On November 7th at 2:55 pm the game has been cleared

some transfem kirito ramblings

I wanna write down some of my thoughts in regards to Kirito's egg cracking journey (or I never will!):

So in volume 5+6 (ggo arc) WE (the readers) get a glimpse into the possibility of girl!Kirito. But while Kirito also gets a glimpse into a possible future, she mainly gets pushed back into the closet!

Besides the mass of trauma through Death Gun, the events must have pushed her back further into her egg. Since to her the system basicly said "sometimes the brain's gender is different from the assigned one, but yours isn't one of those cases!". (Leaving aside that "female brain" or whatever is a bunch of bullshit.)

So I think Kirito must have interpreted this as 'I am not a girl (dissapointed)'.

And there is one scene in volume 6 that greatly underlines this:

(Not to mention that scene where Sinon says Kirto reminded her of her mom. And Kirito being disappointed that it's mainly because she doesn't remember her dad at all.)

(Through Sinon the arc also asks US the question of 'Who is the real Kirito'.)

Then in the Alicisation arc Kirito gets a glimpse of what it is like to be away from her projected shell (i.e. The Black Swordsman/Dual Bladed Kirito). She even recognizes that it is an artificial personality layer. But then she gets forced back into that shell, to defeat first Chudelkin and then Quinella.

(The Star King is obviously the logical extreme of that personality. And she literally has keep that personality to still being the strongest, or the order of the underworld would be disturbed. Though I have the theory that in those 200 years she did crack her egg, but decided to not act on it.)

And for Kirito to crack her egg she needs confront this layer of artificial personality. (And meet a trans woman, but we got Istar for that *wink*)

And in unital ring that is happening! First in the game part she is mostly confronted with the negatives of her image: She literally only gets stabbed by that first guy because she was famous as the one who came second in the big ALO tournament!

And second: At every step, she rejects being the Star King!

(But thats enough of this rambling. Btw I think Reki thinks we must have long ago figured all this out. Which is why in every promotional image lately Kirito is presented in the most fem way possible! Either that or he is just impatient with his own slow burn egg cracking story.)

love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking

Also like. It used to be like that. I think some people forget we had a relatively ad-free internet.

Not only was the internet mostly ad-free, but online ads were almost always presumed to be scams. We would specifically install pop-up blockers because we were so distrusting of ads. Even if they weren't straight up malware, we didn't want people trying to get our money and our data (which is the point of legitimate ads). When did we stop caring?

A lot of the backbone of the internet used to belong to educational institutions and governments.

Now, most of it belongs to companies.

If we want the internet to get back to being free? It needs to be viewed as a public resource and paid for by taxes.

This is a great idea btw and should happen.

turns out brain trying to compartmentalize all our autistic traits doesn't work out well when th@ compartmentalization makes a whole new person

" when ur alone u can be mask off" only works if we never get overwhelmed . unfortunately for our brain , we're autistic

I think one of the more painful aspects of transmisogyny is thinking about how much of it is perpetuated in children's media. finding out about some male character in a kids show that wears a dress and makeup for comedic effect will never stop hurting, because you just know all the little trans girls watching that will internalize the idea that anyone with broad shoulders and a deep voice who partakes in femininity deserves to be an object of ridicule. you know that because the same thing happened to you 20 years ago, and you still find yourself worried when you go out in public that someone will scream at you for being a man in a dress and a danger to children. and it just makes you wonder if anything will ever really change

y i come out when they get overwhelm

i'm not good at when overwhelm

i'm not good at talk

but i still come out when overwhelm

I am using my communication board now though. it is helping

If you’re a man and you hate your body for no easily identifiable reason, consider: maybe you’re a woman (and that’s a cool and good thing)

sometimes gender dysphoria isn’t “I wish I looked like a cis woman”; sometimes it’s just a grey sense of loathing and detachment about your body!

anyways go start hormones