell about one.

here’s my two cents about the “I’m bald” phenomenon as stand-in for “see results” on polls that have nothing to do with hair.

replace “I’m bald” with anything else people are body shamed for, and imagine that’s the trait this website latched onto to represent “I don’t think there’s anyone here with this trait, and even if there were, their opinion isn’t worthwhile.”

Like imagine if every single poll had “I’m fat/see results” or “I’m short/see results” or “I’m blind/see results” or “I have a cleft palate/see results” or “I use a wheelchair/see results.”

I think most people would acknowledge that with anything else it comes off as mean, so what is it about baldness that makes it ok?

yes, I am in fact aware of the origin, which is why I said “on polls that have nothing to do with hair” right off the bat.

the origin doesn’t really matter much when people are posting it on every other poll anyway, does it? which was the point I was making.

it makes me really sad because I don’t think most people realize how little people take baldness seriously.

People are rushing onto this post to say “It’s not that deep” “it’s just because it’s funny” well baldness is ALWAYS funny to you people, isn’t it?

Have you ever paid attention to how often bald edits are made in fandoms? Have you ever seen someone genuinely headcanon a character as a bald? Have you ever considered how most people’s first reaction to seeing someone bald is to laugh?

This poll thing doesn’t exist in isolation. This is part of a much larger phenomenon.

if you weren’t really sure how to feel about this topic, I would like to point out that this post immediately became VERY unpopular with terfs & irony-poisoned conservatives, if that gives you any kind of hint

The way the world treats us, the way we've been punished in every possible way since the beginning of our lives, and now they move us around like chess pieces. They wanted us there, then they wanted us to leave, then to stay, as if we have no will of our own. Can you imagine what that does to us, as the people of Gaza? As if we're not human beings. Some people romanticize our suffering, turning us into symbols or superheroes, while others see us as nothing, as objects to be moved from place to place. Can you imagine the impact of this on those who have physically survived this genocide? How we see ourselves?

How we see the way the world sees us? We are treated as everything except human beings.

My family are living now on the rubble of our destroyed house since they returned to northern Gaza without the minimum necessities of life, with no shelter or tent, without food or water! They just light a fire and gather around it to keep warm. Please don’t leave us alone with this suffering. This is not a human life and everyone has abandoned us and the people.

shared by 90-ghost, See screenshot of @90-ghost’s reblog of their gfm fundraiser below

The planes in the sky above us are flying densely. They are preparing to seize their targets shortly, as usual. They are taking their daily share of lives, blood, and the bodies of children sleeping peacefully. We do not know who will be next. But now everyone is equal under the siege and starvation in the tents.

Stop putting vaspider on my dash, they're the one who kicked off the hysteria against Palestinian gofundme's leading to people taking back thousands of dollars they've donated and reporting their fundraisers as fraudulent, potentially dooming families to death

i’ve successfully evaded bad jokes by jeff/writing prompts/drawing prompts for a while i think but just in case he’s still lurking out there he majorly contributed to this too and made a ton of really racist/islamophobic posts

This is especially relevant now that staff deactivated Ahmed aka 90s-ghost's blog, and more than a years life-saving work he did verifying fellow Palestinian's fundraisers.

Ahmed's been on tumblr for more than a decade, has had a news article written about him, been in fandoms, has many close friends on here, etc etc....he's a real human being that tumblr staff very much knows is a real person. Vaspider and Badjokesbyjeff are absolutely responsible for directing organized harassment and mass reporting his way, and staff are going to get Palestinians killed by deactivating 90s-ghost.

He's kept so many people alive this past year through tumblr, and deactivating his account cuts off hundreds of families from their best hope of raising desperately needed funds for survival supplies as Israel bombs Palestine. Ahmed himself is trying to keep his own family, including a baby, alive too - you can donate to him here. Info on demanding staff reactivate his account here.

when I was a little kid at some point I got upset with my parents because I didn't have a crucifix in my bedroom and they did- I was like why do YOU get to be safe from vampires??? you're okay with me getting my blood sucked???? so we took a little trip to the catholic store but the one closest to us was run by a group of nuns that had been moved here from romania. I got a little baby pink cross and this sweet old nun was like 'aww, is this a baptism gift?' and I was like no. I need to be protected from vampires. and she immediately got SO serious and was like 'this is the best one we've got, you'll definitely be safe' and since she was literally from vampire land I was convinced she was like, van helsing. like the whole time my parents had been laughing about how cute my fear was but she literally Knew dracula and was taking my concerns seriously I held this over my parents for so long lmfao

My mom accidentally joined a grieving support group (long story, she's not grieving tho) and she's missing it this week while visiting me and she's VERY concerned that Lorraine, who very kindly offered to bring a baked good like mom usually would, will NOT bring the correct kind of dessert, she says citrus tarts aren't "griefy" enough

ok so the way my mom accidentally joined a grieving support group when she's not grieving is this:

She's Catholic and has two churches. One is her Real Church but it's far from her house and tbh all the nice priests have died and the new priests are either lackluster or extremely conservative so sometimes she goes to the Other Church which is closer and more liberal but which she won't join permanently because she doesn't want to "cede the territory" of her Real Church to the conservatives (this is all backstory for flavor don't worry about it). Other Church once announced they were looking for volunteers for, like, a grief squad? Basically if someone was having a funeral but no one showed up to attend, the church would call in the squad and they'd mourn for the dead person and pray (which is important for Catholics because we believe you need that oomph to actually get to Heaven, don't worry about it). Anyway mom thought that was a nice concept so the next time she went back to Real Church she asked the head usher if they wanted to put together a similar squad there. The usher was like, oh we have one of those! It's every Wednesday night, you should join.

The miscommunication: the usher didn't understand the purpose of the squad mom was describing, just heard "grieving and mourning" and went to the next closest thing. Because my mom showed up to the Wednesday meeting and discovered a group of widows and widowers who are there to, like, discuss their own losses?

Why didn't my mom just leave when she realized the mistake? Great question. She had baked a cake (chocolate) thinking that would be appreciated (apparently funerals without real mourners are very short and boring) and she didn't want it to go to waste.

She stayed in the support group!! And has been attending! For a full YEAR.

She explained to the group leader that she isn't a widow and doesn't have anyone to grieve but all they said was "well everyone's lost somebody. Or will." So now my mom goes to the weekly meeting with her baked goods because she 1) doesn't want to be rude and leave the group and 2) apparently grieving people are the Most happy to get cookies so she gets to practice all these bonkers recipes shes wanted to try.

In mom's opinion the best kinds of dessert for grief is chocolate and caramel, or any kind of crunchy candy confection. Lemon and cream is "not mournful enough." She's absolutely wild I love her

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