it’s getting too bright for northern lights so just have to stare at my ceiling from now on

rooting for lando while simultaneously hoping mclaren crashes and burns is now my personality trait

i’ll judge lando for a p6 when he has a car that is suited and built for him.

goal for tonight is to stay awake til 11 PM :)

the way lando looks at carlos is just… soft.

and it’s so different from how carlos looks at him. carlos is all pride. always the first to speak up, to hype lando, to show just how much he believes in him. you can feel how proud he is. It radiates off him.

lando’s version is more internal. he watches. he listens. and when he looks at carlos, there’s this quiet softness, like he’s holding something close, something he doesn’t always put into words. It’s subtle, but it’s full of care. but don’t get me wrong, when he feels like he has to stand up for his man, he definitely does.

the way they look and gaze and stare is not the same, but it matches. like puzzle pieces that don’t look alike until they’re side by side.

why is it always a photo or a video of carlos looking at lando like that? like is he just hung the stars in the sky with his bare hands. like he’s never seen anything more beautiful in his life. like lando is the center of his entire universe.

the way his eyes soften, the way his entire face shifts when lando talks. that tiny smile. that look.

it’s a confession, a sonnet, centuries of poetry condensed into a look, three seconds of eye contact.

i don’t think i would survive it, being looked at like that. i would be a puddle on the floor. i’d ascend. i’d evaporate and return as rain on race day.

soulmates, that’s what i always say. two souls pulled toward each other by some magnetic force. can’t write this shit.

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when you we’re gonna write something but someone else did it first so now you can’t

The thing is though, I am a mom. And I’m so incredibly happy and fulfilled in that role. Truly, nothing brings me more joy. I’m not ashamed that I’m an adult. I’m not ashamed that I’m a mom. I’m not ashamed that I have a job, a mortgage, and responsibilities and still enjoy being part of this fandom. So I don’t really know why someone thinks all of those things are some kind of a ‘gotcha’ moment.

I can’t even fathom acting like this over a sport. It’s not that deep. How seriously unhappy and unfulfilled must that person be?

I’ve been known to rage after races a bit as well, but then I just chill, move on and don’t say anything for like a week. That’s what normal, well-adjusted people do.

You can dislike a driver. Hell, you can dislike me. But my child is off-limits. Always. And I hope that person’s blog gets taken down after all of this.

Believe me, I am not hurt by this clearly mentally unwell person and their little followers choosing to drag me and my 9 WEEK OLD CHILD into some made up rivalry (literally never heard of this person or their url before today). I am disgusted. There’s a difference.

Dear @fuckyourchampionship and your chronies.

It’s truly disturbing that you thought it was acceptable to speak about my child simply because I’m a fan of Lando Norris. Let me be clear: this is just a sport. Supporting a driver should never make anyone, or their family, fair game for harassment or hateful comments.

If you feel the need to involve an innocent child in your attempts to tear someone down over Formula 1, you must be dealing with a level of unhappiness or bitterness that I genuinely hope you seek help for.

This kind of behavior says far more about you than it ever could about me. I will always stand up for my child, and I will never let this kind of toxicity slide. Do better. Be better.