The Void

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dream from 12 March 2024:

I was a kitten and my mom was teaching me how to hunt! Except my mom was a frog. She was one of those frogs that are big enough to eat small mammals and lizards and I was in the "bumper car"/"walking potato" stage of kitten, so we were about the same size. She led me down to a pond and showed me how to catch bugs with her tongue, but since I was a kitten, I couldn’t do that. She decided to use mice: a prey animal more suited to me but still small enough for her to catch and eat. Now we’re in an area that looked like my backyard with the big maple tree still there. (For context, my backyard doesn't get mowed or herbicide sprayed on it, so the grass is tall and has lots of other plants in it. The big maple tree is gone now; it was dying, so it was cut down because it was a safety hazard.) She pulled a mouse out of her box of live mice, injured it, and let it go so I could learn how to hunt. I tried to catch it, but quickly lost it in the grass. I knew it was still there, because the grass moved, but I couldn’t see it or catch it. While searching, I went onto the outdoor patio and found a big worm poking out of the loose dirt. I happily gave it to my mom because I knew she liked worms and she had given me a mouse to eat. After searching more, and feeling increasingly hungry, I found and caught the mouse. I picked it up in my mouth by biting its neck. I tried to shake my head to break its neck and kill it, but I was too small! The mouse was touching the ground while I held it. Mom (who was now a cat) came over and killed it for me. I began to eat it, ripping the flesh off with my teeth.

dream from 1 January 2025:

I was playing Fossil Fighters. The gameplay was the same, but the cutscenes were very cool; they were clearly animated and saved as videos instead of in-game cutscenes. They showed the vivosaurs living in the environment, interacting with the human characters and each other. They were very high-quality, and I loved seeing them. And then that style became the game. There was this sapient robotic pachy (it looked very much like the silver leg version of pachy) that was the exposition-dump/quest-giver character. I needed to retrieve something from a cave somewhere, but we didn't know where. We narrowed it down to a cave in the valley. This was a lake surrounded by steep hills on all sides; higher up on on side, the hill leveled out and had a forest and that's where the building that serves as the main hub for the game is. I flew down on my pterosaur, past sauropods and ceratopsians, down to the bottom where the cave was. Right in front of the cave was a large lime-green pterosaur, who flew away without noticing us. Inside the cave was her nest. Her three eggs were fossilized and would never hatch. I had to clean them all off and revive them before she came back. After doing so successfully, tiny baby sauropods hatched out, including a seismo! I also saw a cutscene of the mother sadly nudging her fossilized eggs, waiting for them to hatch.

dream from 17 July 2024:

Luigi somehow ended up in Bowser's castle. He was terrified of getting caught, so to survive, he made a “Bowser suit” as a disguise. (My dream labeled it a 'Bowser suit' but actually looked exactly like Jr. instead.) Luigi's face was visible in the mouth of the disguise. Over the course of a long time, weeks or months, he lived in Bowser's castle, getting to know Bowser and Jr., fitting in, doing some snooping. And over time, he began to like them. Slowly, both Bowser and Luigi fell in love with each other.

Meanwhile, Mario and Peach were worried because they had no idea where Luigi was. They had been searching for him for a while and were beginning to lose hope.

Finally, one day, Luigi overheard Bowser saying to Jr. that he ought to return Luigi. Luigi was freaked out a little because how long had he known??? and why hadn't he done anything about him before????

I think my dream skipped something, because next I remember, Luigi is packing for the trip by train back to the Mushroom Kingdom, no longer in disguise, and he and Bowser are having a conversation. The silly disguise had fooled no one; Bowser had known from the start that Luigi was not a koopa(?) and it hadn't taken him long to figure out who he really was. He had played along because he found it amusing and wanted to see what Luigi would do.

dream from 28 April 2024:

A group of 12 to 30 teenage friends, all part of the same class, all piled into the same car to go to the mall. The leader of the group, a tough black girl with loosely curly brown hair, drove them. Outside, there was a zombie apocalypse, but they were completely safe in the car and passed by all the zombies without harm. Inside the mall was abandoned of business due to the apocalypse. There was a rival group there that challenged this group. The leader of the rival group was an older teenage boy. I can’t remember the stakes or content of the challenge, but I remember two girls of this group were major players in it: the leader, and this Asian girl with smooth short black hair who may have had ice powers. The challenge involved one of those spiral plastic tube slides, which the Asian girl had to go down. I believe the slide was a portal to a sort of pocket dimension.

