"that time of the month" "monthly visitor" "feminine hygiene products" GRRAH!!! SHUT UP SHUT UP!!! PERIOD!! MENSTRUATION!!!! TAMPONS!!! PADS!! MENOPAUSE!!!!!!!!!!!

VAGINA!!!!

Being insane but cognitively aware of how insane you are is a special kind of hell because you know that you aren't normal and you can pinpoint the behaviors that label you as other and make people kinda go quiet and twitchy around you but you can't change them or your neurosis so you're stuck in a brutal cycle of trying to emulate normal people and failing horribly cus you know in theory how normal people look and act but in practice you can never change what you are and everyone else knows it too and this goes on forever until you die

being abused or neglected really makes it clear how many things are skills that nobody really treats as. skills. exercising autonomy is a skill. listening to your body is a skill. resting is a skill. being liked and being loved are skills. nobody tells you how to do this shit because nobody even told me I was supposed to have learnt these things when I was a kid. I kind of just have to manually figure out what makes me freak out and work from there. unfair as shit

Currently doing an Insomniac's Gambit. For those of you who don't know, this is when you mess up your sleep schedule badly enough that you attempt to fix it by skipping an entire night of sleep then going to bed at a reasonable hour the next day. Crucially, it does not work

service industry is crazy they’ll be like nooo don’t call in sick just because you’re extremely sick and contagious, it’s the end of the world if you don’t come in and people will die. and your job is giving people pasta carbonara. you’ll live

Why would tumblr update. They know we’re all autistic

everyone who ever tried to kill you failed btw

this isn't something you can rly say in polite company but it's true. if you're trans or from some other marginalised community then a lot of people have wanted you dead. some have tried, in one way or another, to make that happen. you beat them and i'm proud of you

You know what?

Fuck yeah

*touches ground* forg was here

“what do you listen to?” music. “what kind of music?” the kind that gets my dick hard what the fuck are these questions

all i do anymore is have a cut on my finger

any shit resonates with you people

Lets orbit around mama

a perfect allegory for the contradictory nature of our inner worlds, always conflicted, born and taught to be soulless, to feel nothing, but we still feel it all, deeply

it’s a good thing they’re not tablebottom games because otherwise you’d have to fuck around with like magnets or glue or some shit. youd always have to be dealing with dice or miniatures falling into your eyes. hard to rp expressively while living in constant fear of banging your head. honestly we’re so lucky when you think about it

i don’t stand by everything that i said in 2018, but i maintain that this would be awful