right person, wrong time (variations on heartbreak)

not now kitten. the enormity of daddy's desire is disgusting him

Self-Portrait Against Red Wallpaper

by Richard Siken

Close the blinds and kill the birds, I surrender my desire for a logical culmination. I surrender my desire to be healed. The blurriness of being alive. Take it or leave it, and for the most part you take it. Not just the idea of it but the ramifications of it. People love to hate themselves, avoiding the necessary recalibrations. Shame comes from vanity. Shame means you’re guilty, like the rest of us, but you think you’re better than we are. Maybe you are. What would a better me paint? There is no new me, there is no old me, there’s just me, the same me, the whole time. Vanity, vanity, forcing your will on the world. Don’t try to make a stronger wind, you’ll wear yourself out. Build a better sail. You want to solve something? Get out of your own way. What’s the difference between me and the world? Compartmentalization. The world doesn’t know what to do with my love. Because it isn’t used to being loved. It’s a framework problem. Disheartening? Obviously. I hope it’s love. I’m trying really hard to make it love. I said no more severity. I said it severely and slept through all my appointments. I clawed my way into the light but the light is just as scary. I’d rather quit. I’d rather be sad. It’s too much work. Admirable? Not really. I hate my friends. And when I hate my friends I’ve failed myself, failed to share my compassion. I shine a light on them of my own making: septic, ugly, the wrong yellow. I mean, maybe it’s better if my opponent wins.

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“caitlyn did everything she did in s2 out of grief” brother never in my grief have i ever violated the united nations human rights convention like that.

sometimes someone will casually mention using chatgpt or some other generative ai thing and I can actually feel the little

above my head

I hate the "of course Vi followed Caitlyn into being an enforcer her motivation has always been about following and protecting her friends/family" argument because by that logic why didn't Vi join Silco to be with Jinx? Vi attempts to convince Jinx that she's doing the wrong thing and that she should leave Silco because despite her love for Jinx, she still has morals and a spine. But when it comes to Caitlyn, Vi barely resists. and even if I play devil's advocate and say that Vi might have followed Caitlyn because she was desperate to not lose the only person she had left (because her relationship with Ekko is non-existent in S2) you can not convince me that she would put on an enforcer uniform. Season one does so much to develop Vi's traumas when it comes to how she views enforcers they orphaned her, they falsely imprisoned her, they beat her, and they uphold the oppressive systems that lead to every horrible thing she has ever experienced. you can not convince me that the power of love defeated the generations of trauma that Vi holds. And it's ridiculous that she at no point reflects on legitimately becoming a class traitor who joined in on upholding the oppressive systems that have been fought against by every loved one she has (vander, her mother, her sister, ekko, etc). She never reflects on becoming someone her younger self would have despised. She went through an underdone alcoholic pit fighter arc over a break-up but not over destroying every moral that made her who she was and betraying the values of everyone she supposedly holds dear. The writers didn't attempt to hide their boredom with her at all.

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is there any romance animes that instead of high schoolers stars fail unemployed 26 year olds having a quarter life crisis . just feel like it’d be more relatable to some people idk

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