The beloved form of my cosmic horror, Art by Lucas Garcete

everything’s moving too fast

it feels like most days, i’m

standing still, observing the 

movement as it blurs past

my tired vision.

~K.T.

defeating myself

i unclench my fists. 

my skin takes a gasp of

breath. begs for a release

from this constant tension. 

i release the weakness 

that lives inside me. turn away.

~K.T.

Bleh

;_;

writhing, decaying in endless cycles

10 things for 10 people you'd like to know better:

I also started a new post because these things really do get so long!

Thanks for tagging me @valar-did-me-wrong and @gingeragenda

Last Song:

Last Book: The Silmarillion (dipping in and out as research for my fanfic).

Last Movie: I honestly can’t remember 🫠

Last TV Show: The Traitors

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: Savoury just pips it for me

Relationship Status: Married

Last Thing Googled: Wolverine running naked into a barn (was for a conversation I was having with a friend 🙈😂)

Current Obsession: Melkor, Adar, Gil-galad

Looking Forward To: My birthday

Last Creative Project Worked On: My fanfic

No pressure tags for @greenleaf4stuff, @iwanderbecauseimlost, @whenimaunicorn, @varda-starqueen, @strifes13, @small-carbon-lifeform, @marilynshamu, @perlen-gold, @gracefallingart, and @marshmellin (also anyone else who’d like to play).

Thank you so much for tagging me @gauntletgirlie !!!

Last song:

Last Book: Jurassic Park by Michael Crichton

Last Movie: Oblivion

Last TV Show: Agatha Christie's Ms Marple & Heeramandi

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: Savoury AND spicy ❤️‍🔥

Relationship Status: Single as a Pringle xP

Last Thing Googled: TVÖD (XD to help my sister checking her new salary at her new job)

Current Obsession: Sauron/Mairon, Angbang

Looking Forward To: Meeting my friends for a session of Vampires: The Masquerade (given that I'm healthy enough to do so ☺️ ) and learning a new drum solo choreography (I'm a belly dancer).

Also getting new, super-expensive strings for my violin!

Also finishing my current writing project (which will render me competely immobile with extreme anxiety once I'm ready to publish it!!!) So... I better not look forward to THAT.

Also teaching my fifth-graders all about coordinate systems and vectors to my seventh graders! (Look, I'm weird 😏)

Last Creative Project Worked On: Goldbound (Angbang fanfiction)

Tagging @gracefallingart @saintstars @sauron-kraut @just-an-elf-with-the-socks @melkor-did-nothing-wrong @winds-of-zephyr416 @silvergreyrain @privatebooth @jiangwanyeehaw @glowing-blue-feathermage @spicywarl0ck @trash-ainu and @cilil

Omg thank you! So much! For tagging me! This seems like fun :D

Last song:

Last Book: See, I wish it was something fun, like the Silmarillion, or Rythm of War, but nooooo, I'm stuck writing a dissertation, so I'm afraid the most recent book I looked into was "Distinction" by P. Bourdieu 🫠🫠

Last Movie: Blue Velvet

Last TV Show: Hmm... it was probably The Legend of Vox Machina

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: Spicy. Spicy all the way.

Relationship Status: Single

Last Thing Googled: Basset Hound plushie (for a gift :3)

Current Obsession: My current obsession is def angbang. My past obsession? Also angbang. My future obsession? Not very likely to change XDDD

Looking Forward To: 1. The end of this f@*!^&# college semester and passing my exams; please, gods, let it end already ;_;

2. Getting a moment of peace and quiet to finally sit and have a proper writing session

3. The next D&D sesh for a campaign I run for my friends C:

Last Creative Project Worked On: I have two I'm currently switching back and forth between - that aforementioned D&D campaign and an angbang fic - Psalter of Weak Hearts :3

Zero pressure tags (hope i'm not annoying you guys):

@floating-ping, @melkor-did-nothing-wrong, @skye-the-dragon, @winds-of-zephyr416, @constancya, @electrik0n, @thefandomobsessedidiot, @from-dark-dunharrow, @mai-komagata and @dictatorshipper :3

I...I got tagged? Who dare drag me out from under my rock-- oh it's you! Let's see

Last song:

Last book: Possibly the first horror book ever made: Book of Revelations : D. Due to certain circumstances, college and stuff, I'm unable to get back to more fun literature (House of Leaves, open your doors to me again, I beg you).

