girl help they Got me

okay, I'm not sure when or if tumblr staff will ever respond to the help requests we've sent in so I will set up shop a little better here for us all.

mainly, I just feel this may be useful:

🌻 = the whole system: Dandy (they/them), though we prefer to be referred to by our individual names and pronouns when possible

❔ = blurry or unknown, we use this when we're too muddled or tired to know who is at front

🐑 = Juno (they/it)

🖤 = Chase (he/any)

☁️ = Mara/Mari/Marisol (she/her)

💫 = Ori/Orion (he/they/starself)

🐺 = Hunter (he/him)

💙 = Lake (he/they) (not around much lol, I'm a main caretaker in the system so I'm busy!)

^ will be added onto as others post here but for now that's who has been posting to this blog thus far (as far as I know). there are (currently) around 20 parts/alters/members in our system, but I am only listing the ones who post to this blog.

"the centre" is a mental health activity centre that we go to most weekdays, especially for the free lunches that are available Wed-Fri. we volunteer in the kitchen on Thursdays in the morning to make sandwiches. we talk about the centre a lot because it is about 70% of the Living we do these days.

okay but genuinely why does our brother find such glee in the fact that dolphins display rape-like behaviour. like why is that funny to him. why does he get such a kick out of sharing that info with others. am i being stupid for thinking that is weird and fucked up of him.

ah. friday tomorrow. chuckles. I'm in danger.

mootbort

kishi is trying its best

im gonna be so real here. all the other parts are such defeatists and pessimists and i get why but it is driving me a little bit nuts!!!

like we just want to play video games and make art and curl up in a soft bed and go for walks around in forests and other nature. and maybe if we're lucky have ppl care abt us. but that is impossible to have because the entire world is on fire, we cannot carve out that life for ourselves. and we want to help with the World-On-Fire stuff but the brain is being overwhelmed constantly with just Surviving? I don't know!

we are very very selfish i think actually

its like. everything hurts. life is so impossible to live just for personal reasons. we want to carve out a life for ourself/ves and experience things and feel okay. but then its not just the personal stuff making life impossible. the entire world feels like it is collapsing rn.

like things were already scary in the world just existing as we do, but now everything seems to be getting so much worse. how do we make a life for ourselves when everything is on fire !!!

started pkmn heartgold in the backroom of the kitchen w the lights turned off bc kitchen lady let us work alone today so we chose the light level and ofc we chose darkness LMAO. i finished making sandwiches 45 mins early so i ate lunch early and then opened pkmn to begin the savefile :o)

anyways we have a cyndiquil named Clove and she is our first female pkmn starter which is very exciting and our first fire-type starter. (other two starters have been piplup named Henry and rowlet named Yiiboo) (if pkmn white had worked the pig probably would've been our first fire-type starter but whageverrrrr it simply wasn't meant to be ig)

i suppose the lay-offs explain why staff is taking five million years to get back to us. is it even worth hoping for anymore? probably not!