Pinned
A Demon
symbolically imps have absolutely 0 appeal for me from a religious angle. i like imps because no matter how human-like you draw them, if you just add the horns + tail you now have a design that is decidedly not human. it doesn’t matter if every single aspect of that design other than the horns and tail are human, even if the design has a regular human skin tone, those two features are enough to separate them from humanity. those big scary demon designs with 1000 hands and the little red imp guy with a fat tail are the same level of nonhuman and the imp is never gonna be able to run away from that even if they want to. it’s perfect
so i've been yelling at myself for never doing traditional art cause its always been a lil dream of mine but i never got into it, but now with (theorized) carpal tunnel developing drawing with pens and acrylic markers on paper is the only form of art that doesn't hurt my hands which is ironic, to say the least
oh yeah? you wanna draw traditionally you son of a bitch? you want to do it but you're "scared of fucking up?" alright then do it. its no longer a choice. do it or you're not making art again you weird fuck
so i've been yelling at myself for never doing traditional art cause its always been a lil dream of mine but i never got into it, but now with (theorized) carpal tunnel developing drawing with pens and acrylic markers on paper is the only form of art that doesn't hurt my hands which is ironic, to say the least
if tumblr goes down you can find me on (looks at smudged writing on wrist) signal stories
matt just fired half the remaining tumblr support staff lmao
from my sources adjacent to tumblr--from which i can spread rumors and insider information freely because i dont give a fuck about ever working in the tech sector--im hearing this round of firings was focused on purging the senior staff, and not just support but the entire remaining tumblr workforce. i'm hearing there are about 25 people left.
So I assume this is basically a prelude to shutting tumblr down at some point. Welp.
I might reactivate my bsky at some point, I'll be obnoxious about posting it around if/when that happens.
I don't wannaaaa move to bluesky bluesky sucksssss
I can never leave Tumblr because after years of sporadic therapy utterly failed to even approach the core of my problem some random tumblr user was like “I processed my trauma by writing a 10,000 word work of filthy fanfic erotica” and I was like “fuck it I’ve tried everything else” and now I’m 17 chapters and 20,000 words deep into an unpublishable work of obscenity and after careful literary analysis with one of the Beloved Mutuals I have come to some Terrible Revelations about my childhood and may now continue the process of Healing. Where else am I supposed to get this kind of experience. Who does this. Why are we like this. I’m never leaving. I love y’all.
freakin me out how “being worried about your weight” is just supposed to be the default state of mind.
happy tdov to people who don't pass or have no interest in passing, who can't pass because there is no culturally recognised category for the way they want to be recognised, who flip flop and fuck around, who can't hide their transness and have to plan their everyday around being visible, who can't signal their transness and have to come out over and over because the default presumption is intolerable, who don't have the resources yet or the knowhow or the willpower to change what they want to change, whose transness is warped by a hegemonic image of ideal transness that is almost as difficult to escape as the hegemonic image of cisness, who don't have a justification prepared for the assertion that they are trans but can no longer justify the assertion that they are not, who have a million justifications that are all surplus to the fundamental requirement (that society mandated one articulation of you and you chose another), et cetera and so forth across the world and universe forever. your version is right. don't concede.