My memory of the dream may have skipped something, but somehow, the entire group got transported to this place. The started at the top of a long set of spiraling concrete stairs, like you would find in a hotel or apartments. There were pipes on some walls, the floor was dirty, and there were no doors. As they went down, there seemed to be less and less light, and more and more water on each landing. Or rather, there was supposed to be. This dimension was watched over by a type of creature that my dream never gave a name to, but I will call an “overseer.” I was now watching from the first-person POV of this creature. He looked like Gaster, but younger. I will call him “G,” because he was Gaster in my dream, but he was certainly not the actual Gaster from Undertale or Deltarune. His clothes was a pitch black robe thing that covered his whole body, or perhaps it was his body. He had smooth white skin/bone on his head and hands, and no cracks on his face. He was also pretty short, like an average height of the group of kids. He was also invisible and intangible. He had complete control over this space outside of normal space, but he hadn’t finished setting it up yet. The lower landings had no water on them yet because he hadn’t put it there, and the teens spotted him carrying a “wet floor” sign into place, or rather, they saw the sign moving on its own and figured out there was someone else there. (Also during this sequence, another overseer stepped in through a door on one of the landings, acknowledged G as they passed, and stepped out of a different door on the same landing. This overseer looked like a human adult. I believe the kids could not see these doors, because they did not notice this interaction at all.) My dream may have skipped something, because next, the kids were talking to G. He seemed very lonely, so they lead him back up the stairs to the exit back to their world. The leader grabbed his hand as they approached the top of the stairs. Also maybe at this point they could see him. He started to panic a little, breathing a bit faster. He had never left his pocket dimension, and he wasn’t sure he even wanted to. Or maybe he did? He was scared and uncertain and lonely. He wasn’t even supposed to interact with humans like this. But as the leader passed through the exit, he could not. It was like he had hit a wall. He slowly reached out to touch it as he started to tear up. The kids could definitely see him at this point.

I think my dream may have skipped or changed something here. The group could not leave through the exit at the top of the stairs, and the dream acted like it had never even been there. G and the teens were allies, with the teens trusting him to lead them to a way out. He was struggling with himself. He liked the teens, because they talked and interacted with him and considered him a friend. But by allying with them and leading them out, he was going against his purpose. He was not supposed to be friends with him, he was supposed to be testing them; any friendliness was meant to be to further these tests. And if there was even a way to leave, he wasn’t sure he wanted to leave himself, but he didn’t want to be alone again. G lead them out the door in the staircase and through a couple other overseers’ spaces. One was a bit of office hallway reminiscent of The Stanley Parable, and the other was an unfinished office, with concrete floors, unpainted walls, missing ceiling tiles, boxes scattered around, a ladder, and also an overseer sitting at a desk. He brought them into another section of his own part of the dimension: a large meeting room with dark blue carpets.

Each overseer had their own space where they had total control over every aspect of it (such as the look and feel of the place, the layout, the objects in it, where any doors lead, and so on), but they were all interconnected, and they did not have control in the spaces of other overseers. This space where the overseers existed was sort of a combination of The Stanley Parable and Aperture Science. Like the Parable, this was a space outside of normal existence, and was an endless maze of non-euclidean office space and warehouses, watched over by an invisible and intangible “narrator.” And like Aperture, the dimension existed to run endless tests, often to the detriment of the humans who got caught up in it, with an overseer to watch and record the results and make occasional comments (if that suited the purpose of the test). My dream never made it clear the purpose of these tests, but from what little I saw before waking, they seemed to be testing the human mind. Unlike both, however, the overseer actually existed in the space, and would follow the subject around. If they spoke, their voice would by default come from wherever they were standing (though I’m sure overseers could make their voice come from everywhere or from speakers if they wanted). Overseers could see each other, but their test subjects could not see them. Or rather they’re not supposed to see them. My dream often had the group of teens able to see or touch G, because how else was he able to lead them places?

I’m forgetting something again here. The next thing I remember, the group is standing in front of a short hallway with large windows on both sides. G is invisible again, but is still able to converse with the group. The group needs to get through the window on the left. Behind it is a small concrete room with metal shelves full of tools and a out-of-sight door that they need to go through. There is a scrawny white boy with blonde hair in the middle of the hallway. He makes a motion at the window and the glass shatters. G made the glass shatter to trick the boy into thinking he was psychic as part of a test. It worked, but G feels disgusted about it. He is continuing to test these kids, using their dependence on him to lead them through more tests. There is no guarantee that where they’re going will let them leave, and he’s taking a very roundabout path there instead of going directly, purposely delaying their reaching their goal in order to fulfill his purpose (and maybe spend time with them before they leave).

dream from 1 April 2024:

