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Not a Smut Queen . . . A Smut Khaleesi

@lodessa / lodessa.tumblr.com

Your source for " realistic but fantasy-fulfilling" fanfic
Multifandom. I don't break up with fandoms; I just take breaks. Currently in an intense Elendil /Miriel (Rings of Power) shipping spiral . Still in an on again off again relationship with the Game of Thrones/A Song of Ice and Fire fandom (Jaime/Brienne, Dany/Jorah [show only], and Jon/Sansa amongst other ships), Star Trek (mostly Voyager [Janeway/Chakotay OTP] and current series, but I also enjoy the other 24th century shows and AOS), Veronica Mars (I live a Weevil appreciation life). I cannot possibly list everything I might reblog or write fic for, so enjoy the ride.
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"lodessa is an amazing human! she can be recognized in the wild by her inara icon and is known across the land for star trek rpf and for being into a song of ice and fire long before it was a tv show. she is a fellow fandom oldie and we relate on many levels. also once she wrote me cersei/brienne so basically she is the BEST."
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CHAPTER 3 IS NOW LIVE!

WHAT THE WATER SAW Pairing: Miles x Charlie Rating: M (for now) Summary: In the sleepy, picturesque town of Mineral Point, Wisconsin, reclusive music producer Miles Matheson lives alone in a sprawling lakefront property on Elkhorn Lake. Once the creative force behind a wildly successful band called Heartland Static, which he co-fronted with his best friend, Sebastian Monroe, Miles has spent the last several years in self-imposed exile from the spotlight. But everything shifts when his twenty-two-year-old niece, Charlie Matheson, arrives to spend the summer with him. Notes: No Blackout AU; Summer Vacation; Lake House AU; Rockstar AU Chapter 3 Teaser (maybe a lil' something for my Charloe/CM2 peeps): The next day, Miles was busy mowing his front lawn when Bass pulled up in his truck. They didn’t have any studio sessions scheduled today, but before Miles could ask what had brought Bass by, he watched as Charlie came skipping out of the house, dressed like she was ready for an outing, her expression even sunnier than usual.

“Alright, troublemaker, you ready to go?” Bass called out to her as he rolled down his window.

Charlie grinned. “Yup!”

Miles turned off the lawn mower and eyed them both suspiciously. "What’s this? Some kind of kidnapping?"

"Relax, Uncle Buzzkill,” Bass chuckled. “I just wanted to show her the finer sights of civilization."

Miles looked at Charlie. “Seriously? You made plans with this moron?”

"Don’t worry.” Charlie adjusted the strap of her bag on her shoulder and flashed him a smile. "I’ll be back in one piece. And if for some strange reason, I’m not, you can kick Monroe’s ass."

Miles just grumbled and watched as she climbed into Bass’s truck. After they drove off, he stood there for a good long moment, staring at the empty driveway and feeling way too aware of the quiet that settled in her absence.

Then he sighed and fired up the lawn mower again. ~~~~~~~~~~~~ For my pals who might be interested (but also no pressure to read, as always): @archer973 @lodessa @blue-charlotte @hithelleth @anverli

So excited that you are writing again, friend!

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"Lloyd and I actually talked about this a lot...their relationship transcends friendship *and* romance." ~Cynthia Addair-Robinson

#Mirendil #Eleniel ❤️‍🔥⚔️🌊⛵️

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happy first contact day everyone! here's a fic i wrote a while back summary: Solkar approaches Zefram after first contact. They take some shots and discuss that handshake.

"This,” said Solkar breathily “Is an ozh’esta. Crudely translated, a kiss.” “Our handshake must have been a sight.” Zefram realized. “Yes. More,” responded Solkar. Zefram rose to challenge. He dragged his well-worked fingertips across Solkar’s smoother ones. Solkar rubbed their palms together and gently traced the veins on the back of Zefram’s. This was strange, thought Zefram, but damn if he wasn’t horny as hell. He’d never considered himself one for hands before. Ass, yes, hands were new. Solkar looked up, face still reserved as ever but flushed green on his cheeks and the tips of his pointed ears and his pupils were blown. “That was very pleasant.” Zefram decided to shoot his shot. “Would you like to go back to my place?” “Yes,” said Solkar. “I’d like that very much.”

“She reached up with both hands and grabbed the blade with all her strength, pulling it away from her throat. She heard him cursing into her ear. Her fingers were slippery with blood, but she would not let go of the dagger.”

“Let him grow taller, she asked the gods. Let him know sixteen, and twenty, and fifty. Let him grow as tall as his father, and hold his own son in his arms. Please, please, please. As she watched him, this tall young man with the new beard and the direwolf prowling at his heels, all she could see was the babe they had laid at her breast at Riverrun, so long ago.”

