the character

i fear the situation is dire

people might think creating OC lore involves a lot of thinking & planning, but in my personal experience, OC development is more like a divine vision from a god slamming you over the head with a mallet while ur doing the fuckin dishes or folding laundry

A moment to once again appreciate some posts on the Pigeon subreddit.

my brain is spamming a button just labelled "BAD AND WRONG" (one of many) and i dont know. what it means. or what it is.

i dont think its a panic attack this has been on and off for a few days now but. i also have. no idea what it is. this shit sucks

WHATS WRONGGGGGG WHY ARE THE ALARMS BLARING WHAT IS THE FUCKING PROBLEM

Join me on my journey to finally unbalance my hormones, toxify my body, boost my inflammation, maximize my cortisol and absolutely destroy my gut health.

I just realized it's literally just the fucking humors again. We've arrived back at the starting line.

despite everything you have to try and be niceys. i think

if u think im annoying now wait until i get over my fear of being perceived as annoying

Liking character is fun until you think about them and you just have to stare at nothing for a few minutes because of how tragic

And mauybe you are almost crying but you are having fun

^ having the time of their life obsessing over The character^tm

saying “i want him” about the character but not in a romantic or sexual way . i just Require him i need to Obtain him

NICOS!

CRT-TV Drums. The sound is produced by catching static electricity from a CRT with the hands and sending electrical signals through the body to a guitar amplifier📺

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ブラウン管ドラム。ブラウン管テレビの静電気を手でキャッチして身体を通して電気信号をギターアンプに送ることで音を鳴らす📺

Played by Ei Wada

Created by Ei Wada x Rinichi Washimi x Nicos Orchest-Lab

NEW SINGLE / VIDEO ALBUM

I would dearly love for more people to be capable of differentiating between public risk and personal risk.

Examples: drinking is a personal risk. Drinking and driving is a public risk. Going scuba diving is a personal risk. Running a scuba shop with faulty equipment is a public risk. Riding a bicycle without a helmet is a personal risk. Not maintaining public transport safety standards is a public risk. Foraging for mushrooms is a personal risk. Advertising a mushroom identification app that uses shoddy AI is a public risk. Elective surgery is a personal risk. Not wearing a mask in a doctor's waiting room when you are sick with a contagious illness is a public risk.

I could go on just about forever here. But it's a really important distinction and it drives me nuts when they get conflated, and it's so common.

"Your Liberty To Swing Your Fist Ends Just Where My Nose Begins"

now see him gliding serenely

made pasta and our delightful brother who we essentially raised is sat on the kitchen table eating it out of the pot with a fork like some kind of fucking beast

meds reasoning for why kit does this is that it quote "just tastes better out of the pot" unquote. this house is torture

the way the internet (and the world at large, really) is so utterly unsafe for schizospecs and ppl w/ delusions &/or hallucinations honestly sickens me, esp in "mad pride" spaces (which in reality tend to serve to only destigmatize the "good" demonized disorders (bpd and npd specifically, with an utter lack of any mention of hpd or dpd, let alone stpd)) where you'd think that'd they'd be the first to stand up for us. i feel like every single time i see positivity or mad pride posts, schizospecs are either fully left out or vaguely brushed over. this and the fact that "im in your walls"/"i see you"/etc jokes are still rampant really makes me wonder if people actually care, or if we're simply a thing people can bring up for and then toss out when we've served the purpose of making them seem like a good person.

idk, i'm very lucky to have mutuals & friends who are very accepting & welcoming about schizospecs so i don't exactly see this as often unless i leave the safe haven of our heavily regulated dashboard but. the culture persists even then yknow. i still have to face the fact that im less of a real being and more-so someone they can namedrop as a way to show off how "progressive" they are. it's just kind of strange to see so much positivity for literally everyone else and then be delegated to a violent, hysteric stereotype who's going to fly off the handle at any chance