There were four clans. A long time ago, one clan got banished for some unknown reason, and nobody has seen them since. Now, it’s time to pick a new king to rule over all the clans. The three clans, including their kings, showed up. Two clan kings volunteered: an evil king of one clan, and the king of the banished clan. He had arrived basically out of nowhere, by himself. The way to pick a new king was to send them through the sacred cave. They went in together. The evil king was set on his path, and made his way quickly through the cave. The banished king kept getting distracted by the wonders the cave holds, exploring the side rooms and tunnels. He even conversed with the castle staff a bit, since some of the cave’s tunnels led to the castle. (One that I remember led directly to a servant break room, so he chatted with the maid that was cleaning up in there.) The exit to the cave was a large underground pool of water that the kings had to swim through, which glowed blue from underneath. The evil king got there and dove in first. I don’t remember if the evil king did something to the pool, or if it was just reacting to the king’s evilness, but while he climbed ashore outside, helped up by members of his clan, to the cheering of the crowd, the clear sacred waters turned murky. This seemed like a bad omen, and nobody could remember that happening before, but since the evil king had made it out of the cave first, he was crowned king of all the clans. The banished king went home to his clan. He ice skated down a frozen river, using his wings (He had wings now, part of his magic. The wings were his arms, not sprouting out of his back.) to propel himself faster. As he neared his home, his son, the prince, joined him. The river opens into a small pond, showing a frozen wonderland. The pond is the center of his kingdom, and it is surrounded by houses made of ice and trees. Opposite the river is his “castle,” which is larger than the other houses but very small for a castle. His queen greets him. Even though he was not crowned king of all clans, his clan still gathers to celebrate, since the king successfully revealed their clan’s continued existence to the other three. The details of the dream end there, but the dream tells me that at the end of the story, the evil king is kicked off the throne, the banished clan is no longer banished with their king becoming the king of all clans, and the clans decide to vote on future kings instead of sending them though a cave.

dream from 10 May 2023:

Victim was TINY; they were maybe 2/3 the height of the other three noogai sticks. It was like someone had taken a resize tool and shrunk them. The explanation my dream gave was that it was because she was made on a monitor with lower resolution, so as monitors were made with higher and higher resolutions, she shrank. Cho and Dark were normal-sized though.

I'm going to post some of the dreams I've had, because some of them are really interesting, like interesting enough to be a proper story. I want to put them out there; maybe someone will be inspired by them.

This one is from 21 October 2020:

I worked at a facility not unlike a jail, but more white and sterile. I was told that the people kept here were criminals. I liked my coworkers and I didn’t know how to feel about the director of this facility, since he was somewhat aloof, but he wasn’t mean so I had no reason to not like him. I noticed, however, that most of the people held here had special powers. These powers were sort of considered normal in this society, and had been categorized, but most people didn’t have them. I noticed that the majority of people in this facility did have them. Still, I had a good life and didn’t question it. Until I realized that I had powers. I didn’t know what they were or how to use them, I hadn’t even used them yet, even unintentionally, I just knew that I had them. I told a couple coworkers and it ended up reaching the director. He did a test on me to see if I really did have powers, and they discovered that I did; I was very powerful. I still didn’t know what kind of powers I had though. They put me in a fenced in area and bound me with plants. Four trees grew, one large one in the center and three smaller ones near the edges. I could feel, hear, see through these trees. I knew when workers at the facility were approaching and looking at me. I would often move or vocalize when they were approaching me. After a while, they moved me and my four trees to the middle of a dense forest. I was no longer fully aware of my body; I had become the trees, and I was content to be the trees. I could see, hear, feel things through my trees. I knew when things were approaching or in my grove. Still, I continued to feel a sort of restlessness. Whenever I saw something, my body would react, often by twitching. Sometimes I would even make a sound or open my eyes. I would sometimes move at random times as well. After a while, a creature crawled out of me. It had spiky black fur that had a liquid look to it, like oil. It was shaped like a wolf, but not quite. (It was shaped kinda like Andrarch from Fossil Fighters, but it was all black.) It looked vicious. This creature was me. My human body remained on the ground, held down by all the plants growing over it, while I stood over it as this creature. I ran from that grove, trying to distance myself from my past life. Over time, I became fully animalistic. I hunted for food and completely forgot what I was before. I was capable of complex thought, but I was mostly guided by my instincts. I retained the connection to my grove, however. I could still see, hear, feel though the trees there, but my body the human there remained still. Eventually, I stumbled across my grove again. I felt a connection to the trees and my the body there, but I couldn’t remember why. I didn’t recognize my old self, I only knew that it felt familiar. My the body looked freshly dead I was still alive, but I knew not to eat it or I would die. I started hanging out and hunting closer to my grove. After all, knowing when small animals entered it made it easy to hunt them. One day, when I was farther from my grove, I felt a group of humans approaching it. They were looking for me. They knew I was powerful, more so than other humans with special powers. They wanted my help to fight and take down something. I ran back. One of them was about to start cutting away the plants connected to me the human when I reached them and attacked! They didn’t recognize me as the wolf, but they did think it was strange that I was so clearly defending my body on the ground.

me right now

So I've been playing Twilight Princess. And in that game, there are six sages that all look like this:

Yet these are meant to be very same sages from Ocarina of Time, before Ganondorf killed them. Which means that that guy above is actually Rauru.

They look different because different people passed down different legends and warped them in different ways. And that gave me a thought: what if the Rauru in Tears of the Kingdom is actually the same Rauru from OoT again? And further, what if various things in the different games are actually the same? Like, there's a few different sky peoples across games; maybe they're actually the same sky people but different legends caused them to be depicted differently. Maybe the draconic hero from 10000 years ago is actually a Link we've played as.