Musings & Morsels

the shimp got too much attention and now there are transphobes in my notes, this is a transgender blog run by a transgender dyke. fuckers.

Reblog this loby when they least expect it.

it was not on wheat...

The fact that the guy doesn't even have a sandwich at the end, too

Do I have to do everything myself around here?

Clean it up hiro….

Former infosec worker here, my 2 cents on this:

>4chan was running on an EXTREMELY OLD version of php so it was vulnerable as fuck

>hacker found vulnerability back on 2021 and played the long game so they could take down the entire site

>alongside admin info, entire source code leaked

>site used deprecated connections to MySQL server, insecure as shit

>site had a file with whitelisted countries that could post freely while others needed to wait for 900 SECONDS TO GET THE CAPTCHA.

>whole code base needs to be updated in order to get the server running up again, which could take a long long time, and could be deemed not worthy by Hiro, so this may actually be the end of 4chan

Remember kids, update and patch vulnerabilities if you don't want to get nuked out of the face of the earth by the hacker known as 4chan

and now is a good time to change your passwords and make sure everything is backed upped, no matter the platform. especially bc the hellsite we're on right now just had a shit ton of layoffs

back on topic tho. for the cesspool being, exactly that. I really hope the entire site doesn't go down. it is, insane how much internet history it holds. it's one of the few sites you can go to when looking for lost media and asking for help searching. very few platforms uphold the free speech the old day of the internet used to have before being a corporate hellscape of sanitization in the name of ads.

don't get me wrong, it's just as horrible as they say. there will always be the consequence of dipshits being dipshits if you try to uphold anonym and 'free-for-all' forms no matter what site is is. It is my personal hobby to go digging in rabbit holes that most ppl probably shouldn't be going down if they wanna sleep at night. literally nsfl material when it's not conspiracy racist monologuing. or slur-monologuing more like it.

but taking it down is like burning a restricted banned book. yeah, it's horrible. and not just anyone should be reading that shit. the site is 18+ for a reason. but also the implications of all the data lost for the past 20 years (bc if the wayback machine can't find something, this was last hope) is tragic.

And the 20 years is not an exaggeration. It's been around since 2003. if it were a person it's past the legal drinking age. The site is one of the last breaths of the old internet. This is where creepypastas and the first SCP originated from before the name even existed for the short horror stories. Most of the internet memes we know today came from 4chan (the rickroll, lolcatz). Hell, for a long time before the mid 2010s, tumblr and 4chan were like sibling sites. both communities were very familiar with each other since 4chan started off as an anime/manga form. and still to this day, both sites have predominate fandom-centric areas that take up over half of the websites

from my understanding, 4chan didn't fall into q anon right wing bs till the mid 2010s, around 2015-2016. more or less because the other mods/janitors were basically mia / didn't give a shit about running the site. and the one that did was named rapeape and was actively recruiting / encouraging that type of bs. tho I'm sure the username probably explained that on it's own.

I think I personally have a lot of feelings about it though bc I'm an archiver. technology and early internet from the 1980s to 2015, and how it's impacted different cultures and created subcultures is a Major special interest of mine.

The best way to explain it is that, if social media were web browsers. twitter would be google. tumblr would be firefox. and 4chan is an onion / tor browser. in the early part of it's decade, 4chan had Actual activist and hackers that would do shit. shit half of tumblr can barely reblog and then call it 'helping'

and losing 4chan has Very similar implications to "if people wanted to deleted the dark web" and why that is Bad. Like yeah, it's very fucking obvious there is some horrible things lurking over there that it's infamous for. but at the end of the day in their own way are necessary evils.

because if you were being hunted by your government, that's the place that was 'safe' enough to post to.

because if you wanted to whistleblow some very shady shit without exposing your identity, that's where you could go

because if you wanted to let loose and barely have any repercussion on what you say, that's where you'd go

because if you know things that you shouldn't, this was the place to get it off your chest

and these days, there are Very, very few places on the public internet where anyone can do that while being anonymous. much less in terms of social media and forums

Where's my Breakfast?

Oil on Panel 30x30 cm

Artist: Daniel Arthur

Contextless Doctor Who spoilers:

Me: "Aww. Polish-bot. I feel sadder about that than Sasha 55."

My wife: "That's because Polish-bot had a personality."

Further contextless spoilers:

The villain is revealed.

Me: "Wow. This is some incel shit."

An actual honest-to-goodness line in Doctor Who 2025:

"Planet of the Incels(!)".

the devil and man in the garden

I forgot to post this on trans day of visibility.

see you next year, loves.

Horse breed of the day: Dutch Draft

Height: 15-16 hh

Common coat colors: Blue roan, bay and grey

Place of origin: Netherlands

Doctor give me the surgery that makes me this

Best I can do is cover your feet in mud and give you a blue hair rinse, sorry

Ask not for whom poob has it. It has it for thee

The unparalleled sinking feeling of having a chronic illness and reading those dreaded words, 'mostly occurs in women'

Me: my legs hurt whenever I lie down and sometimes I can't walk or stand without pain for weeks at a time

The entire medical universe: ah... the diagnosis is... woman... nothing we can do about it... the female body is a mysterious entity... no blood... no bone... no marrow... only pain... blame Eve, I guess?... take a paracetamol... we will never know the nebulous reasons behind what ails womankind...

If there's one clinching argument that trans women are women, it's that doctors do this to us, too.

Sort of highlights why women throughout history handled their own medical care, doesn't it?

Beyblade heavyweight division

so many of the transfems i know spent their time pre-transition performing a kind of lifelong exercise in self-deprivation. the goal, for them, was to find out exactly how little a person needed to live. they starved themselves, dressed carelessly, shunned friends, and hollowed themselves out so as not to be burdens on anyone but themselves.

i see it now, too, in the girls around me. i'll ask if they want care – a home-cooked meal, relaxed company, sex without the expectation of reciprocation – and they say no, no, thank you, i don't need it; what would you like, what do you want, because in their head they're still doing that awful calculus, still training themselves to disappear in the eyes of the people around them.

i don't think i'd have died without transition – not in the conventional sense, at least – but to take that leap, i had to stop thinking of myself as a human experiment in fuel-efficient living and start nurturing the anemic, atrophied flame of desire in my heart. i had to learn to eat well, to exercise, to style myself beautiful, but harder than that, i had to learn to ask the people around me to work on my behalf in order to enrich my life and give me the things i wanted.

and i did it; i learned. and it was agony, but courage is a muscle you can train, and every day i get better at accepting gifts with the hungry gratitude i never learned in my years and years as a sad, scared, lonely boy.

so be patient with the trans girls in your life. better than that: be proactive, attentive, generous; be forceful, if you have to, and learn to distinguish real discomfort from the terrified reflex of self-deprivation that so many of us learned to rely on.

and if you are so lucky as to love a trans girl, you must insist upon her. you must insist upon her happiness, her comfort, her pleasure, and her rest, because she may still not yet know how to make those demands for herself. if you can devote any amount of energy to becoming an engine that nurtures the flame of even a single tgirl then there is a place for you in trans heaven, which as far as i'm concerned is the only one worth going to

100% the correct answer!