So heโs gone heavily downhill. Jake is not really himself anymore and heโs clearly suffering. The decision was made so much quicker than I was expecting, but we have to consider his quality of life.
Heโs been staring into space, always exhausted and heavily panting, his rib cage has bowed out from how enlarged his heart has gotten. His gums are blue, thereโs almost no recognition in his eye.
The decision has been made. Tomorrow, Thursday 31st August, we are sending him across the rainbow bridge. My dad and I found some clay so we can have memorial paw prints made, and weโre looking at what other options we have from the place the the vet works with for it.
This has been one of the hardest moments of my life and everything feels way too soon. But I have to do what is best for my boy. Heโs not happy, heโs clearly suffering, heโs not really all there anymore. So as much as we want him to stay, itโs not fair to him anymore.
We love him more than anything. If we could give air from our own lungs to help him live better and longer we would. And we know if there was another option to help him live a happier and healthier and longer life then we would take it in a heartbeat.
He will always be with us in our hearts and if there is a heaven he will be there waiting. If a soul exists, he has one. TJ and Jake will be together tomorrow and hopefully some essence of our boy will live on in TJ.
I donโt think Iโve cried this much in my life, but I need to remember all the wonderful moments weโve had together. Any last words before 3pm GMT tomorrow I will pass on to him. Thank you to all of you who show your love for Jacob every day. -Jen