Last movie: I don't really watch movies, I just can't really find strength to. I suppose the last one would have been...The Green Knight? That was almost a year ago, holy shit.

Last TV show: Trigun Stampede

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: I like all of them, as well as bitter, sour, rich...

Relationship Status: Single

Last Thing Googled: The Green Knight : v. Totally not because I was afraid I was misremembering, nooooo.

Current Obsession: None, I have very much trouble with becoming invested in things. Sure, there are some where I probe into them, but it never is strong enough to be called obsession. That being said, I am most enchanted by Project Moon and Limbus Company. Very cool, would distort again.

Looking forward to: in no particular order

Last creative project worked on: I'm not really a creative project person. I guess I made a character and short story for our DND game? Wrote some shitty poetry here and there, and there's a Google drive full of dumb WIPs, like Lancer one shot, weird scifi stuff, story about man hanging in a room... I'll never finish them, but they're here, to taunt me, to laugh at me.

Now, tags, not many, bc I'm kinda a recluse, definitely don't have 10 ppl who I'm comfortable asking, soooooo here's 3 (Yeah, I know, breaking the rule, I'm sowwy ;_;)tbh xd

@postictarus , @crowded-empty-places , @kaytpoems , and open tags for anyone who wants to be interrogated :33

(no pressure, and sorry if I'm bothering you)

Hello Realm! A brief showcase of different oc regions

Song: 안녕 아희 (feat.UNI)

Maaaaaaan, this is good. I love your stuff

first visible animal of dusk, whose antlers maim the stars, break off pieces of their longing shapes sends them scattering to earth, so full of omission no one is allowed to pass, there is no deep shelter there is only the ore-wear of hunger, time’s burrowing, the ways in which our desires beget us 

At evening when I arrived - nowhere a thousand imaginations rose up in me like an enchantment I gave my hands hopelessly into it saw dusk graze itself blindly across the winter hills, blue as its heart and pitched myself into its apple where no arms may hold me but the echous ribbons of a long-lost past

I know you do not exist

But you think you do

Looking for darkness

In broad daylight

I AM MY BIGGEST FAN!!!!

This is so good, I love it!!

I don’t need therapy. I need my husband (archive of our own) to return from war (the server is currently down) and come home to his devoted wife (an ao3 user who was in the middle of reading a gay sex scene). it’s been almost two years (20 minutes) since he (ao3) has been taken from me

@trash-ainu and @constancya

Thoughts like koi flop from

a stranger's wishing well mouth,

toxic with copper.

the field is not infinite - do you remember when I realized? spacious nowheres torn by the heft of nameless graves - mountains, body-made, bloating beneath the sun - there is no protection from the world, it is something that happens to you -

Unknown Author - Poetry

The music’s still playing as her feet walk out to the sea At the fringe of a lifetime, as her lips whisper to the breeze Does the world turn this calm or’s it the slow rush of the sea Follow me out here Follow me deep

monozygotic

(ione meraki 2024)

As Moth Is Drawn To A Flame

Attraction

like a moth to a flame

Irresistible

to the glitters of gold, to a

desire for sensuous beauties

From a harmless candle

to a dangerous fire

Folded eyes long for light

from faint familiarity

to rogue recognition

Stimulation

by an arousing emotion

Destruction

awaits the wild imagination

as thoughts lead to actions

Fools

choose deliberately

a wit without wisdom

Popularity draws the young

as Moth is drawn to the Flame

©Johnny J P Lee

13 December 2024

Gogyoshiren Poem (20)

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