This is a slow fandom zone

None of that "Oh no they bomb-dropped all the episodes in a week 1 month ago, I'm late!" "The tag hasn't been active all week is the fandom dead?" "I only got a hundred shares the first hour no one cares about my art"

Slow down

Take a deep breath and slow down

Fandom is YOU. And me and everyone. If we doodle stick figures for a show that ended 30 years ago we aren't "late" or "doing too little", we're playing dolls in our own time and having fun with works of art that mean a lot to us

You can literally watch and engage with something that aired in 2004 as if it aired yesterday

If the tag hasn't been active for 14 months guess what? If YOU post there, it isn't dead. Literally you can talk about anything you want whenever you want there is no weird law against watching things that people aren't actively talk about

Let's be deranged about stories together

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making every conversation into being about The Character with the same reliability and conviction of a youth pastor going “you know who else partied? our lord and savior”

You know who else would make fun of a youth pastor? Eli 'Weevil' Navarro. In this essay I will examine the different contexts in which this mocking would take place in each season of the show, and furthermore...

I think it's really impactful that Andor, dare I say the best Star Wars project ever made, doesn't have a single lightsaber on screen for its entire runtime. I'm pretty sure it's the first Star Wars property to do that. This isn't a show about space wizards, or about the nature of the universe, it's about people and their struggle against a power that feels unstoppable.

sorry if this doesnt make sense, im just trying to put some thoughts together.

its really my favourite show right now because for me it feels way more real than any other SW project. there was literally no force or magic powers to guide them, just sheer desperation. these people have no hope whatsoever, yet they are the ones starting a chain reaction that brings hope to the rebellion, they literally are the SPARK that made the fire burn because they were ready to sacrifice them and were ready to be forgotten.

because nobody or at least not many, will remember them. and thats why i think this is much closer to our reality than any other SW project. there are always people fighting for a cause, sacrificing themselves to bring other people a little bit of hope, a tiny spark in a large universe. people who are likely never gonna be known by the large crowd of awareness.

anyways, also cant get over Cassian literally helping destroy the death star that he unknowingly and unwillingly helped building •́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀

Reread Warrior's Apprentice for the first time in ages, fresh off of Shards of Honor and Barrayar, and see parallels between Miles-Arde and Cordelia-Bothari.

When Cordelia is a prisoner of war about to be tortured, she projects onto Bothari as a form of control over the situation, repeating There are two victims in this room, to herself mentally, and telling Bothari out loud, "I believe that the tormented are very close to God. I'm sorry, Sergeant."

Which is when he recognizes her, and is able to mentally supplant Aral Vorkosigan's Rules For Prisoners over Ges Vorrutyer's rules, first refusing to hurt her, and then stopping Ges from doing so.

Bothari's actions in that moment could theoretically happen even if Cordelia said nothing, if he simply looked at her face and Aral's rules kicked in. And Piotr, at Aral's request, making him a Vorkosigan armsman puts him in place plot-wise to do things.

But Cordelia reaching out to him, speaking, empathizing, is what forms the connection between them, leading to Bothari picking Cordelia as His Person To Make Rules. Their senses of identity & personal destinies are intertwined after that.

Almost two decades later, we get Miles & Arde. Miles is a teenager with a lot of cultural & personal baggage that make flunking out of the Imperial Military Academy entrance exams The End Of The World. He's wrapped his entire identity up in getting in & excelling.

When Miles fails the exam, when that path is barred to him, he has no back-up plan. Nothing. He refuses to consider anything. Full on depression spiral, worsened by his grandfather dying. The space adventure starts because Miles wants to help & impress Elena, but if they'd done that a couple years earlier he wouldn't have shattered his imagined future yet, and probably wouldn't have latched onto Arde.

Arde Mayhew is a Jump Ship Pilot. He has implants in his brain to do this work, he & other jump pilots can never truly describe their experiences to non-pilots. His class of ship is being decommissioned, his ship just got sold to a scrapper, he's medically ineligible for updated implants. We meet him holed up in the decommissioned ship refusing to come out, with no plan, just despair.

Miles feels like his entire world is over. Arde's actually is.

Miles empathizes. Miles projects. Miles cannot change the universe to get back his dream, but he can throw himself into finding a solution for Arde. He shoves himself into the situation, digging himself a deeper & deeper hole, never truly considering backing out until they are all literally in an active war zone multiple wormhole jumps away from home.

And one of the first things he does, to protect Arde from arrest, is swear him in as an armsman.

Arde, for his part, is befuddled by Miles' involvement, but latches on too. Miles gives him the chance to keep his calling, and Arde, in turn, risks that very calling ramming his ship into a hostile vessel to protect Miles. During the course of the book, Arde is slowly reshaping his identity from solely a jump pilot to jump pilot & Miles' Armsman.

Our original misfit Vorkosigan armsman is right there judging both of them for it. Arde doesn't understand Barrayar at all. Bothari is extremely pissed about the entire situation; swearing in outsider Arde is only eclipsed by Miles swearing in military deserter Baz Jesek. Bothari eventually comes around on Arde, thanks to the ship-ramming and Arde's reasoning for it, but never on Baz.

Naismiths: insane levels of projection, insane levels of resulting loyalty.

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