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ugh girl. let me just say ive been following u since forever right. I was there for all the crushes all the eras. and your relationship with manu.. a tumblr - medium distance at first relationship lasted longer than my first relationship.. im soo amazed because how do you guys keep things going? like genuinely.. what ended mine was that.. the connection was slowly fading and we're both rlly busy so we didn't know how to work with that. Also a bit younger than you so my partner thinks relationships need to be perfect all the time even tho im trying to explain that we will have rough patches?😭 and she started to think she was gonna cheat bc she was attracted to ONE PERSON ONE TIME.. and then it went to "im shit and too hard to deal with you deserve better than me" and im like WHAT bc all ive known is princess treatment.. like its a bit silly to say no one will treat me as good as her when it's my first rls but I genuinely think she's my soul mate and I dont want to be with anyone else I don't care ab them like ughhhh. and now we're broken up but calling occasionally when I want to if I've been crying nonstop the whole day nd I just want to talk to her. Idk what to do.. and im confused bc she's telling me im too pure and the way I think about love is so genuine and pure and she won't find anyone like me and she won't be in any more relationships bc its gonna be hard to find smb like me.. but then im right hereeee like im here its just so confusing.. And when I called her bc we haven't called in ages just so busy. She said she regrets picking up the phone bc now she's starting to feel things again and she told me ily before she hung up.. idk why when she's been also telling me "idc anymore" "I don't you to hate me" "just move on we're not gonna be tg anymore" "I don't love you anymore" then youre gonna say that.. it brokeee me.. idk what to do.. bc everyone keeps saying I should move on and its not that deep but yes it is. They don't know her like I do they didn't experience the mind altering love that I did. She used to try soo hard to be perfect and fix everything for me without complaining. I used to think I was always too much for people and she would get tired of me some day and she never did.. I felt sooo loved and cared for. And now its just.. confusing idk how to feel girl i can't talk to anyone bc they just don't understand. Idek why I'm sending this to you or if you'll even see it but I remembered you and I was like wowwwww. I hope you guys stay true to each other, such a beautiful connection you have